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10/100 days of productivity

song of the day: headlock-imogen heap

got quite a lot done. had to catch up on a lot since i've spent the past week hanging out with friends and attending events.

academic: completed physics and chemistry notes, a physics problem set, a biology problem set, and started reviewing for my chemistry midterm next week.

research: had to organize a lot today with the wet lab team and had a meeting with my co-lead about our paper. i had to read a ton of research papers but it was quite fun.

selfcare: did my laundry and cooked dinner! dinner didn't turn out as well as i had hoped but it was my first time cooking in over a month. took a lot of energy so i'll prioritize sleeping tonight.

tomorrow: i need to finish my calculus problem set which is due in 5 days and submit a research application. i'll try and finish my paper for the journal but i don't think it's doable in one day. i also have a chemistry lab that i still don't fully understand yet.

“If I’ve learned one lesson from all that’s happened to me, it’s that there’s no such thing as the biggest mistake of your existence. There’s no such thing as ruining your life. Life’s a pretty resilient thing, it turns out.”

— Sophie Kinsella

birth.

just read a modern au jayvik fic where viktor had a tumblr account and it kind of changed my brain chemistry. i have decided to post here from now on, documenting my life and goals. and also in part to practice my writing. i figured that having this to document things is loads better than venting to chatgpt, even if only one person sees my posts. if i end up gaining a following, or if even one person is reading this, i appreciate you and thank you. may we all forge on through the journey called life and define and evolve to be the best version of ourselves together.

this is me by the way

Finished the Viktor piece in time for his birthday!

they keep adopting strays it’s become a problem

introduction.

now that i have begun a blog here, i shall introduce myself. admittedly i am not all that good at tech stuff... i've always stayed away from the more computational side of science, so please excuse me if i make any mistakes.

general:

i fall under the trans umbrella. i was born a woman, but i have yet to figure out who i truly wish to be. i hope i do one day, however right now i prefer he/they pronouns: she/her pronouns make me uncomfortable, yet i understand differing beliefs and have no problem if i am referred to as she/her.

i am studying to become a cardiac surgeon: i want to be skilled in surgery, specifically cardiac surgery, and travel the world to provide medical/surgical care to areas lacking access to such care, such as warzones, less developed countries, and rural areas.

i have never been officially diagnosed with anxiety nor depression, at least not on paper. many doctors and therapists have told me i have strong symptoms and i have gotten pills prescribed. you may expect posts about my mental health, as i have no one in my life to talk about them to.

my favourite animals are cats, snakes, and otters. maybe penguins. i like dark green and dark red. my favourite band is the arctic monkeys- i went to their concert last year and enjoyed it immensely.

school:

i am a pre med student pursuing a bachelor's of science in honours anatomy and cell biology. as of now, i am a first year. i am debating between a minors in medical anthropology, biomedical engineering, or if i will even do a minors at all. we shall see.

research:

my interests lay in biomedical engineering. i enjoy learning about the applications, design, and challenges of nanotechnology, specifically tissue engineering. i also enjoy learning about the designs and ideas behind medical technology, however i don't believe myself to be enough of an engineer to pursue it myself. my current project is collaborative: i co-lead a dry lab team on writing a research paper using results from our wet labs, where they are developing a biomimetic bioadhesive. truly fascinating stuff.

hobbies:

sports: badminton, swimming, figure skating, trying to get into fencing and archery

instruments: voice (soprano, alto, tenor), piano, flute, want to learn cello

art: i enjoy oil paints the most, however i am also proficient in basically all other mediums like watercolour, acrylic, charcoal, pastels... i have been challenging myself to do sculptures lately too. i prefer landscape paintings however i also sketch still life and portraits.

other: i enjoy reading and writing. i mostly read nonfiction nowadays (ex. books about fish evolution. seems boring but it is quite fascinating) however i have always held a fondness for "classics". my creative writing style is very descriptive. in every sentence i write, i wish to covey yearning and beauty. it is a shame that i do not get to practice my writing much anymore. i also enjoy baking and cooking. in the future, i want to learn how to ride a motorcycle and buy myself a batcycle (aka. a kawasaki or yamaha fully black bike. they look sick.).

language:

i speak english and mandarin chinese fluently. i am proficient in french. i wish to learn italian and spanish.

i'm not too sure how many facts to include here before i sound like a narcissist. i shall end it here. (i really want a white ball python they are so adorable).

some notes from fall semester

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17/100 days of productivity

song of the day: two- bbno$

over 8 hours of studying for chemistry today! i did so many practice problems my brain is barely working now. just finishing up a physics discussion assignment because i completely forgot about it... oops. made a little list of concepts to review tomorrow.

my ceiling light has been out for the past 3 days and my room is literally freezing... good thing i went apartment hunting for an hour instead of studying today.

tomorrow: going to an 11 hour conference but i think i'll leave early to study for my midterm.

I AM CRASHING OUT GIVE ME A BREAK PLEASEEEE

thank you for tagging me, @sugaredpastille <3

last song: laura plays the piano- akira yamaoka

fav color: (dark) green

last book: life sculpted- anthony j. martin

last film: crimson peak- 2015

last tv show: hannibal (nbc)- 2013

sweet/spicy/savory: savory but i also like sweet

relationship status: single and yearning

last thing i googled: "why r code being stupid"

current obsessions: coffee rings in notebooks, flake stickers, soft cookies. mashed potatoes. cute small oranges.

looking forward to: next semester and having half the day free to make my notes pretty with new stickers! (i shoved my lectures all in the mornings)

i tag @h0n3ym00n333, @lizziesnook