school kills artist is a phrase I've seen a lot but never really related to
UNTIL
my stupid fucking gcse art makes me want to carve my eyes out and burn my hands off bro it's so bad
i love art, i love painting, i love creating
I DON'T love having deadlines, expectations and a stupid annoying ass teacher providing no help at all but telling me I need 5 more pieces or I'll fail
i hate feeling invisible when I'm surrounded by people
it's like i'm not even there, everything I say is ignored
no one notices when i'm trying to talk to them
i wish i actually was invisible at this point
Distancing yourself from your friends so it will hurt less when they inevitably leave you <<<<
If you are a vampire NEVER feed from someone named Richard. 400 fucking years and everyone still calls me Dick Sucker
Not now kitten daddy's googling his symptoms
Everyone keeps telling me I'm better off without them and they don't deserve me
but that's not how it feels, this feels like a punishment for me and I don't deserve them because I've never been worse without them
i wonder who i would be if i kept my hair cut short
i wonder who i'd be if i actually transitioned socially
i wonder if i'd be happier as a boy
i wonder if i stuck to using he/they pronouns i'd feel better
i wonder who he would be if i let them stay