When Your Therapist Asks You What You Do For Your Mental Health But You're A Closeted Regressor: Oh You

Caregiver!jayvik making a hextech blanket that shrinks you down all smol after they wrap you up in it

Jayce is fine to carry you without it but you're too big for Viktor.

They'll know you're little cause you wordlessly go to the closet and bring the blanket out to them with big eyes like a puppy presenting a ball to their owner. Jayce will lay it down then pick you up and swing you back and forth saying "1...2...3..." Before (gently) throwing you down. Viktor will make a comment about him riling you up when you were about to have a nap. Jayce playfully fights against you to get you wrapped up all tight before shrinking you down and rocking you in his arms. Viktor sits on his stool holding you close to his heart as he softly sings lullabies in zaunite to you

I wish I had a caregiver that made sure I felt included in groups. That held me and rubbed my hand when I'm to tired to talk to remind me that they're still thinking of me and appreciating that I'm there.

Who makes a point to turn to me and respond if I try to say something but no one else listens. Who will ask me direct questions if I want to talk but I'm struggling to come up with something to say.

A caregiver that'll loudly say bye to me when I'm leaving so everyone notices and waves bye too

A caregiver that'll stand up for my needs when everyone else is ignoring them.

A caregiver that'll talk about me even when I'm not there, about how much they appreciate me and enjoy being around me

Fun fact! There's this thing called misokinesia that's similar to misophonia but is triggered by other people's movements, often repetitive movements like fidgeting or stimming.

I had this as a kid really bad, I was always having meltdowns cause no one would understand just how distressing it was for me so it's really nice to find out that it's an actual thing :3

Wishing that everyone who deals with misokinesia isn't forced to stay in a space with triggering movements 🥰🥰🥰

Dippin dots!!!!!

Zoo pics from yesterday!!

bringing back an old special interest, hsmtmts characters as win or lose characters

stressing over how they can stay in their club and continue to hang out with friends even through their single mom's job troubles

self destructively insecure about relationship

dad said I NEED to be perfect

lonely uptight teacher

millennial who is trying so hard to help her kids (& in love with the uptight teacher)

this doesn't fit the best cause hsmtmts doesn't have an insecure and genuinely not good at it but like vibes

and finally divorced dad

New lil guy picrew just dropped

He's so cute! Thank you, @xyn0n0

Your caregiver supporting of you after people were harassing/bullying you online:

⭐ After it first happens they immediately delete whatever app you're being harassed on off your phone

⭐If you're done with that app they'll delete your account

⭐If you want to keep your account they'll make sure to take off any personal information or pictures of you you put up on that account so you can feel safe knowing no one can track you down and hurt you more

⭐They come up with a bunch of other activities for you to do instead of using that app

⭐They'd show you a bunch of episodes about bullying from kids shows to make you feel less alone

⭐They'd reassure you that your feelings are valid and that online bullying is real bullying

⭐They make sure to tell you it wasn't your fault and that you didn't deserve that

⭐"but-but what if I was being a bad kid", "bubba, nothing you could do online would ever justify people threatening to hurt you"

⭐Would promise you that if anyone ever tried to follow through on a threat that they'd protect you

⭐They'd talk to you about what it would mean for you to get justice against the people harassing you

⭐If it would be a good idea to take evidence of people who sent you death threats and try to have their account banned or try to track down their school/job and show them the evidence

⭐Together you decided that it would be best for your mental health if you just deleted any messages and blocked them

⭐After a while if you wanted to go back to using that app they'd go through the notifications and block anyone who was harassing you and show you all the messages people sent saying they were sorry you were being treated that way

⭐You'd have your head in their lap, holding onto your favourite stuffie for comfort and they'd be scrolling on your phone

⭐"Are there a lot of them?", "That doesn't matter Bubba. You're safe and you have me here to protect you", "...okay"

⭐Every so often they'd stop and show you a kind message from someone and each time you'd feel just a little bit safer

⭐They'd respond to those messages for you

⭐If you weren't out as a regressor on that account they'd translate your little-talk about how you had big feelings but their messages were like kisses on your boo-boos to more adult sounding thank-yous

The trans guy in me hates being 5'3 but the age regressor in me loves being 5'3. Someone come and pick me up ( っ˶´ ˘ `)っ

tips for getting out of little space when you need to. (this is what I've found works for me, something different might work better for you)

Make sure you have ways to regulate your emotions when big so you don't slip back into little space when you first get stressed again

Try to ground yourself in your body, it'll remind you of your big age

And make sure you're happy with your body so it's easier to ground yourself. For me this means putting on gender affirming gear and a really dope outfit

Put on some less child friendly music you like

Try to change your surrounding and having some spaces where you regress and others where you don't

Make sure all your toys and other agere stuff is put away and preferably out of sight

If you feel comfortable put yourself in a situation where you can't regress (eg around ppl who don't know you regress)

Try doing things that make you feel like an adult, for me this is my sport (Kendo) and writing analyses of shows I like

don't try to act older than your big age, it might just make you feel like you're 'playing' adult and make you feel more little

And remember to not force yourself de-regress unnecessarily, it's your mind's way of healing and if you can try to work on stuff you need to do while regressed.

Here's my din din for today! With a little treat!