Slight Vent - Blog Posts

I'm kinda regretting deleting my old blog because I kinda miss getting all the interactions I did...

I've really wanted to draw my ship with Zoro lately but I still feel super insecure...

Do people even care about my ship?

Update! We found it! Ty!!!

I've looked all over my likes but I cannot find this thing

Any LMK fans recently see an animatic for the song "The Challenge" from EPIC the musical for Macaque?? It was shadowpeach based where the description explained Wukong was missing and the other demon kinds wanted to take it.

So Mac makes a challenge that whoever can lift Wukongs staff and beat him in a fight takes FFM.

It was a really good animatic and I can't fucking find it!! Pls internet help me

Link it in comment or send me the vid, don't care how, but I've looked every way I can!

The mortal plane is my prison

you know when your adhd compels you to immediately stop all work and begin reharmonizing a choir warmup for spooky season (october) and purposefully go download a free videoediting software (ShotCut, hot artists dont gatekeep) to then continuously voice record myself for the next one hour exactly cutting and editing the voice recordings to line up (speeding up by 1.001000x with pitch consideration) and then having a result that was absolutely not worth the time because your two-voice harmony one sounded much better than the three-voice one you spent twice the amount of time as the two-voice harmony one figuring out and you messaged your music major friend about it but theyre asleep rn so your thoughts are still hyperfixated on music even though i've music'd all the music there is to music right now because i have no instruments near my vicinity enough for my adhd to consider it more convenient than it is important to stay hyperfixated on this unimportant task?

yeah me neither

Sorta vent art in the form of practicing anatomy with my madness combat self insert. Because they are basically the embodiment of me being edgy and wanting to feel like a monster during a transformation.

Overall I just absolutely love how this turned out! The second drawing feels like Serpente becoming their MAG form or something-.

Honestly Tiktok makes me feel so insecure about being a Whitty fangirl but Tumblr- damn tumblr encouraging my imagination that makes me happy! Me and Whitty gonna watch Titanic together before Y E S

Slight Vent:

I’m sorry but I don’t trust anyone who tries to portray GF as a bad or spoiled brat WHEN ALL SHE DOES IS SIT ON A SPEAKER AND CHEER FOR HER MANS

I’m a huge GF simp/kinnie so I just- it doesn’t feel right for her to do that. Feels very OOC. I love the Tabi mod but I can’t handle the idea that she is something like dat

i am so uncomfortable in my gender identity i do not know what to do anymore

Sometimes I get overly obsessed with a certain person, and then I slowly start to despise them as I realise they do, in fact, have flaws

it’s all fun & games having ‘adult money’ to finally buy yourself all the things you always wanted as a kid (see also: pokémon cards, nano bugs, fruit roll-ups)

then before you know it you’re standing outside a gas station putting $45 into the car for the third time this week knowing it won’t even half fill the tank

it sucks that the money you get to spend on like rent and gas is the same money that you get to spend on records and plushies. there should be a serious currency and a fun currency

Writing stuff. why yes I did learn too many of these words from Chonny Jash, how'd you know?

I scream and scream and scream till blood pours out my mouth. I don’t care, I continue to scream. I scream till my head pounds and my eyes blur. The pain is immeasurable but it's nothing but drop in the bucket compared to why I’m screaming. So I scream till the world melts away, till all that is patternly and logical falls into dissolution and cacophony. I scream till I snap back into reality, where not a word nor noise leaves my raw throat. I want to scream till the pure and predictable melts into entropy. I want to scream till the world around me has no choice but become geocentric. I want to be catered to, but being dependent is far too terrifying. I know if I want help I need but ask but that thought is one unthinkable to me. Like an idea from a foreign system. I give advice I dare not follow, I preach what I would never practice.  My logos guides me to the easy and correct path. Yet my pathos dare not go out of fear of when we leave that path we shall no longer know how to clear a way for ourselves. I know I’ll break down eventually, hopefully my logos will get control over me before then but till then my mind will continue to scream into a mouth unable to project. 

Me: *existing*

The universe: but what if you did that but with a massive pain and a massive burden on you at all times

Me: what

Staying positive.