Its A Frightening Thought, That In One Fraction Of A Moment You Can Fall In The Kind Of Love That Takes

Empathy isn’t a requirement. You’re not required to empathise, neither is it your job to. “Oh you can’t put yourself in their shoes? That’s ALRIGHT.” It’s alright if you cant picture yourself there, don’t bonk your brain for it. Now now, Just because a person hasn’t empathised with you doesn’t necessarily mean they won’t sympathise either. You cannot expect people to have your life figured out when they’re managing to have a grip on their own. “How could they have not known?” Sometimes it’s not that easy, a person can be just as mentally absent as they’re physically present with you, consider the factors before jumping to conclusions that throws them under the bus.

When my friend said “I want to hold you, I want to know you, and I want to know where you’ve been” and Vashti Bunyan said “I want to walk around your mind someday, I’d like to walk all over the things you say to me, I’d like to run and jump on your solitude, I’d like to rearrange your attitude to me, you say you just want peace and you’d never hurt anyone, you see the end before the beginning has ever begun”

We don’t know and we’re not at an authority to know what tomorrow’s consequences would bear, and it’s completely 110% ok to accept that there’s someone out there willing to sit by our side and help us through the net, to weave a heart and perhaps even a warm sweater out of it, not something that traps us in the disguise of our solitude. It’s alright to admit you’d want to reach out to a hand that helps you see through the holes of a woven mess because claiming that one wants peace and doesn’t want to act violently against another gives away more than you’d intend for it to, especially when it goes further than just wanting to restore a sense of security and support externally, it speaks about the nature you’ve been sown to, and how you can very much grow out of it, creating peace outside can only come after one has created peace within themselves :) to come to a mutual consensus with your mind and heart, collectively working together to patch through and heal each other

They’re not stepping in on your privacy but simply stopping by your doorstep to find a spot for the two of you to sit together, leaving behind a trail of palm leaves so you can feel and see the glimpses of your growth and vulnerability, not as a weakness but as a medium to communicate with yourself <3

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“whyre you here”

“You know .. we could’ve avoided this”

“Look me in the eye and tell me you still feel the same way, do it.”

“Why now ?”

“I’m not your test dummy”

“You emotionally drained me out”

“How was I supposed to know ? ”

“Does it hurt ? Tell me does it hurt like it did then ?”

“IM SORRY OK ? IM SORRY”

“Oh please you don’t have the slightest regret”

“Get back to me when this mask of yours falls off”

“It reminded me of them”

“Some people only remain in your life as a chapter”

“They were my favourite chapter”

“Was I the best you had ?”

“It pains doesn’t it”

“Your smile’s different”

“There’s a lot more to you than what meets the eye”

“Who thought someone as sweet as you could be so bitter”

“Step away from me”

“Don’t do it.”

“Please I’m trying”

“But it turned out that way did it not ?”

“You were sorry , ‘were’ ..”

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Nizar Tawfiq Qabbani

sometimes it’s easier said than done than to not want to change, but change does happen, be it within or beyond our will, but change does happen and it hits you like a bullet before you even have the time to prepare yourself for the run. So I’m just here to tell you that it’s okau to admit that you’re hurt and that this pain won’t subside just that easily, that it’s gonna show every morning you wake up and it’s gonna burn every few times you take a shower. That’s what it means to acknowledge it. That’s what it means to accept the very state of your being, and that’s what it requires to patch yourself up, to heal :) so the next time somebody asks you “are you going to change?” breathe in and say “am I going to change? I can’t tell, but I’m going to accept myself”

I think it’s very important to emphasise that there can be so many versions of you existing within the same existential reality, side by side. You don’t have to abandon your core to succumb to any socially engineered version of you that only brings about peace in the latter and not within you :( it’s okau to admit that different people placed contextually in different settings will inevitably bring out different sides of you! That doesn’t necessarily imply that you’re forgetting your ground :) to each their own. It’ll always be upto you to show any or every side of you to a person <3

 nourishes it

keeps it warm

fills it with love

fills it with rice

refills sanity bar

grants it a blessing

every page of This is How You Lose the Time War drives me Insane

One stranger shoots me a smile as I walk past and suddenly life is worth living and humanity is not for naught

~ ghosts of tulips past :: 💌