I Support Bi Rights. But More Relevantly I Support Bi Wrongs

Hey mutuals friendly reminder that

• I am drowning

• there is no sign of land

• you are coming down with me

• hand in unlovable hand

Coding is my adrenaline sport

When people see programming from the outside, it looks like a very sedentary occupation. In many ways it is. But when you are doing it, when you are the person in that chair, it is anything but sedentary.

Coding is a rush. The only thing preventing you from moving faster is the speed of your fingers and the processing power of your brain. Everything is happening all at once. Even with a plan, knowing exactly what you need to build, how you need to build it, and exactly why it needs the modules it needs, even then you are following the road where it goes, through all the twists and turns. It’s like that first moment of falling when you cycle over the top of a hill at speed, when you realise how fast you are going and you are both filled with adrenaline and a reckless sort of fear.

I’ve been addicted to that rush since I wrote my very first program at nineteen. There is nothing quite like it. I used to run, back when I still could, and even at my top speed, downhill, feeling almost like I could fly, it never quite measured up to the swoop and dive of the black hole that is coding. You want it to go on forever. It’s almost an out of body experience. Full brain immersion. I can code all day and barely even realise that time has passed. I am almost never the one to stop myself programming. Either the program has reached a natural break point, or someone else has noticed the time and managed to pull me back into the physical realm.

After I got sick I was terrified that coding would be different. My physical limitations would prevent me from reaching that level of pure cerebral energy that was my adrenaline fix. Would my fingers move fast enough? Would I get tired too quickly? Would my sideways brain be able to solve problems on the fly like it used to?

Luckily, like reading, it seems that my brain has been able to reach those levels necessary to dive into my code. I need an ergonomic keyboard and mouse, else my fingers tire and cramp easily. I get tired more easily, meaning that after the adrenaline rush I find myself unwell and exhausted. But even then, waking up like I did today, feeling ill from over exertion of yesterday’s coding spree, I wouldn’t trade my coding for a thing. Some people jump out of planes. Programmers dive into code. And after all, I’m no good with heights.

have you ever seen blood this grand? gore so good? it slides, it slips, it slithers across the floor, the red trail all from you. you feel almost dizzy, grinning at the camera in all your glory.

Blocked, sunshine and unfollowed

As a result of my beliefs that kitty lord has to question the moon I find that the post you made about the new naw and the same effect I did was horribly offensive. Due to my heart I think it’s a pain to sleep in my bed and I feel bad that sometimes it happens so you are very tired and very upset and so you are blocked, sunshine and unfollowed.

I completely respect your opinion but I do think that's unfair 🙄

power lines are crushed with the weight of four days of accumulated freezing rain in boucherville near montreal, canada, january 9, 1998

photo by robert laberge, via bbc archives

i have a question for polyams, as an aromantic: what does romance mean to you? the most common kinds of romances we see are from a monogamous lens (ie. the “one true love”), so i’m curious to know how y’all’s view on romance differs (or is the same!).

this is directed at alloro polyams, however if you are polyam and aro/arospec and you have something to add, feel free to weigh in!

i wash the red from my hands but i'm still as dirty as ever

Hey, I’m Zain! I’m a writer and artist that reblogs stuff sometimes.

Sun