Reflecting On My Writing Process After Turning In My First College Essay, I Had Begun With Loads Of Brainstorming.

Hey! I hope this is ok to ask; I really respect you and your insight, so it would mean a lot to me if you shared your opinion! Anyway, I sometimes get super scared I’m smoking too much weed. I’m an anxious person naturally so that doesn’t help, but the fact that severe addiction runs on both sides of my family makes me afraid I only smoke to numb myself and avoid reality. I also feel uncomfortable if I don’t smoke weed for a day, which sometimes makes me nervous. I hope this is ok to ask!

I know about addiction in families, it’s rampant in mine as well. It causes a lot of questions and uncertainty, especially when it comes to smoking cannabis.

First, you’re not alone. A lot of people feel the same, addiction runs in the family so how do I know if I’m addicted or not? Quick answer, it’s hard to tell. I can tell you what I do if it’s helpful, I look at how my actions react to when I don’t have it. When I’m out, yeah I’m upset about it, but also it’s whatever. I can go a while without it and not have adverse effects then to me, I’m not addicted. I enjoy it, I want it, but I’m ok without it too. I also find myself working through a lot of things and processing a lot of my past traumas with the use of Cannabis. I consider this a win, others might still declare me addicted, so be it. 

So the question really is what are your actions without it? Would you spend your last bit of money on it (like that’s all you had left until the unforeseeable future)? Would you put yourself in a bad situation to get it? It’s ok to have things that offer us comfort, it’s not ok to go out of the way to have these things. 

I’d also suggest starting to incorporate CBD into your rotation. If you’re able to get CBD flower or vape smoke it in between sessions. This will help stretch out your high and slightly pull you off a bit, tolerance break if you will. CBD is a great filler for this, doesn’t get you high like THC but it’ll help. Once you feel less a dependance on it you can just coast right there. 

You know, sometimes that numb feeling from smoking, it’s avoidance. It’s hard dealing with addiction in the family, especially when they are close relatives. It’s like having a terrible sibling/cousin/etc that never leaves and takes over everything. I’ve watched it ruin a lot of people’s lives, even people who grew up with me and saw the same thing. It might be time to use these smoke sessions to process how you’re feeling. Journaling helps, finding a trusted person to vent to, or even doing a burn bowl (write your worries down and burn them bitches away). Finding some way to process through it all might help release some of the anxiety you have. 

Knowing you have this, I suggest you keep a tight eye on it. I monitor everything I do nowadays, currently, I’m battling cellphone addiction. Not as serious as the others but still, for us, an addiction is an addiction and has to be kept in check. If you really feel it’s become a problem, take a break for a while. At least a week. Count down the days if you have to but I’d suggest doing this every so often. Again, breaking the cycle and keeping you in control. That’s all addiction boils down to anyways, a control issue.  

Wow, this got long! Anyways I hope this made sense and was helpful at all. I know it can be tough but in the end, you are already aware of the potential and that’s the first step in addressing possible addiction. It’s also always ok to ask me things, I appreciate that you value my opinion and I respect you as well. 

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Color Magick

Ways you can use Color Magick

When choosing your outfit for the day

When picking out a candle for your spell and ritual

Candle Magick

Painting or Drawing

To add intention to your writing

Black

Symbolizes:

Grounding

Protection

Safety

Death

Underworld

Restriction 

Night

Magickal Uses:

Reversing

Uncrossing

Unhexing

Banishing 

Black Magick Repelling

Banishing negative energy

Releasing

Defense

Scrying

Hexing

Cursing

Protection

Wards off negativity

Spirit Contact

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

Death

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Saturn

Week Day correspondence: Tuesday + Saturday

Direction: North

Brown

Symbolizes:

Earth

Concentration

Construction

Stability

Animal

Magickal Uses:

House Blessing

Animal Magick

Pet Magick

Earth Magick

To influence Friendships

Element: Earth 

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Scorpio

Capricorn

Direction: North 

Copper

Symbolizes:

Money

Fertility

Magickal Uses:

Business and financial success 

Money Drawing

Fertility 

Career Growth

Gold

Symbolizes:

Fortune

Abundance

Prosperity

Positivity  

Luxury

Health

Justice

Magickal Uses

Luck

Wealth

Good Health

Healing Spells

Solar Magick

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Sun

Week Day correspondence: Sunday

Direction: South

Grey

Symbolizes:

Loneliness

Lore

Knowledge

Wisdom

Transformation

Magickal Uses

Removes negative influences

Increases Knowledge

Inspires Transformation

Communication with the faerie realm

Vision Quests

Planet: Moon

Direction: West

White

Symbolizes:

Purity

Unity

Cleansing

Peace

Balance

Spirituality

Innocence

Truth

Divinity

Love

Calm

Unbiased Opinion

Forgiveness

Acceptance                                                                      

Magickal Uses:

Eliminates negative energy

Creates inner peace

Uncrossing

Consecration

Moon Magick

Protection

Cleanses

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Fool

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Moon

Pisces 

Associated Chakra: Crown 

Week Day correspondence: Monday

Direction: East

Silver

Symbolizes:

Stability

Intuition

Dreams

Communication

Magickal Uses:

Moon Magick

Astral Energy

Telepathy

Clairvoyance

Psychic Awareness

Meditation

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Moon

Week Day correspondence: Monday

Direction: East 

Green

Symbolizes:

Prosperity

Money

Abundance

Healing

Growth

Luck

Faeries

Hope

Rebirth

Youth

Intuition

Nature

Magickal Uses:

Money Spells

Herbal Magick

Garden Magick

Luck drawing

Faerie magick

Plant magick

Money drawing

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Empress

The Lovers

The Hermit 

Justice 

Death

Element: Earth

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Venus

Mercury

Aquarius

Cancer

Associated Chakra: Heart

Week Day correspondence: Thursday

Direction: North 

Blue

Symbolizes:

Communication

Focus

Forgiveness

Truth

Patience 

Harmony

Wisdom

Thoughtfulness 

Youthfulness

Creativity

Healing

Organization

Peace

Justice

Tranquility

Magickal uses:

Removing Bad Vibrations

Astral projection

Water element

Emotional Work

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The High Priestess

The Emperor 

The Hanged Man

Death

Temperance 

Element: Water 

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Jupiter

Moon

Virgo

Capricorn

Aquarius 

Pisces 

Associated Chakra: Throat 

Week Day correspondence: Thursday 

Direction: West 

Purple

Symbolizes:

Wisdom

Power

Wealth

Prophecy 

Magickal Uses:

Contact with spirits

Good fortune

Prophetic visions

Meditation

Divination

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Heirophant 

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Mercury 

Saturn

Capricorn 

Jupiter

Gemini

Sagittarius 

Associated Chakra: Brow

Week Day correspondence: Wednesday + Thursday

Direction: East

Pink

Symbolizes:

Love

Compassion

Friendship

Romance

Intimacy 

Emotions

Self Love

Calming

Harmony

New Beginnings

Honor

Magical Uses:

Brings forth new beginnings

Attracts romance

Attracts new friendship

Encourages self love

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Empress

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Venus influencing Mars

Week Day correspondence: Friday 

Direction: South

Red

Symbolizes:

Passion

Anger

War

Strength

Conflict

Fire element

Healing

Inspiration

Bravery

Courage

Strength

Ambition

Leadership

Confrontation

Combat

Mercy

Magickal Uses:

Helps find love

Fire Element Work

Purification

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Emperor 

The Tower

Judgement 

Element: Fire 

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Aries

Scorpio

Mars influencing Saturn

Associated Chakra: Root

Week Day correspondence: Tuesday 

Direction: South

Orange

Symbolizes:

Creativity

Intellect

Justice

Kindness

Harvest

Strength

Joy

Ambition

Pride

Courage

Prosperity

Attraction

Kinship

Spirit

Abundance

Magickal Uses:

Business success

Spirit communication

Relieves Depression

Correspondence to the Major Arcana:

The Lovers 

The Wheel of Fortune

The Sun

Element: Fire

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Sun

Leo

Sagittarius 

Associated Chakra: Sacral 

Week Day correspondence: Tuesday + Wednesday

Direction: South 

Yellow

Symbolizes:

Happiness

Success

Learning

Memory

Concentration

Inspiration

Imagination

Charm

Confidence

Air element

Will

Trust

Creativity

Communication

Summer

Improves balance

Friendship

Self-Esteem

Vitality

Beauty

Power

Learning

Magickal Uses: 

Sun Magick

Increases productivity

Heightens Self-Esteem

Psychic Endeavors

Correspondences to the Major Arcana:

The Fool

The Magician 

Strength

The Sun

Element: Air

Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:

Mercury 

Taurus

Libra

Associated Chakra: Solar-Plexus 

Week Day correspondence: Sunday

Direction: East

Sources: Witchipedia.com, spiritenterprise.com

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not to be controversial but i literally don’t care about fancy career goals all i want for myself is peace like i have no desire to be a lawyer or an esteemed intellectual please just give me a beautiful garden and lots of animals and plenty of paint and i’ll happily work at pets at home or cafe nero 

Yes!!!!! My soul is fae light and I’ve learned how my space has become a “safe space” for many fair folk!!! I absolutely love them!

I love working with the fae so much. Are they dangerous? Absolutely. Is it worth the risk? 100%. I adore the fair folk that I work with and have formed an unbreakable bond with them. They mean the world to me.