I’m Out And Masking So Hard, Even Though We’re Among Friends Who Are Aware I’m Just Not Super Comfortable.

[Box 1: Text: This system doesn't like being referred to as parts.

Box 2 Text: This system is asking you to stop calling us parts please.]

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So these tags were on my post about amnesia. And I want to address it. Short answer, no you do not. You need blackout amnesia (assuming that’s what you meant by full amnesia) in order to have DID.

DID is not the only way to have a system, OSDD 1-b has very little or no amnesia and still has alters, so does p-DID.

Though I do want to differentiate between the different types of amnesia.

Emotional amnesia: where you don’t remember any emotions that you were feeling during the event.

Greyouts: when you remember what happened but have no memories of it, as if someone told you about the event but you weren’t there.

Blackouts: when you don’t remember anything about what happened, and you often don’t remember that you missed something.

I’d also like to mention that amnesia often doesn’t happen in the moment, often the memory will fade over a short period of time until they’re gone. At least that’s what I experience.

Anyways, here you are @sprites-your-cal

Hope this helped

-Apollo

So…. We’ve noticed that when some of us front we aren’t always aware of certain memories until someone else mentions them. Like, if you asked us to list something funny we might not be able to, but if you say, ‘hey remember this specific funny thing that happened’ we’ll instantly recognize what you’re talking about. It’s like that memory is blocked until we’re told to remember it. Is that something you guys also experience? Is it totally normal? Please share the poll to get more answers.

This is a reminder to you just as much as it is my self.

You are not expected to know everything about your system at any point, and no one else in your system should be either

It’s okay if no one really knows what’s happening, even if you have a gatekeeper who’s always on top of things, there will probably be times when even they aren’t sure.

It’s alright to not know everything about yourself or even how things should happen. It doesn’t invalidate you or your system.

For some reason up to this point I expected someone in my system to have an answer to any question I had. And then would get frustrated when they didn’t have one. I am just now realizing that it’s not realistic to expect any of them to understand what’s happening at any given point. Including me.

I don’t owe anyone an explanation, and neither do you. Maybe we need to get just a little bit more comfortable not understanding before we can work on understanding.

Thanks for reading, take care of yourself.

-Apollo/Hunter

That system feeling when your MALE alter comes out and finds your STRAIGHT boyfriend cute and then proceeds to flirt with him and makes him question everything. 😂

-Apollo

This user/system/singlet hates Pluralpedia!

Reblog to annihilate an endogenic system today!

Is no one going to mention that the guys shirt says ‘LETS EAT KIDS!’

why endos dni? /nm/genq

(Sorry for the delay in responding)

As previously mentioned on this blog, I want my blog to be a purely traumagenic system space. As a traumagenic system myself I believe I have every right to ask for a space that does not include those who have different fundamentals than me. I have seen so many people attacked for believing that trauma is the only way to form a system (this is what I believe as well) by self labeled endogenic systems who say they accept everyone. I have no problem with speaking civilly and being kind to those who disagree with me, as long as we can both agree that bullying from the safety of a screen is not okay.

The same way LGTBQAI+ individuals may want a community without straights to help them feel safe, this doesn’t mean I’m labeling all individuals who identify as endogenic a bully, I’m simply trying to eliminate the possibility of ever making this space hostile.

If you are an endogenic reading this, know that I have no right to tell you you are invalid. You may very well be experiencing the same things as I am with a different label on it. That being said, if you are an endogenic I ask that you steer clear of my blog to help those who don’t trust your community, that has repeatedly attacked them.

Thanks for the question/gen

-Apollo

Me and my one irl system friend are tuned into the same microwave frequency, trying to push the buttons and make it work when it’s not even plugged in.

-Apollo