I Swear I Need Someone To Harass Me On The Weekly (at Most) To Do My Work. I’m Not Capable Of Holding

hi my lovelies! so i have a fandom i’ve been working on for awhile but it recently hit me that, while it is technically largely my own original work and all original characters, my oc’s are nearly all based on some obsession i’ve had

for example, the main one is my character sky whose genderfluid, uses he/she pronouns, and lives and breathes for the 1987 movie the lost boys. i was planning on having multiple stories revolving around this obsession of his, and throughout various stories mention that he wrote a fanfic or is working on one

however, i did start this fandom idea just wanting to practice my craft, maybe just as a side thing to get better at writing

tbh i feel like i was going somewhere with this but i’ve forgotten.. i guess i just don’t know if it could be considered fully original or not ? well, if any of you have any thoughts on rlly anything with my fandom-in-the-making please let me know!

i probably won’t publish any of it for a long while cuz im still working on the plot and everything, but i may publish it on ao3 sometime in the future

thîr vain lín darn thûl nín. guren min gaim lín, a le uivelin. nínion ned i vened lîn, ach no allen i ngelu e-belain. harthon ad-govatham adh meleth. novaer nîn muin mellon.

your beautiful face took my breath away. my heart is in your hands, and i will always love you. i cry upon your leaving, but may the blessings of the valar be with you. i hope we will meet again with love. farewell my dear friend.

alr, so my moms been bugging me for awhile about the fact that i should do more things like writing and whatnot (especially if i can get money from it to save up for college), which i get. i need to start actually doing stuff with my life that isn’t just sitting around and consuming

but lately she’s been pushing me to use ai and praising it cuz it saves her a bunch of time with her self-made business, which ig i can understand. but at the same time like wtf no. i wanna be an author one day and i don’t wanna have to rely on ai to do the work that i should be doing

and what hurts me more is that she’s been using it to design things for her newsletters and whatnot, but that’s actively taking away from people who have dedicated so much time and energy into honing their craft, into becoming amazing

i know that ai can be really helpful in various ways, but i don’t think that means we need to use it, especially since it’s harming so many creative folk. i’m genuinely scared that one day, when i graduate into this world after spending years working hard to be a wonderful author, i’m scared i’ll be a failed artist the second i step out into this fucked up world. i’m scared i’m already a failed artist simply for being an artist

i’ve wanted to be an author my whole life, and it hurts to see a machine learn and develop quicker than i ever could and to receive more praise than my work ever has

and honestly, yeah i’ll admit i’ve tried using chatgpt before. i had no ideas and i desperately wanted to write, so i tried to see if ai had any good ideas. yet i didn’t care for a single one. they all felt so bland and over-used. it didn’t feel like me. sure, maybe i’m not using it right, but i still have my opinion and it’s not going to be changed

seeing humans hard work replaced with quick, white-washed crap hurts, and i don’t want to stand with the side of a machine

hello my lovelies :3

i finally published my second fic! it’s just a sweet little fanfic of the reader and paul snuggling

if you’re interested here ya go :)

Laddie: Marko said the fuck word!

Dwayne: *surprised yet amused* Marko said the fuck word?

I don’t care if I “pass”. I want to look into the mirror and see something that feels like me.

Trans men are handsome

That’s it. That’s the post. I’m not going to name specific types of trans men because every single one is handsome and I’m very happy they exist

am i the only person who has a poetic mind, paired with an awfully mundane hand? i could think words in strings of utmost harmony, surpassing that of shakespear himself, but as soon i as i pick up a pen, or even open the notes app for that matter, i can barely form a sentace following the laws of grammar.

its such a struggle

was talking to my gf about my fear of dying young for being trans and my mom putting my deadname on my gravestone, and she said "i hope that never happens, but if it does, i will carve your name into your grave myself if i have to." and i think theres something extremely raw about that sentiment and trans community in general. you can kill only our bodies, but you cant kill transsexuality

guys i made a commission for an acquaintance and i’m actually so proud of myself. like it feels fairly accurate which is nice cuz i’m usually bad at making stuff feel realistic, tho i try my best. and! its 3260 words- a full 9 pages! i never put this much effort into my schoolwork

and i finally finished it today so i feel kinda relieved ngl (rlly just cuz i got it done in time) but i’m so proud. plus i’m getting about $80 from this. i finally finished another project of mine!

sadly, i don’t think i can publish it- and if i do i’ll have to edit it a bit- but ig we shall see