Trigger Warning - Blog Posts

It’s been a month already… 😭 well another check up! How have you been? 😊

𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨...!! (tw: may be some touchy subjects/words in this for readers, so caution is advised. ig this doubles as a small rant/vent)

I'm gonna take this as an opportunity to fully apologize for my unexpected/unannounced hiatus. it's actually been a very rough set of months, and I really am trying to get past it. in short, I've lost some family, have been trying to set up a stable (and not mentally/emotionally draining💀✋🏽) environment for me to stay in and/or find a job, and possibly aim for a chance at getting back in school or learning to hone in on some skills that could up my advantages in getting myself ... unstuck, I guess you could say?

all in all,,, it's looking grim fr ngl💀.

but, it's not in my best interest to dwell on it. I can only take/deal with so much before I realize I need an escape or a recluse, and honestly, this account allows me to do that. with or without an audience, I continue to post/write because it's something I genuinely enjoy. I love being able to focus my attention on my special interests and while a lot of the times, my mental state or my outside struggles gets in the way of that, I still persist because without this one joy, this one thing no one can take from me,,, idk I might as well not be here lmao.

I don't mean to rant/vent any further, but for those asking (ty, lovely anon, for checking in♡), I'd thought I'd shed a little light on my situation, and I truly encourage everyone who sees this to be kind when give the opportunity.

you never know what someone else is going through, what's actually going through their heads, what they're contemplating, and what they're dealing with. if you can't do it because you just want to be a decent human being and want to make someone's day, at least do it because you don't want to be the cause of something tragic that's undoable :/.

with that being said, if you feel there's no one on this earth who doesn't love you, it must mean I've died because I love you. as long as I'm here, you will always have someone you can chat/vent/rant to, make friends with, and search for whatever support you need :). I am here for you, even as just one person♡.

~ lyssa💞

*ahem* anyways back to my fanfic author fangirl shifter autism adhd induced bullshit😻‼️... (which reminds me, I really am going to try to repost stuff more often and post other things than just writing, idk why I'm so bad at that💀).

TW: ranting, mentions of pro-ana, grooming, etc. I'm deleting this later, but I just need to get this off my chest somewhere...

I need these pro-ana, anti-x reader, freebat shippers, and "coquette lolita date an older guy and get groomed🥺" bitches OFF OF MY TIMELINE (or whatever it's called).

I'm so sick of seeing the content, like no matter how many times/how much I've blocked and reported, it still shows up?!

I've never even interacted with that type of content in the first place (to my knowledge, I can't really be 100% but I'm 90% and that's good enough for me) so why it ever started popping up in the first place is beyond me.

🧍🏽‍♀️😐 I don't want em or supporters of em in my community, much less to see it every 4 posts I scroll past...

The epilogue is now getting started!!! Although, at this point, perhaps it would be smarter to say it's something like a part two or continuance? Thanks for the kind words!

(Please prepare for even more angst.) but there will be sweetness in the end.

If You Hate The Ending of Naruto

You should read “What Should Have Been Mine” by Katie Madison on AO3. She posted the last chapter today.  SNS with a lot of bitter and a touch of sweet. She is promising an epilogue, which should be compelling. This story gave me all the feels. 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/16116641/chapters/37649180

Trigger/content warning: burns, mention of an unpleasant situation.‼️‼️

I offer MAXIMALLY strong condolences to the people of Los Angeles...... Guys, hang in there, escape the fire, and whoever has pets, children, be sure to take care of them. It is also unfortunate that many celebrities, and people in general, have lost their homes and mansions. Take care of yourselves and everything will be fine. 🙏🏻

On that topic, I just humanized a famous Hollywood sign and decided to sketch it as it is now. Yes, it looks kind of creepy and violent, but I just wanted to get a little bit into the theme myself since such a fuss has been made.

I also drew Liberty's reaction to the situation. If any of the people in LA were in NYC, Liberty could support them physically, but as it is, she supports and sympathizes with them over the internet, but it's better than nothing.

Again, my condolences, dear LA residents.🙏🏻❤

Translation:

People... so rotten and uncomprehending of suffering. They don't know those who are ready to protect and calm them.

Not understanding and stupid

Thought I would share my depressing parody of “Gone Forever” by Three Days Grace because I’m actually a little proud of how it turned out. Trigger warning for depression. (I’m okay now in case anyone is worried.)

Don’t know what’s going on.

Don’t know why I’m wrong.

Feels like a hundred years my

Ambition has been gone.

And I stay up all night

With these bloodshot eyes

While these walls surround me;

Where’s the meaning of my life?

I’d feel so much better

If I were gone forever.

I tell myself you wouldn’t miss me at all.

It’s not lying, denying, that you’d feel so much better if I were

To be gone forever.

Wish feelings were more clear.

So do you need me here?

While I’m in dark surroundings,

D’you wish I’d disappear?

And I try hard to find

The reasons in my mind.

Until the morning comes I’ll

Just want to end my life.

Would you feel much better

If I were gone forever?

Tell yourself you wouldn't miss me at all.

Be lying, denying, that you’d feel so much better if I were

To be gone forever.

First time thoughts screamed at me

I tried hard not to leave.

I need to know it can get so much better.

I hope that you’d miss me.

I hope you make me see.

“Don’t be gone forever.”

Wish feelings were more clear.

I wish you’d need me here.

While I’m in dark surroundings,

Don’t let me disappear.

I want to feel better.

Don’t want to leave forever.

I tell myself that I would miss you all.

I’m not lying, denying, that I just want it better;

Now don’t let it be forever.

And now I want forever.

Don’t let me end forever.

Trying to prove a point to my transphobic parents

Reblog if trans men are REAL, VALID AND HANDSOME MEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

Reblog if trans women are REAL, VALID, AND BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

And finally, because it's a part of my argument for this point, and also because they are,

Reblog if nonbinary and genderqueer people in general, are REAL, VALID, AND GORGEOUS PEOPLE, NO MATTER HOW THEY PASS

Hi I'm back

Allow me to introduce:

Hestia, the traveling performer that uses magic fire! She's my Legend of Zelda: Breath of The Wild oc!

I'm aware of how cringey and cliché she is but I just make my characters that way for fun :3

This first picture is her character sheet, the next is a little gorey, showing blood and some bone (not colored) so fair warning ⚠️

⚠️ TW:// SLIGHT BLOOD + BONE (Black and White) ⚠️

Haha death by guardians go brrrrr (seriously I hate those things)

DISCLAIMER FOR MY STORY: "Shadows & Cigarettes"

I would like to make it clear that I do not support the pairing of Frans (Sans x Frisk), even when Frisk is aged up. I do not endorse or support fanworks, including fanfiction or comics, such as "Sooner or Later You’re Gonna Be Mine,". My interests lie specifically with Mafiafell, and the story I am sharing is merely another interpretation of that universe. Please respect my preferences and the boundaries I have set for the content I create and engage with.

⚠️ Content & Trigger Warnings ⚠️ This story contains dark and mature themes, including but not limited to:

Stalking & Obsession – Depictions of unhealthy fixation, intrusive behavior, and possessiveness.

Kidnapping & Confinement – Situations where a character is forcibly taken or held against their will.

Violence & Brutality – Graphic fight scenes, physical harm, and intense confrontations.

Psychological Manipulation – Gaslighting, possessive tendencies, and obsessive love portrayed in a dark manner.

Substance Use & Addiction – Mentions of drug use, past addiction, and the consequences of such habits.

Emotional & Verbal Abuse – Toxic relationships, intense arguments, and manipulation.

Implied Harassment & Threats – Scenarios where a character feels unsafe due to another's actions.

Regarding Pairings & Boundaries (again): I would like to make it clear that I do not support the pairing of Frans (Sans x Frisk), even when Frisk is aged up. I do not endorse or support fanworks, including fanfiction or comics such as "Sooner or Later You’re Gonna Be Mine." My interests lie specifically with Mafiafell, and the story I am sharing is merely another interpretation of that universe. Please respect my preferences and the boundaries I have set for the content I create and engage with.

HAHA oh my god i wonder if she blocked me on everything.

how fucking petty.

fuck i should let someone else front but then i doubt either of them would talk with us. not like she would anyway.

god im so sick of this shit.

if im/we're a doormat we get told i/we need to stand up for ourselves but when we do that we're suddenly the bad guys?

god maybe i should just fucking kill myself. an endless void of nothingness sounds great.

i fronted again so that we could still keep in contact with out any problems but thats obviously not working so whats the fucking point. oh that's right- there is none.

god fucking damn it.

i hate being alone

dont worry im not going to kms- my rooms a mess and i dont want our mom to find our body and have to clean up our room.

as stupid as it sounds. but hey its keeping me here so i guess the mess isnt too bad

What the fuck is this??????????

Folks: you CANNOT censor trigger tags. When you block a tag, it doesn't block other "spellings" of it. Writing it as "r@pe" or "r4p3" means that someone who has "tw rape" as a blocked tag will still see that post because you didn't wanna say the word rape. You are hurting people. Do not censor words, because people do not have those filtered out.

And honestly if you can't even write the word rape to protect other people then you probably aren't old/mature enough to be on this website.

Okay I’m calling out to the Greek mythology side of tumblr with this one:

TW: Mentions of SA (Its Greek mythology so of course)

Adaptations of popular Greek myths are all but uncommon, especially those that portray the viewpoint of the many victims of the gods. Like the tragedies of Medusa, Io, Daphne, Echo etc.

Don’t misunderstand, if done right these can all be awesome retellings, but where is my Endymion retelling?

What would happen if Endymion woke up?

Can you imagine going to sleep one day, only to wake up hundreds if not thousands or years later to find out you were essentially magic-roofied and SA’d by a stranger who is now the mother to your FIFTY KIDS?!? (Oh yeah you have 50 kids now)

The Greek gods were meant to represent reality, not idealism and the story of Endymion almost perfectly encapsulates that. A young victim to the whims of someone far older and more powerful than them. Unable to remember what was done to them, but left feeling so confused and upset. Waking up in a strange new place after just having such an integral part of yourself violated…

THE STORY POTENTIAL IS ENDLESS

So why do we ignore him?

TLDR; Justice for my boi Endymion. He deserves better.

TW for slightly disturbing content and bright colors

It's tough sometimes :/