The One

it’s my son gerald’s birthday :)

professional photos of my babies :3

fit i recently got :3

alr, so my moms been bugging me for awhile about the fact that i should do more things like writing and whatnot (especially if i can get money from it to save up for college), which i get. i need to start actually doing stuff with my life that isn’t just sitting around and consuming

but lately she’s been pushing me to use ai and praising it cuz it saves her a bunch of time with her self-made business, which ig i can understand. but at the same time like wtf no. i wanna be an author one day and i don’t wanna have to rely on ai to do the work that i should be doing

and what hurts me more is that she’s been using it to design things for her newsletters and whatnot, but that’s actively taking away from people who have dedicated so much time and energy into honing their craft, into becoming amazing

i know that ai can be really helpful in various ways, but i don’t think that means we need to use it, especially since it’s harming so many creative folk. i’m genuinely scared that one day, when i graduate into this world after spending years working hard to be a wonderful author, i’m scared i’ll be a failed artist the second i step out into this fucked up world. i’m scared i’m already a failed artist simply for being an artist

i’ve wanted to be an author my whole life, and it hurts to see a machine learn and develop quicker than i ever could and to receive more praise than my work ever has

and honestly, yeah i’ll admit i’ve tried using chatgpt before. i had no ideas and i desperately wanted to write, so i tried to see if ai had any good ideas. yet i didn’t care for a single one. they all felt so bland and over-used. it didn’t feel like me. sure, maybe i’m not using it right, but i still have my opinion and it’s not going to be changed

seeing humans hard work replaced with quick, white-washed crap hurts, and i don’t want to stand with the side of a machine

hello my lovelies :3

i finally published my second fic! it’s just a sweet little fanfic of the reader and paul snuggling

if you’re interested here ya go :)

honestly, i think one of the main things that keeps me writing is the idea that one day people will write fanfiction about my work. heck, people might even write fanfiction about me. so get to it guys, write the wildest shit you can about my precious creations. i wanna see what you can come up with

i don’t want to be forgotten while i’m still alive

spring is such a precious time

Spring is such a precious time

The blossom of new beginnings

The death of old

Evening tea, a comforting familiarity

Homemade treats given by soft hands

A sweetness so pure it makes bones rot.

Spring is such a precious time

I waited for hours, for days, for weeks

For these tender months

Dreams of picnics

Dreams of vintage rooms

Dreams of laughs, kisses, the world cradled in our very palms.

Spring is such a precious time

Upon the arrival of Winter my love left

A world shattered

A heart bereft

A little child crying in the emptiness

But as Spring beckons the tears dry

Laughter bubbles

Hopes renew

The tea is set

And Spring is a more precious time than before.

alr so i got another lost boys fanfic idea that i’ll hopefully publish next week but we shall see

more info if ya want..

no idea what it’s gonna be called, if you got suggestions it’d be much appreciated :)

basically someone was transphobic to marko or something, and dwayne comforts him

will be very soft and fluffy and sweet

just gonna be one chapter

probably not gonna be edited too much cuz i just needa ramble and need comfort

welp. hopefully i can actually finish it in time but if not i’ll try my best to publish it by the end of the month

trans rights are human rights dammit!!!!!