i never thought that i would post something about football EVER but here i am really hoping that damar hamlin is going to live. so very glad they suspended the game.
i almost started crying when i found out it was down đ. but i went to target and looked at vinyls so we're good now!
Guys I am so normal about this.
(Itâs working now, just really slow?)
Reblog if you've ever stayed up all night to read a fanfiction about dead gay wizards on a School night
holy shizzle sticks this was great
sirius black x fem!reader
word count: 5,451
warnings: minimal swearing, kind of modern!au, reader has insecurities about being inexperienced, very slight suggestive material, fluff/comfort
a/n: hello! iâve been working on this fic for what feels like forever, and i am so happy to be done with it and to share it with you. i know my audience for sirius is a bit smaller, but iâm hoping some of you will appreciate and enjoy it and maybe find something in it. it means a lot to me and writing it definitely helped me work through some of my own struggles. please let me know what you think!! i love you so much. happy reading <333
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Siriusâ apartment is really quite sweet. The walls are dark and draped with tapestries, ones you would never know where to find. Someplace youâre unfamiliar with, surely.
Of course you know it wouldnât be nearly this nice without all of Remusâ help. Sirius thinks choosing to live across the hall from one another was the best decision they ever made. He had wanted to share a place with both Remus and James, but that was before Lily snatched him away. Â
The couch is a deep wine color, the cushions bearing imprints from all the hands and backs and bottoms that have embraced them. Heâs cracked the living room windows open, allowing the spring air to seep in.
Heâs been pacing back and forth from the window where heâd be able to see your car pull up, and looking out the peephole on his front door. He pulls it open just as youâve raised your hand to knock (despite having a key), making you jump. A boyish grin spreads across his face as he drags his eyes down your figure.Â
âWell, Christ, donât you look gorgeous.â
You feel the tips of your ears burn. One of your hands flies to rest on your lower belly. You put on a dress today; a lovely, long sundress you purchased in a short-lived moment of bravery, one youâve never worn around him. Actually, youâve never worn a dress around Sirius, period. Skirts, sure. But he has never seen you in something like this.
âOh, quit that,â you mutter, dipping under his arm to enter his home.Â
He turns around to watch you walk in as he pushes the door shut. âI will not.â He takes your bag from your shoulder, setting it on a stool just under the kitchen island. âDo a spin for me, love. That color looks so perfect on you.â
You oblige, letting yourself have this one moment where you lean into his flirting. His eyes follow the curve of your waist, the dress hugging it so gently where youâve tied the strings around your back. The way the fabric drapes down your spine and is light enough that he can see each move you make, each effortless shift of your limbs. He has to be careful not to let his jaw fall open.
You complete your turn, stomach flipping at the look on his face. You scramble for something to say, to hide the way heâs flustered you.
âOkay, okay. No need to pretend to ogle anymore. All I did was put on regular people clothes.â
Siriusâ brows knit together. Pretend? Do you think heâs doing this just to flatter you? Just because heâs a naturally flirty man? He wants to toss you over his shoulder and show you how perfect you are. He crosses his arms.
âNo pretending here, love. You do look stunning in that little number and I feel blessed that you have graced me with your presence while wearing it.â He shoots a wink in your direction.Â
You run a hand over your collarbone and twist to plant yourself on his couch. He follows you, tucking himself into your side, his thigh pressed to yours. You can feel his gaze on you.Â
âYouâre terrible at taking compliments, you know that?â He gingerly takes your hand away from where itâs scratching at your neck and keeps it in his, subconsciously tracing the lines embedded in your palm.Â
Your eyes fall on his fingers, watching the way his rings glint in the fading sunlight. âI did know that, yes.â
âGive me a compliment then,â he says, attempting to display how one can accept a compliment. Part of him knows heâll go red once you give him that attention.Â
You look at him, your mind swirling with every sweet thing youâve ever wanted to say to him but kept to yourself because all this flirting doesnât leave you as easily as it does him.Â
âYour hair looks very pretty,â you let out, softly. A smile wide enough to expose his dimples spreads across his face.Â
âDoes it?â He gives his head a shake, the dog-like movement making you laugh. âI havenât brushed it today.â
You tuck a strand behind his ear. âWould you like me to do it for you? I could braid it for you after so it wonât get tangled tonight.âÂ
That gesture comes from you so naturally that it makes Sirius swoon. You want to do that simply for his convenience and because it might make things a bit better on him. And heâll be damned if the thought of your fingers touching his scalp and your nails on his neck doesnât sound like the best thing sinceâŚwell he hasnât got a reference for that. But youâre often so shy when it comes to physical affection, and this just might make his entire life. Â
This pool of thoughts must be showing on his face, because you suddenly look very flustered. He wouldnât be surprised if he had hearts in his eyes to replace his pupils.
âIâd love it if you did. You really donât mind?â he asks, already shifting to sit on the floor in front of you, trying not to make you feel too nervous because he knows youâre branching out just based on your actions since you arrived.Â
âNope. I love to braid hair,â you say, feeling a chill run down your spine seeing him settled between your legs like this, feeling the warmth of him through your dress and being able to really look at himâeven if itâs just the backside of himâwithout feeling so shy.
Sirius grins to himself. Heâs realized that you do keep a lot of things to yourself, and though he likes to think heâs cracked away at a bit of your shell in the time heâs known you, there is still so much he doesnât know.Â
âDid you know that Remus can braid?â he asks you, closing his eyes at the feel of your pinky fingernail parting his hair down the middle.Â
You giggle. He could get drunk off that sound, and he knows so. It leaves him dazed. âCan he?â
âApparently so. His mum taught him and used to have him do her hair because he was better at it than she was.â
âWell, thatâs sweet. I should have him do mine. Test his skills. Howâd you find out he could do it?â
Sirius lets out a breath of a laugh, âHe did mine for a Quidditch match once. Mcgonagall used to fuss that Iâd rip all my hair out if I didnât contain it.â
Youâre braiding his hair very slowly, much slower than youâd do yours or anyone elseâs. His hair is so soft, and much thicker than you had realized. Itâs got a wave to it, one you think you would be a bit more defined if he put some product in it. Youâre enjoying the feel of it in your hands, the heat of his scalp against your skin.Â
Youâre losing yourself in it so much that you almost miss his words.
âI bet you guys had a lot of fun playing together,â you say, knowing that kind of bond must be one of the best things in the world. You tuck the strands of hair at the base of his neck in so they donât droop when youâre finished.
Sirius wraps a hand around your ankle, and your eyes widen.Â
âI wish weâd been friends then,â he tells you. Your nervous system is sent into overdrive, trying to adapt to such a casually intimate touch and the fact that heâs dwelling on the past.Â
You tie off the end of one braid and start on the other. You exhale through your nose. âI donât think we couldâve been.â
Siriusâ eyes open at this. He fights the urge to spin around and face you, but knows youâre concentrating, and he has the feeling that not staring at you directly is why youâre suddenly being so open with him.Â
âWhy?â he asks. Why couldnât you have been? Heâs always been friendly. Sure, he was much more rowdy in school, but he never wouldâve tried to intimidate you.Â
âWe ran in different circles, you know? I certainly knew who you and the boys were, but everyone did.â Siriusâ brows furrow as he listens more intently than he knew he was capable of. âThough no one really knew who I was, except for my professors, of course. I was even more shy and reserved then, if you can believe that. I never really fit in, and I never found my people.â
âI sort of justâŚobserved everyone. I did my best in class and tried to be social, but nothing ever stuck. I think thereâs only one person I keep in touch with from Herbology. I learned at some point that I was going to be alone, and I might as well make the best of it.â
âSo I guess what Iâm saying is that we couldnât have been because Iâm not sure you ever wouldâve seen me.â
The silence that follows your last few words is deafening, and all you hear is the sound of your blood rushing in your ears and your nails scratching against his hair as you finish the other braid.Â
When he feels the tie rest against his neck, he forces the words up from where theyâve been sitting in his throat. âLove, IâŚâ
He turns around so quickly you think he mightâve given himself whiplash. Heâs giving you puppy dog eyes, and you hate that heâs feeling sappy over you and your pitiful school experienceâor lack thereof.Â
âWerenât you lonely?â he questions, resting his hands on your knees.Â
You start to fidget with one of your rings. âOf course I was. I know for lots being at Hogwarts are some of the best years of your life. But mine were very hard. I was extremely lonely, but I just learned how to be my own friend and do things that made me happy.â
âPlus I made great relationships with the professors, which helped me in getting a real job. And if that hadnât happenedâŚIâd never have really met you. Donât feel bad for me, okay? Itâs no big deal.â
Your words are followed by a poignant pause.
So much starts to click for Sirius, and all it does is break his heart. You give him a shy smile, and fuck, youâre absolutely right. He canât remember what you looked like then, doesnât remember seeing you in any of his courses. And he knows youâre a badass, but thinking about how he always had a circle, people heâd trust with his life and go to when he needed them, compared to how you were completely aloneâŚthat hurts. You deserve to be loved, praised, shown off to the world. Youâre only a bit more outgoing now, and he knows much of that is owed to him and James. Remus is your introverted confidant.Â
Sirius stands up and moves to sit next to you on the couch.Â
âHow could I not feel bad for you? Love, youâve grown so accustomed to being alone that you donât think itâs a big dealânot having a circle. Youâve accepted it, and I hate that you have felt so alone for so long.â
âSirius, really, itâsââ
âCan I ask you something?â He blurts out the words, causing you to blink a bit.Â
âYou just did.â
âPlease?âÂ
âYes.â
âHave you ever had a boyfriend?â
Oh. Thatâs not where you were expecting this conversation to go. And this is one of the most embarrassing things to talk about. Especially with him, because you know heâs experienced. Youâve heard the stories.
Sirius takes your silence as encouragement to continue, scrambling to explain why heâd ask this.Â
âObviously youâve been around us, you know James and Lily andâwhatever, you know. And we sometimes talk about relationships or escapades and you always retreat when that happens. Is thatâŚis that why?â
You swallow, ignoring the slight pressure behind your eyes. Fuck, this is embarrassing. Especially at your age, and knowing youâre behind everyone you know. It is hard to hear them talk about relationships or hookups. Most definitely when itâs Sirius.Â
âNo. Iâve never had a boyfriend.âÂ
Sirius blinks. He canât understand how any guy could look at you and not want you all to themselves. Thatâs what he wants.Â
âIâve never even held hands romantically, Sirius. Isnât that pathetic?â You feel the need to make sure he knows you realize how pitiful it truly is.Â
Alarm bells ring in his head.Â
âDarling, no. Itâs not pathetic.â He searches your face, noticing the way youâre retreating from him. âLook at me, please?â He tracks your smile lines, each freckle or mark on your skin until you meet his eyes. His own brighten at your willingness to listen. âThere she is.âÂ
Something about those words shoot straight to your stomach, butterflies smacking against your insides, begging to be let out.Â
âWhy do you think thatâs pathetic, love?â Heâs asking you seriously. That bitter voice, the one youâve shoved deep inside the back of your mind, claws its way forward. It must be easy to think itâs not pathetic when youâre so experienced. Because you havenât met the ache that comes from lacking what others have. You shake your head.Â
âBecause it is, Sirius.â He opens his mouth, but figures this isnât the time to bicker. His jaw falls shut just as quickly. âI am twenty-two years old, and I have never had any romantic interactions, despite the fact that I have been desperate for one for years.â He knows youâre really letting your emotions fly when you begin to talk with your hands.
âIt is so gut-wrenching sometimes to see people be so happy in their relationships. Itâs hard for me to listen to our discussions when they delve into each of your experiences, because it tugs on my insecurities, and I try my best to hide it, but it does hurt.â
âTruthfully, Iâm at a point where not only am I ashamed of all of this, but Iâm afraid that a kiss, or a hug, or anythingâthat I just wonât feel anything. That maybe I will never understand what affection or love feels like and itâll always be something I imagine. And my imagination only goes so far. Thereâs such a disconnect, and I canât feel those things.âÂ
You rub at your temples. âSo thatâs why. Iâm behind everyone else my age, and I wish I wasnât.â
That little bit of anger youâve worked so hard to suppress bubbles up in your chest. You worry heâll say something that pushes it out, that heâll give you that same spiel everyone else doesâ
âI could try and help you with your romantic interactions.âÂ
Your breath catches. Siriusâ gray eyes bore into yours.Â
âBut Iâll have you know,â he continues, âthat I understand how you think youâre behind, especially with the stupid shit we talk about, and I donât think it matters. Youâre on a different path than Iâve been, but itâs not as though youâll never do those things. Frankly, I canât see why no oneâs jumped your bones to date.â
Your nervous system feels so confused. At once youâre fighting that bout of frustration, and feeling your heart pick up at the idea of this actually being a possibility.Â
âDid I braid your hair too tight?â you mutter.Â
Sirius laughs, tossing his head back to reveal a glorious neck. âNo, love.â He places a hand on your knee. âNow, be genuine when you answer this for me, alright?â He waits for your nod and then leans in close enough that you can feel his breath on your collar bones.Â
âIs it really that difficult to see how enamored I am with you?â
Huh?
Sirius laughs again. Shit, did you say that out loud?Â
âYou did say that out loud.â
You slap your hand over your mouth. âIâm sorry,â you rush out, âthat was supposed to stay in my head.â But all of the small things heâs done, all of the romantic thingsâcooking you dinner, helping you zip your dresses, buying you jewelry, even just making you feel seenâcome rushing to the forefront of your mind. Perhaps you didnât want to believe it. Or maybe you couldnât believe someone would feel romantically about you and decided to block out any of his loving gestures.
Heâs staring straight into your eyes, and itâs like heâs cast a spell on you, because you feel like you could spill your guts right then and there. And maybe itâs best you do.Â
âI think maybe Iâve just convinced myself youâre sweet to everyone? That youâre a loverboy at heart and so it hasnât meant anything more for you to be sweet to me.â
âSweet on you,â he says.Â
You blink.
âI am sweet on you, love. While I wonât deny that I am a flirt at heart and do my best to charm most anyone, I have dedicated my time to you as of late. Truth be told, I'd quite like to be your loverboy.â He pauses, looking over your face, a grin spreading across his. âBut I suppose your inexperience explains why youâve been so oblivious.â Heâs made himself laugh now.Â
You lean forward and smack him on the bicep, and even though it is a firm hit, thereâs no malice in it, especially with that smile on your face. Heâs not wrong at allâyou have been oblivious.Â
Sirius falls back dramatically onto the couch, feigning severe pain. âFuck, youâve wounded me.â
You roll your eyes, watching how he clutches his arm and gasps for air. His braids are splayed out, his cheeks a shade of rosy pink. He looks soâŚgorgeous. Youâre in awe of him. Itâs like when you stare at the statue of David, just completely entranced by how beautiful this man made of marble is. Thatâs how looking at Sirius feels. Taking in something so soft and knowing it should be handled with care.Â
You hold out your hands, wiggling your fingers. âAlright, come on. Youâll recover.â
Sirius grabs hold of you, allowing you to hoist him up. When you do, you could easily touch noses. Thereâs a new tension in the room, one youâre sure anyone would be able to feel if there were more people there.Â
You look down when you realize Sirius hasnât let go of your hands. âSo, what do you say?â he asks, bringing your attention back to his face.
Say something, you tell yourself. Youâre just staring at each other, and youâve got to speak. Your heart is pounding, rattling your rib cage. You want to have all of these experiences, you really do, but itâs also so terrifying to think about the vulnerability that comes with them. ThoughâŚitâs Sirius. And if youâre being truly honest, youâve always wished itâd be him. That heâd look at youâŚthe way he is now.
âIâIâd really like that. If youâd really like to deal with my clumsiness and all.â You give him a shy smile, and suddenly heâs threading his fingers with yours. He raises his hands, forcing you to do the same. Your fingers are intertwined, his hand engulfing yours, which is undoubtedly much smaller.Â
Youâre holding hands.
âLook, love. Now youâve held hands romantically.â He laughs a little at the look on your face, one heâs sure is a result of the awe youâre in. Youâve never done this before. It feels so nice to have his hands in yours. Theyâre so warm, and sparks are shooting up your wrists. You feel giddy.Â
You bite your lip in an effort to suppress the excitement that is practically begging to come out. He sees it though. âIs this making you happy, darling?â he asks. You nod enthusiastically, your ears burning. âPerfect. And about what you said, I did warn you that I was head over heels for you, so I might be so weak in the knees that Iâll be clumsy too.â He winks.
You squeeze his fingers experimentally. A little nervously. âYouâre sure you want to do all this with me?â
Sirius squeezes back, his thumbs rubbing over your skin. âOf course I am. You trust me, donât you?â He already knows the answer to that, but how could he not make sure that you feel safe with him?
âAlways,â you say.Â
âGood.â He glances down at your clasped fingers. âWanna keep holding hands? Itâs rather nice, isnât it?â
You giggle, and he swears his insides turn to jelly at how sweet the sound is. âI think Iâve been spoiled now,â you say. âI might always want to hold your hands.â
Sirius presses a gentle kiss to your knuckle, locking eyes with you as he does it. Your heart kicks against your throat, your chest aching with the lack of air youâre getting.Â
âYou think youâre spoiled now? Best prepare yourself then, love.â
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Sirius was right.
And that was confirmed when he gave you your first real hug. Not the quick hug you give your grandmother or your friend on the way out the door. But one of those hugs youâve always seen in muggle romantic comedies or read about in your novels. The kind of hug youâve never been able to fully wrap your mind around, but have imagined more than is healthy. When you lay in bed at night, clutching your teddy bear and wishing you could feel someone with you.Â
He gave you your first romantic hug. And youâve requested one each time heâs available.Â
The request came after dinner one night, when he was watching you diligently scoop ice cream into a cone for him. Because you wanted to. Sirius hated to boost his own ego, but he had to admit that the way you had changed since furthering your relationship with him had you glowing. Itâs not that you werenât happy before, because you were, but this is different. Itâs like heâs unlocked this vault inside of you, one where youâve stored all this love and kindness, and he gets to experience it.Â
Heâs never seen you soâŚfree.Â
Youâd set the ice cream cone down on the counter for him. âTa-da,â you said, sticking the spoon back in the container and waiting for him to pick his toppings. He did so, admiring how youâd chosen things you knew he liked, how you were so giddy just from this moment. Your hair was a mess and you were wiping the stickiness from your fingers and he was so overwhelmed by you.Â
âSweetheart?â Heâd asked, eyeing you as you did a happy little wiggle when you took a bite of the cheesecake ice cream youâd found earlier in the week. Your eyes found his, all doe-like, and your nose wrinkled because of how the pet name flustered you.Â
Heâd been trying those out too, and while getting you to do the same had been slow-going because of your nerves, you loved when he used them for you.Â
Youâd put down your spoon and hummed. âYeah?â
He stepped closer to you. âCan I hug you, love?â
Your breath had caught, and at the same time that you were feeling immensely nervous and flustered, you were so excited. So excited to be hugged properly and by someone you were over the moon for.Â
âPlease?âÂ
You smiled and he laughed boyishly, moving in until your chests were almost touching. Your pulse hammered against your wrist.Â
Sirius bent slightly, allowing you to rise up on your toes. He wrapped his arms around your waist, locking them snuggly against your back. Yours went around his neck, squeezing his shoulders. The entirety of his front pressed to yours, and he was so warm.Â
Your fingers tentatively moved into the hair at the base of his neck, and you tucked your face into his neck, where he immediately felt your smile against his skin.Â
Suddenly, Sirius had secured his arms tightly around you and lifted you up into the air, hoping to make you laugh. To show how giddy he was feeling. Because in truth, holding you like this, having you be his, filled a void in him he wasnât even aware of. You were quickly becoming the air he breathed and everything in between.Â
You kicked your feet and chuckled into his shoulder. He set you back down on the floor, and you hugged him for a bit longer. His were all-embracing, and in his arms, somehow all of your thoughts were immediately shut off, as if this was all the world consisted of. For Sirius, your hug made him feel as though this was the safest place he could ever be, and he knew it would be where he should go when he needed security. And you had this way of getting him to focus, to calm down and be present.Â
Needless to say, you were both falling for each other. Though it should be mentioned that heâd already started before your relationship furthered, and you had suppressed your heart-eyes for him only because you never thought this kind of feeling was real. That it would be impossible for a boy to treat you this way. You try to let the little girl in you who always hoped for a fairytale romance celebrate every now and then.
There hasnât been a label put on your relationship, but one night before you got there to hang out with everyone, Sirius calmly told the boys (and girls) that things between you had escalated to more-than-friends. And while they know you, it still felt right to make sure they wouldnât pester you.Â
In fact, they were overjoyed to see the both of you act so sweetly towards one another. James whispered in Lilyâs ear more than once about how Sirius could not seem to take his eyes off you. Remus helped you in the kitchen and told you how nice it was seeing you so happy. So light. Heâd given you a quick hug and wished you the best.
You have never felt so at ease.
Sirius has taken you on a number of dates at this point, some quaint and intimate, some more outgoing. Youâve held hands, hugged. You even got to cuddle with him on the couch.Â
But you havenât kissed.Â
And you want to kiss him, so very bad.
But that is terrifying.Â
All of your fears revolving that form of affection rush to the surface each time you contemplate when would be best to kiss him, if he wants to kiss you. What if youâre broken and you donât feel anything? What if thereâs no spark? What if, after all this time of hoping kissing would be enjoyable, after craving that intimacy, it just doesnât work?
Every time youâre around him, all you want is to kiss him. You want that beautiful, sarcastic mouth on yours. You want to know what his plush lips feel like and learn how to kiss properly. You want to fluster him, and you want to be flustered. You want this.Â
If you asked Sirius, youâd know he wants the same thing. Truthfully, he wants to pin you to the wall and kiss you silly. Until you forget every worry and anything thatâs made you sad. Until all you feel is him. He wants to smother your pretty face in kisses. He wants to kiss every inch of you.Â
Tonight, youâre going to Siriusâ place for a sleepover. And you are going to be brave and kiss him. Â
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Your socked feet are in Siriusâ lap, where heâs pushed your pajama pants up your calves so that he can rub his hands across the soft skin there.
Every once in a while, heâll tickle the underside of your knee just to get you to giggle.
Youâve stopped paying any attention to the movie, and instead are looking at him. The only light in his small living room comes from the television and the array of eclectic lamps scattered around any surface he could fit one on.Â
It casts shadows on his face, elongating that beautiful nose and the hollows of his cheekbones. His gray eyes look so dark, like storm clouds right before they let out all the rain theyâve been holding in.Â
âLove?â
Siriusâ voice snaps you and your pounding heart out of your reverie. Your eyes lock with his, and you feel yourself heat up all over. Heâs smiling at you.Â
âCan you tell me whatâs happening in the movie?â he asks you, crossing his arms in that oh so cocky way.Â
Your thumb finds your bottom lip, picking at the skin there and trying to disguise the smile pulling at the corners of your lips. You shake your head, shyly.Â
He straightens and leans in closer to you. âAnd whyâs that, sweetheart?â
He has a hunch, but he wants you to say whatâs on your mind, and you know thatâs exactly what heâs waiting for. You know he could sit here all night until you spill your guts.Â
ââCause Iâve been thinking about how bad I wanna kiss you.â
Sirius blushes, but he turns on the charm just as quickly. âYeah? Whatâs stopping you?â
He places his hands on your knees. âIâm nervous,â you tell him. âYou know Iâll be bad at it, and it might suck because of me, and even if all I want to do is kiss your sweet face, I justâŚwant it to be good.â
He lifts his hand to cup your cheek. âWell, you know if itâs bad, that just means we get to practice.â You snort, and he rests his forehead against yours in an effort to console you and your nerves.Â
You pull back and put your hands on his chest. It takes everything in you not to grin at how hard his heart is beating, especially with the swell of pride you feel knowing youâre the cause of that.Â
âI really want to kiss you, Sirius.â
âI really want you to kiss me, darling.â
You inhale, scrunching your nose at him. At this point, youâve got heart palpitations that are only going to get worse if you donât act on this.Â
âMeet me halfway?â you ask, tentatively.Â
Sirius cups your face, leaning in slightly, but leaving you room to initiate. âOf course,â he breathes.Â
You take hold of his wrists, fingers trembling. The feeling of his pulse both calms you and makes you sweat.Â
You move forward, tilting your head to the side a little so you donât smack noses. You can infer that much, at least. He inches closer each time you do, matching your pace. It almost makes you want to laugh at how slow and careful this is. You could also cry.Â
When youâre close enough to feel his breath against your lips, you let your eyes close fully, as theyâd been helping you find your mark so far. He meets you that last inch, and you are so grateful.Â
Your lips finally touch in a short, but firm peck. You pull away, smiling, reveling in how soft his lips are.Â
But now that Sirius has had a little taste of you, he canât help but want more. He guides you back to him, helping you find a rhythm together. He slots your bottom lip between his, kissing you so brilliantly your brain empties of all thought. You do your best to kiss him back, albeit a little clumsily. He doesnât seem to mind.Â
You catch on when he takes turns paying attention to each of your lips, and you try and press all of the passion you feel right back into his.Â
Every worry you previously had is gone.
You do feel that spark. It feels so magical, so all-encompassing, to be kissed like this. To have Sirius kiss you.Â
Youâre breathless.Â
When Sirius finally pulls back for air, he presses kisses to your jaw and down your throat. The affection is so close to drawing a whimper from your throat. You know immediately that you could get drunk off of him.Â
You pull him back up to you by his hair for one more short kiss and he grins boyishly into it.Â
He starts to laugh.Â
âShit,â you start. âIf I thought I was spoiled before, I really had no idea what was coming to me.â
Sirius tosses his head back, completely infatuated with you and so fucking gleeful at being yours. Because he is. Yours.Â
âYouâre gonna get sick of me,â you say. âNow I want to kiss you all the time.â
âOh, love,â Sirius exhales. âWhat makes you think youâll have a moment where Iâm not the one addicted to you?â
ââââ
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bro i got matilda by harry styles... i don't think it's gonna go to well man
#24 on ur spotify wrapped describes how 2024 will go, how screwed r u
School days<3
I NEED WOLFSTAR FLUFF LIKE I NEED AIR IN MY LUNGS AND BLOOD PUMPING THROUGH MY VEINS
I cannot believe there's absolutely no way to watch free shows and movies anymore, there are too many paid streaming platforms and pirating websites have viruses and ads preventing you from watching it uninterrupted((.)) id rather follow the rules and purchase media moving forward because it is too inconvenient. Seriously, free and no ads or viruses with 1080p streaming is DEAD.
this shit is so cool man
claimed by the sea đą
me, incorrect: everyone is probably sick of me drawing this character by now...
my inner voice, wise: ah, but this cannot be... because I am part of "everyone"... and until I am sick of drawing them... it will not be everyone
me, opening a new blank canvas: ur so right
Wolf, star, and chaser.
By likeafunerall, and reposted with permission.