anyone else with pmdd more cross at the fact it's their period causing their symptoms than the actual symptoms themselves
the adhd + intrusive thoughts combo is a fun one because these thoughts should be making me feel awful and anxious but then the adhd gets distracted by a window frame and then i forget to dwell on them
The most terrifying part of having memory issues is when you can feel something from 5 seconds ago be thrown out the window and there's an empty hole where it once was. You remember that you forgot something.
the moment an eating disorder isn't restrictive or doesn't "compensate" for behaviours that could lead to weight gain, nobody gives a shit. and it's exhausting.
as someone with binge eating disorder, i'm tired of being dismissed, humiliated, and ridiculed by everyone.
i've had psychiatrists tell me that my eating disorder isn't real and that i just 'have no self control'.
i've had anorexics call me a disgusting pig and use my mental illness as something to laugh at.
i've had bulimics say similarly horrible things, which is hypocritical given their disorder involves binging as well, but when i pointed that out they told me that 'at least they do something about it.'
binge eating disorder is horrible to live with. at the very least we could be given some respect.
tw: eating disorder mention (not abt me)
i feel like we dont talk about binge eating disorder enough. a lot of people talk about anorexia, a decent amount of people talk about bulimia, but ive barely heard people talk about bunge eating disorder. it's a very serious disorder, just as serious as anorexia and bulimia, yet it doesn't get as much recognition as it should. i find that odd.
pmdd is having a little guy in your head whose solution to any and all issues is “just kill yourself” and you have to be like. sigh. NO, that’s not an option. and they’ll be like “…unless??” and it’s just that for a week and then they clock out and you wave to each other and say see you next month
happy disability pride month to anyone who has a disability from a condition that “usually isn’t a disability”. happy disability pride month to people with disabilities that aren’t often understood by able-bodied people. happy disability pride month to people who don’t have any official diagnosis yet. happy disability to people whose “labs look completely fine”. wishing you peace this july.
The fearmongering around medical transition for transmascs will never not be upsetting to me.
“you’re gonna look ugly as a man” “but you’re such a pretty girl, don’t change that” Wrong. You will look different after T, but you will look happy. You will probably grow hair and gain weight and look pretty different, and none of that is bad or makes you less desirable. You are going to look like you and that’s all that matters.
“T makes you angry” “you’re gonna be a scary man i won’t feel safe around you” Wrong. Testosterone does not “make” you angry. Messing with your hormones will mess with your emotions for sure, but you will not immediately become some scary predator when you start T. Being a man/masculine does not make you a threat, a predator, or inherently angry. That’s radfem shit.
“bottom growth is gross” “no one will want you with bottom growth” Wrong. Bottom growth is cool and a LOT of guys end up loving theirs a lot more than they thought they would. For a lot of people it is a desirable trait, there are people who find bottom growth hot and attractive. And! If you’re sure you don’t want it there’s things you can do to work around that, just talk to your provider.
“bottom surgery is super painful and not worth it” First off, call it phalloplasty, because that’s what you’re talking about. Second, yes it’s painful, it’s surgery. There are risks to it and complications can happen, but that’s true of any surgery. Phallo might not be for you, but it is life saving care for other folks. It is beautiful and should be talked about as life saving care and not as some afterthought thing that no one actually does.
Being transmasculine is a beautiful thing. Transitioning medically is not something every trans person wants, but if you notice yourself holding back for the reasons i’ve listed above (or similar) maybe reconsider.
You know, not to be an asshole, but I hate that all the stories about eating disorders are about bulimia or anorexia. I have binge-eating disorder and there is not a one story about that. No manga, no webcomics, no films, no nothing. Not a fucking one. It's like bulimia and anorexia are the only eating disorders that exist in the mass consciousness. And it seems to always be contextualized in dysmorphia. Like... maybe I'm just fucked up?? I have BED that resulted from PTSD. (There was a period of fatphobia, though this is distinct).
sometimes adhd is forgetting where you put your keys but other times it's having executive dysfunction so bad you haven't left the house in weeks, dropping out of work/school because you can't focus on it, cutting people off when the novelty of the relationship fades, and spending all your time binge eating to find the right level of stimulation and i think that needs to be talked about more
my therapist asked me if i consider myself an anxious person, to which i responded 'no' as if i'm not purposely withholding my worst fear from him bc i'm convinced that if i tell anyone they'll use it to sabotage me
nobody talks about how hard it is to exist in social isolation.
i forgot that it's normal to have a friendship group.
i forgot that it's normal to be invited to things.
i forgot that it's normal to leave the house.
i hope that people with friends never take that for granted because some of us don't have that and it fucking sucks.