Was It Such A Big Ask To Have Them Say They'd Be Proud Of Me

I just feel like stuck. Every day is the same and I'm just existing not living.

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again.

he think he asuka langely soryu

this stemmed from a long conversation about lord english and his components and how each of their experiences would be like. they would’ve been able to watch all their ancestors be born, grow up, and eventually die, not to mention themselves as well.

at least for equius, it’d suck to find out you’re directly responsible for the pain and suffering of your entire race for all of time. and have to watch, just watch, and not be able to do a thing about it.

we thought it would’ve been especially awful for equius to have seen darkleer die they way he did (the refrance). especially in the way it mirrored his own death, which was the reason he’s here in the first place, etc etc.

i have more thoughts, but i don’t want to write out a whole essay right now.

Looking at buildings thinking are they tall enough to jump off and kill myself

There's a lot to process here.

@.s.b.0706 // unknown // @.shhhhitsfine // @.sweatermuppet3.0 // kate baer, and yet: poems

Great job!

You didn’t kill yourself!

It’s amazing that you kept going when you didn’t want to. You deserve credit for that.

Will it ever get better?

I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this

sue zhao / unknown / suzanne rivecca - death is not an option / Horace Vernet, The Maiden’s Lament (oil on canvas) / Louise Glück, Adult Grief / unknown