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After I graduated from comp sci with big dreams of working in game dev, the only job I was able to find after a year of unemployment during the lockdowns was as a consultant at an investment banking firm and when I say it was soul-crushing that's not an exaggeration. Not quite on the same level as working on killing machines but I couldn't stand it, went back to school to pursue art.
The kicker? It's easy to get a job with a comp sci degree where I live. The military is understaffed. A STEM degree will get you fast-tracked with bonus pay into a cushy intelligence officer or analyst desk job with a pension, benefits, and if you're still able to sleep at night after a couple years that's not a hard pivot into the private sector.
I've been told by career military folks that I should just enlist when I was broke and desperate for a job, like it was obvious and like that knowledge wasn't already haunting me.
I know what it's like to make the wrong call when faced with that choice and I'm never doing that again, but it's made me reflect a lot on the kinds of compromises the system we live in forces upon us.
god I could be so wealthy if I had no ethics. that's so fucking frustrating. I'm living paycheck to paycheck because I'm not grifting vulnerable idiots on TikTok. I feel like I have the ability to very easily scam people. I could make a killing with AI. but god. I have morals and ethics and so I get to be poor as shit. I hate this fucking world