52 Hour Fastttt!!!!

Diary Entry #9

"And if I die?"

Ana smiles, patronizing, "then you shall die beautiful."

At that moment, I knew, as I lied among the rubble of my filthy room. That though I can hardly breath and my body has grown weaker. That though I am pale and sick and nearly lifeless. That though I am fading into nothingness, drowning and sinking into the oblivion that is vanity. I knew I would always crawl back to her.

I knew, that even in death I would call out her name, because she has given me what I most desired, what I most craved, and prayed, and begged for.

Ana gifted me beauty when God did not.

my bfs hand compared to my leg

posting again teehee cus got tworded

I need need need an 4n4 buddy 😭😭 someone who can share my days with me and help me get through! 😭

How it feels to be in a binge cycle:

I get so mad when my friends tell me like “omg I ate so little today, im anorexic” or “im soooo hungry i haven’t eaten breakfast”

Shut up. Literally shut up. I’ve been fasting for 3 days.

🕯️🕯️ skinnier arms 🕯️🕯️

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🕯️🕯️ skinnier arms 🕯️🕯️

🕯️🕯️ skinnier arms 🕯️🕯️

🕯️🕯️ skinnier arms 🕯️🕯️

🕯️🕯️ skinnier arms 🕯️🕯️

Y’all what are things I can do to distract myself inside from eating??? I’m trying to find things so hard!!!

Me: I’m finally clean from $h!

The way my raging 3d looks at me:

I have been eating like a pig and a normal person for weeks; someone PLEASE HELP ME get back on track! I can't even restrict like I used to. All I do is eat and eat and eat and FUCKING EAT. I'm gonna be insane 💀💀

I just want a pure body & a pure soul. I want to be cleansed of the greed and gluttony that suffocates my bones. I want to be pure, I need to be pure. This is no longer a desire but a need, an obsession.