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Sometimes autism is stimming

Sometimes autism is sensory overload

Sometimes autism is rejection sensitivity dysphoria

Sometimes autism is infodumping

Sometimes autism is special interests

Sometimes autism is losing sleep

Sometimes autism is fits of rage

Sometimes autism is depression

Sometimes autism is anxiety

Sometimes autism is never being able to live independently

Sometimes autism is not understanding social cues

Sometimes autism is getting bullied

Sometimes autism is struggling in class

Sometimes autism is gifted kid burn out

Sometimes autism is not being able to hold a job

Sometimes autism is being discriminated against, infantalized, scorned, and mocked.

Sometimes autism is finding the truly good people in life by only accepting people who accept you

Sometimes autism is long lasting friendships

Sometimes autism is so much love but with no words to express it all

Sometimes autism is not being able to hold conversations

Sometimes autism is hard.

Sometimes autism is beautiful.

But autism is ALWAYS a disorder. There are good parts along with the bad, but it ALWAYS causes disorder to one's life, even in the good times. That, and it can be absolutely soul crushing sometimes. There are genuinely autistics out there that can never live independently because of their autism. They aren't making excuses. And they should not be silenced for this new movement that seems to think autism is all fun and games.

Disclaimers:

I am a diagnosed autistic

I have family that's autistic

I tried not to use too many stereotypes, and instead included most of what I experieced plus some things I've seen around the community.

Not every autistic is the same, and some will experience most of these, while others will experience less. That is normal.

DO NOT self diagnose off of my Tumblr post. If you resonate with any of these, please go do some actual research, and IF YOU HAVE THE MEANS, go talk to a professional.

In my beginner crochet journey, I have made my first plushie/decoration/non-clothing thing!! A Halloween ghost! Ahhh!!

I used this video here. (if you already know how to make a beanie with a magic circle, there's a high chance this video will be follow-able)

bipolar chimera kitty! this is sort of a simplified chimera (tiny horns, wings, and silly snake tail) combined with the concept of a chimera tortie!

Mr. Mummy is the first character in my crochet Halloween set this year!

His two (possibly three 🤔) friends will be out in the coming weeks.

Free pattern is here.

She saw her moment and got glossed up for it

They say that small towns hide the darkest secrets. At least that’s what your mother always said about this one. You thought she meant how Father Simmons has a well-known drinking problem, how Mrs. Gladstone’s son looks more like his uncle than his father or that the mayor has been in power for 15 years because of voting fraud. Things everyone knows. Human Things.

But now as partially eaten bodies have been left in alarmingly rates all over this small town the world has no record of, you now know she meant something else.

Play as peculiar and disturbed individual surnamed Crown after the very town your ancestor founded, returning after a traumatic event two years prior that landed you in a psychiatric hospital. As your comeback coincides with a rapid increase of disappearances you find yourself in-broiled in a town conspiracy, a past that’s more alive than ever and the ever shifting self interested motives of those who claim to be your allies.

Who can you trust? What’s the truth behind your family? What are things that you see in the dark?

Sometimes it’s hard to tell what shapes monsters come in.

Customize your MC from looks to gender

Reveal your sister’s disappearance

Rely on a group of complimentary polar opposites to find out the mystery and save your life

Befriend or romance a choice of three from enemies to lovers, childhood friends or an eternal admirer

Rating: 18+

Imre Duran

Quintessential good-boy-next-door. The most most-liked teenager in town. As son of the mayor and pageant queen, Imre has an image cultivated by him and maintained through his status which is why his back door activities are his cherished secrets. He is rather eager to help you… isn’t he?

Nia Mir

In the very real and present high school hierarchy Nia would be one of the nobles. As a wannabe doctor with a loathed father and an absent mother her dream is to leave behind this backwater town and all it’s weird phenomena that she doesn’t care to know more of. She liked you, once.

Lorcan Stark

Every town needs its bad boy and so Lorcan has aimed to be as every bit worthy of that title. The shunned son of a murderer and his victim, he is not really thought of as having a future beyond prison and petty crime especially in a town like this. You don’t remember a time when he didn’t hate you.

Salvatore Crown

Your brother. The heir to whatever fortune your family has left and the only one of the family who seems to like you.

Orla Crown

Your sister. No one ever knew what she thinking, a closed box full of unknowns. You knew she kept things, especially from you.

Mayor Duran

Seems like every other politician. Oddly enough no one ever really sees him, an entity watching over the town.

Mother

She never acted like one to any of her children. She’s never sober anymore.

Mrs. Mir

Disappeared years ago without a trance. No one remembers her first name. Was thought to have been clinically insane.

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Agent 180. One of the finest field agents the International Intelligence Agency ever produced; a force of nature who could stroll into danger and get out without spilling a drop of your cocktail. At least, that's the person you used to be. Are you still? Your skills and your loyalties have been tested recently. Maybe you're still looking for a chance to prove yourself... maybe you're looking for other options.

DIABLO. Your greatest foe. The spider at the center of the web; a criminal organization with influence throughout the world. But power like that is hard to keep. Rumor has it that the organization's leader keeps power through a collection of blackmail material, a treasure trove of secrets that could rock the world.

Rumor has it that the leader is dead, and the collection is up for grabs.

A prize many would kill for - and when you are drawn into a war for the underworld, you must decide: who will you trust? And who will you betray?

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Continue your adventure from The Aegis Project, or start afresh.

Customise your version of superspy Agent 180. Choose your gender, backstory, motivations, and of course, favorite cocktail.

Pick sides in a conflict between rival crime lords.

Take in the sights in a variety of farflung foreign locations, when people there aren't trying to kill you.

Explore complex relationships with the main cast beyond a simple friendship meter - are you and they kindred spirits? friendly rivals? enemies with benefits?

Fight your enemies' henchmen - or try to befriend them.

Have a drink with a supervillain.

Watch out for sharks.

ANGEL | 25 | m/f/nb [Romanceable by all]

A DIABLO operative. You've met before, and they certainly made an impression. With their striking looks and flirtatious charm, Angel's good at making impressions, but you've seen the menace that lurks beneath their easy smiles. Their interest in you is something you could exploit - if it's real, and if you can keep yourself from getting too close...

AGENT 313 | 30ish | m/f [Romanceable by MCs of the same gender]

An agent working in the mission control and analysis department; 313 is a technical genius with a strong moral centre - which is not the best thing to have, in your line of work. When 313 dives deeper into the shadows, will they emerge unscathed? And will you be there to watch their back, or clash over your plans?

AGENT 100 | 53 | m [Romanceable by all]

100's legendary charm, daring, and sheer luck have seen him become the IIA's most successful agent. Now he's supposed to be retiring - but he's never been good at resisting the lure of action. The only thing longer than his list of triumphs is his list of enemies, but can you keep him from being his own worst enemy?

SINCLAIR | late 20s | m/f/nb [Romanceable by all]

A cat burglar whose wit is as quick as their hands, Sinclair is a blast from your past who has re-emerged just in time to get themself in trouble. You always knew them as someone primarily motivated by self-interest - has anything changed?

AGENT 196 | mid 30s | f | [Non-romanceable... unless...?]

The severe, cynical field agent who you've been partnered with. She doesn't seem to be your biggest fan, but is there something more to it than a clash of personalities?

SERAPH | 40? | m | [Non-romanceable]

DIABLO's top assassin, a grim shadow whose mission clashes with your own. But there is more to him than meets the eye - will you be able to settle things peacefully, or will it all end in bloodshed?

AZAZEL

You know next to nothing about this enigmatic evil genius - but Azazel has a plan, and you might just end up as part of it.

BEELZEBUB

This ruthless crimelord sees himself as the natural choice for DIABLO leader. Others disagree, but he's more than willing to go to any extremes for victory.

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You used to be a beacon of hope. Now they only know you as the failure, the Unchosen. Will you rise above them? Will you become better or far worse than they could ever imagine?

Disenchanted is an interactive fiction novel that takes place in the hidden supernatural society of the modern world.

They found you living half in an orphanage and half on the streets of New York at the age of ten. The Oracle said you were the Chosen One, destined to defeat a great evil that is yet to arrive. Arrive it does, however, in your early childhood.

They called them the Phantom, a plague on the supernatural community, a politician gone mad.

The pressure is on as you begin your education at the New York Boarding School for Arcane Arts. Yet, as the prophecies start, you fail again and again.

Cameron Fletcher does not.

They are hailed a hero, and you are nothing. Not valuable enough to remain with your foster family, not worthless enough to toss back to the mortals.

You’re normal. Maybe worse than normal, what with your history. You’re Unchosen.

Create your character. Customize gender, pronouns, appearance, skills, and personality.

Choose how you feel towards your peers and former loved ones.

Romance any of the ten options (one female, one male, and eight gender selectable). Poly routes are also available.

Choose your species. Options include Nephilim, Cambion, Siren, Banshee, Basilisk, Draca, or Sorcerer.

Decide on your magical specialties.

Lucia/Lucien “Luci” Rivera (Nephilim)(she/her or he/him), your ex-best friend or ex-partner. You used to live with their family before everything that happened. They ditched you when it became the popular thing to do. Are you bitter?

Penelope Eliades (Siren)(she/her), a student from the Mediterranean. She seems nice and is lovely to listen to, but she has fangs for a reason. This one shouldn’t be crossed under any circumstances.

Cameron Fletcher (Sorcerer)(she/her, he/him, or they/them), the new Chosen One. Talented, charming, and everything you couldn’t be. Are they actually nice or just condescending? You can’t tell.

Viktor Orlov (Draca)(he/him), your best friend. The only one that stayed by your side after your disgrace, their family let you couch surf when the Riveras kicked you out.

Harlow Mitchell (Banshee)(she/they or he/they), the child of the Oracle who condemned you to a life in the supernatural world. You don’t know if they’re just bitter that you ended up disgracing their mother’s reputation or if you just annoy them in general.

Amrita/Amrit “Amri” Singh (Nephilim)(she/her or he/him), another student at your college who comes from a long line of Nephilim on their father’s side. Set up for political office, but is generally against the idea.

Theodora/Theodore “Theo” Parker (Cambion)(she/her or he/him), they are quite possibly Cameron Fletcher’s least favorite person in the world. Theo is top of their class, and many would consider them the Chosen One’s rival. They also happen to be your roommate in university.

Charlotte/Charles “Charlie” Ortiz (Basilisk)(she/her or he/him), a fellow student who works at the campus bookstore and is in a few of your classes. Very hot, very kind, and you find a dead body together. Uh oh.

Avery Monroe (Sorcerer)(she/her or he/him), the Phantom. Disappeared six years ago. Were they truly mad in their lust for power as the world claimed, or was there a reason behind their vendetta against the magical government?

??? (Wraith)(she/they or he/they), they are following you. They are in your home, in your head, and you cannot escape.

…The Horrors? You’re unsure of who they are…what they are.

*Poly Routes are Viktor/Theo, Cameron/Luci, Viktor/Luci, Cameron/Avery, Charlie/Avery, Cameron/Theo, Cameron/Viktor, ???/Harlow

My other interactive fiction projects: @fallenlightsif and @reapersbayif

Do you have any favourite ifs at the moment, or any you’re excited for?

helloooo <3 as a matter of fact, i do have a couple of those!

infamous @infamous-if (as we all know) because amy is such a wonderful writer, she makes me FEEL feel (yes, i shed tears reading chapter two). the characters feel so real. always a pleasure to make edits for this if! also looking forward to @bodydoublegame.

anything mila writes, truly. i always have a hard time picking an ro because they all are amazing in their own way. also not a big sports fan but i love her stories so much i'm actually super excited for her latest if @beyondthegame. check out my fave: golden!! @milaswriting, and don't forget before dusk sets in @celestialdusks.

the exile @exilethegame i'm obsessed, i've read this one so many times!!!!! the plot is so so so good, you just have to see for yourself. the relationships between the characters (the family dynamics most of all???)

attollo @attollogame the worldbuilding, the writing, the characters??? has the best villains imo, the complexity, wow 10/10

merry crisis @merrycrisis-if this one will also have you drowning in your feelings <3

when twilight strikes @evertidings i feel like i keep repeating myself (and i am) but once again the writing? the characters? you won't be able to stop once you start reading! you're welcome <3

apartment 502 has to be my most anticipated if (@apt502-if) i saw new girl, i clicked so fast! and you should too if you haven't already <3 the demo is not out and i already have 3 mcs, that's how excited i am!!!

book two of the golden rose @anathemafiction i know i don't talk about it enough (or at all) on here but check out the first book, i can't recommend it enough!!

@disenchantedif can't wait to read from the beginning with the next update, i feel like it has the potential to become another favorite of mine + i've heard so many good things about it from a couple people with great taste!

i feel like i'm forgetting so many but these will have to do for now <3 there are other projects i'm following but i haven't had time to check out the demos so i might reblog this post in the future to update the list. <3

“the intrusive thoughts won” “that’s psychotic” “i’m so delusional haha” “narcissistic abuse” “the weather is so bipolar” SHUT UP!!!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!