Experience Tumblr Like Never Before
I know I said I'd post render experiments but I just have to get this specific thought out.
It's basically Zero hating himself to such a degree that he refuses to say or do anything nice for himself which explains his complete lack of self preservation. And it gets worse.
How, you may ask? All the built up stress culminates to the point where Zero can't contain it anymore. He has a breakdown similar to when he was first awakened and cannot be brought out of it by himself. I won't go into detail, but I will say that Zero hurt himself, badly. Partially by accident, mostly on purpose.
Is that ooc? Yes. Did I daydream an entire arc revolving around Zero healing and growing into not just a functional person, but a good one? Also yes.
I should probably get into writing it in AO3 or something. I could go into far more detail, but I also visualize a lot of what's happening. Idk I'll just see what comes first once I finally have free time to myself.