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when i was reading the book entangled life which is about fungi and the author merlin sheldrake said that once he got his first author copies he was going to dampen the pages and use them to grow oyster mushrooms and yeast and then use the yeast to brew beer and then drink the beer with the mushrooms to complete the cycle of fungal knowledge. i was like really and truly this guy gets it

5 favourite Youtube Documentaries

Because I like making lists.

This isn’t “Documentaries that have been illegally posted on youtube.” this is “video essays people have made specifically FOR youtube but have cinematography and research and editing to categorise them more as “documentaries” rather than just “Video Essay” (I adore video essays as they make up 80% of what I watch on youtube, but they’ll get their own list at some point)

ANYWAY! With all those quantifiers out of the way, in no order;

1: “Mystifying UFO Cases” - LEMMiNO A skeptic youtuber decides to research documented UFO cases and finds a handful of them are at this point impossible to properly explain or rationalise

2: POLYBIUS: The Video Game That Doesn’t Exist - Ahoy Using investigative journalism, Ahoy tracks down the source of the urban legend of the ‘Polybius’ arcade cabinet. A rumoured video game said to have appeared in the late 70s in certain American arcades and induce migraines, insomnia, paranoia and other symptoms similar to the effects of LSD.

3: The Impact of Akira: The Film that Changed Everything - Supereyepatchwolf SuperEyepatchwolf discusses the anime scene of the late 80s, Japan’s painful history during WWII, and the economic situation of the country at this time, all of which lead to the creation of the film version of Akira, and how the movie’s short theatrical run in America opened the doors for the west to start importing anime

4: Down the Rabbit Hole: Henry Darger - Fredrick Knudsen Fredrick presents a documentary about the artist Henry Darger, who throughout the course of his life, every day, wrote about the lives of 7 fictional young girls, complete with elaborate paintings, tracings and collages, all of which was only discovered when he was admitted to hospital in at the age of 81. His writing eventually measured up to 15 145 pages over 13 different volumes. At 250 words a page on average, the story is thought to be 3,786,250 words long and is often thought to be the longest story ever written. (It’s difficult to be absolutely sure as no-one has managed to read the entire work on their own)

5: A Journey Through ‘Rule of Rose’ - Ragnarox A documentary of the often forgotten video game Rule of Rose. Despite its cult status, the game is rarely talked about. Ragnarox explores the game in detail, including its themes of politics and social castes, child abuse, psychological trauma, homosexuality and deep visual symbolism. Content Warning for obvious reasons.

(if you like my long essay length posts and stuff consider buying me a coffee)

"Seeing you even briefly would be reassuring."

"Reassuring of what, my long lost from another lifetime?"

My lover asks me: "What is the difference between me and the sky?" The difference, my love, Is that when you laugh, I forget about the sky.

the dubious philosophy of salmon

the friend zone isn’t real

Despite a lot of Hozier’s songs having sexual overtones, his music isn’t immediately associated with sex, or called crude. Common reactions  to mentioning him, depending on who you are talking to are “bogman!” or ‘that guy who did Take Me to Church”. Even though his music is just as sexual as pop music written by male artists, it isn’t immediately recognized as such because of how he shifts the power dynamics to favor women. In this essay I will…

just learned that magnolias are so old that they’re pollinated by beetles because they existed before bees

My hypothesis is that in like 10 years gen z is gonna have a big cult boom the way the boomers did in the 70s