I'm Afraid This Mystery May Never Truly Be Solved... But I Imagine This Is Likely True, And I Wouldn't

is it weird or normal to have a shutdown instead of a meltdown? like i’m talking about them overlapping and shutdown taking over meltdown kind of thing.

for example, i’m in a highly distressing situation, either in class, the store, on a trip or anywhere else where there is lots of sensory input, changes, new things and people.

rather than starting to pace, hit my head, scream, punch things and cry my brain goes into shutdown and reboots to avoid a meltdown, and i go into non-verbal autopilot mode until the reboot is done and it feels like i’m starting on a clean slate. zero viruses detected.

so is that normal? i don’t like meltdowns because i can get violent, so shutdowns prevent that, so is it like a coping mechanism or something?

also is referring to my brain as a computer system strange? media and the society overall seems to view autistics as robots and many autistics don’t feel like it’s accurate and rather offensive. but my brain has always operated like that.

Shutdowns vs meltdowns are completely normal and individual. Many (not all) Autistics will also switch from physical meltdowns to more internalised ones (shutdowns) as we get older.

We may not even have meltdowns or shutdowns until life circumstances pitch us enough difficulties to cause one. And some never have them at all.

And yes, I think of my brain like a computer system, too! So all normal!!

Knowing how mischievous Yoda can get, I'm willing to bet he gave Obi-Wan the idea, or at least hinted at it, knowing full well he'd follow through, and is now enjoying the results along with Mace.🤣

after the war ends, Obi-Wan desperately wants to quit the Council, but Mace keeps rejecting his resignations

so Obi-Wan decides to take matters into his own hands: if he can’t resign formally, he’s going to get himself kicked off

he starts by showing up to Council meetings intoxicated, and wearing increasingly outrageous (and frequently revealing) clothing

when his own efforts fail to get any reaction out of Mace, he recruits outside assistance

he sends Anakin wearing a fake beard and mustache to attend as him (which has the side benefit of convincing Anakin that he never, ever, wants anything to do with the Council)

Cody attends wearing Obi-Wan’s clothes and lightsaber, but making no other attempt to disguise himself

Quinlan breaks in during a meeting, makes out with Obi-Wan for two minutes straight, then smashes through a window to make his daring escape

Ahsoka does her best Hondo impression and shows up to kidnap Obi-Wan in the middle of a session, with Rex and the Bad Batch (in their normal, full armor) as her dastardly pirate crew

and while certain members of the Council are outraged, Obi-Wan still can’t even get Mace to consider his resignation

of course, Mace isn’t going to tell Obi-Wan that his efforts have backfired: this is the most entertainment Mace has had in YEARS, he’s wasn’t letting Obi-Wan quit before he started this, and now at least half the reason is that he wants to see what Obi-Wan’ll try next

Me, often called a Vulcan by my family: 👀... 🖖🙄

Autism culture is identifying with autistic coded characters, but as soon as someone who is not neurodivergent says "Hey you remind me of *insert autistic coded character*" getting very uncomfortable

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I must confess my guilt; I watch the episode, and he's the first thing I post about.

Absolutely hilarious that we got Crosshair, Hera, Chopper, AND Hera’s parents all in one episode but who do we hyperfixate on?

😆 You got me, dammit!

wrecker needs to get his head checked out call that a ct scan

*inhales* EEEEEEEEEEP!!! I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! The mash-up I didn't even know I NEEDED!

just imagining an AU where the Bad Batch meet the Serenity crew

The Crew

Jayne and Crosshair shooting contest

Jayne and Wrecker. (That's it.)

Jayne and Hunter and knives

Jayne teaching Echo Cantonese swears

Mal teaching Omega cantonese swears

Mal and Hunter staredown when they realize they're both Sargeants. Hunter slightly confused when the Crew call Mal "Captain".

Wash and Tech trading crazy flying stories

Wash:I'm a leaf on the wind Tech:What does that even mean?

Wash teaching Omega more about "flying is about a feeling" (Leaf on the Wind)

Wash responding to Crosshair's snark with the cheekiest sarcasm

Wash asking Zoe which Sarge they're gonna listen to

Zoe, annoyed by the Sargeants, and seeing how well The Crew (except Jayne) get along with him, decides Tech is in charge because "it's his ship, Sir... Sirs"

Zoe teaching Omega the 1st Rule of Battle

Zoe and Crosshair holding direct, unreadable eye-contact, arms crossed, for about 3 seconds before slightly nodding to each other. They never say a word to each other, but there is just pure understanding and respect between them. Neither the Crew or the Batch really get it.

Zoe asking if they can trade Jayne for Wrecker

Simon being overwhelmed at the idea of bacta and medical droids, staight up fainting when he finds out Echo was literally blown up, and is now half droid

Kaylee repairing the ship with Echo while Simon is passed out

Kaylee making improvements to the ship that Tech was too Tech-y to think of

Kaylee helping Omega paint her room

Kaylee being unbearably cheerful with Crosshair (she paints a tiny flower on one of his reflector discs he sticks it to the lid inside his wepons kit because it reminds him of his nickname for you)

River playing hide and seek with Kaylee, Omega, and Wrecker. They resort to asking Hunter to track her down, and she's almost too good even for his senses

River balled up in the copilot seat just absorbing every single thing Tech says, occasionally interjecting with her own theories/calculations/corrections

River, to Echo: He's proud of you. ("Who?") Your twin. The others are too. You lived to fight another day.

i had more ideas but i made myself cry with that last one. will probably add to this over time and do a list from the side of The Batch

Happy pride! Have some cryptids 👻🏳️‍🌈 

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I would never be able to share this enough. We should be accepted, not prevented.

THIS.

I'm guessing that means Omega would be along the lines of, "Looks like a cinnamon roll, yet won't kill you despite being able to."

So there are these guys…

And then there’s Echo…

…who looks like he could kill you, could actually kill you, but still manages to be a sweet (albeit slightly crusty) cinnamon roll. 😍

This always irritated me, too, and what's worse is that, "I planned to do it" has never been accepted as a good reason for me to be upset, since, "it's getting done anyway"; I'm not upset about it being done, I'm upset that you didn't even warn me before disregarding my plan, and it's only going to get worse because I can't properly explain it anymore than I can contain my frustration at this point.

when your mom presses the button on your laundry, and you planned to do it yourself. but no one will understand why you're so upset. your doubly angry because you know she knew it would trigger you and she still did it nonetheless. it was just convenient for her. (oh and she put her laundry in with it too).

no one will ever understand why I am so angry. (cause I planned to do it). no one around me at least.

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