Im So Annoyed Right Now, I Pressed The Shut Down Button On My Laptop And The Ask I Was Working On Did

Raze, is there anything you'd like to talk about? I'm no good at comforting people, but I'll do my best for you.

Big sister Lost is giving you the biggest hug ever.

heyo lost! there isnt much to talk about yet i want to, i just don't know what to say or where to start, thank you big sister lost, im very thankful for the hug:)

~sincerely miku's bakery

k. ayato x gn!reader.

genre: angst.

Tw: reader’s death, regret, swearing, just Ayato being mean :(

my first time making a fanfic and write stuff so, enjoy!

also my grammar is a bit off.. so sorry about that.

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you loved him. you really do. But be as it may, it doesn’t change the fact that he doesn’t have time for you. Today is the 3rd time this week you had asking him to atleast spends some time with you, but ofcourse, you had been back at this damned room, your shared room. “Ayato… please, honey you shouldn’t do this to yourself.. you’re hurting.” said you, so full of concern for his well-being. “I’ve said this countless time [name]. STOP BOTHERING ME.” woah, this is new, he has NEVER raise his voice at you, shocked at his reply, you get out of his office, broken hearted. “[name]…? i’ve heard everything.. im sorry..” Thoma says while pats your head, comfortingly. You could only stare at your hands, dumbfounded at your ‘soon to be husband’. You only wanted Ayato to talk about your recent sickness, you got cancer. “It’s alright, Thoma, really thank you for always being there for me” Thoma smiles down at you, “anytime.”.

your sickness got worse on these pass couple of weeks. you couldn’t walk anymore. Ayaka stood beside you, feeding you while her brother still doesn’t know about any of this, “[name], we should really tell about your condition to Ayato” face full of concern while fidgeting her dress. “Really, it’s okay Ayaka, he wanted some alone time” You reply to her statements half-heartedly. You can’t stand him anymore, all of his bullshits, you’re so tired of his childish silly actions. Tears threaten to fall from your eyes, all you wanted was him to finally lay beside you, sharing your sweet-nothings to eachothers, and maybe even go out on some little harmless dates, actually, when was the last time he had taken you to dates? you couldn’t remember. You felt as your body began to ache- so bad that you almost screamed. It hurts, physically and mentally, you’re not ready to leave this world, you haven’t fulfill your wishes yet. “[NAME]!!! WHATS WRONG?!?!” Ayaka, your best friend, your fiancè’s beloved sister. “Aya… please, don’t tell him about this.. AGH… it.. hurts..” Tears started to fall on her crystal blue eyes, it hits your face like a rock falling to the ground. “Shhh… don’t cry, its all going to be alright.., i want you to tell him how much i loved him..” you smiled at her, for the last time.

A week has passed after that incident, the estate has a depressing aura surrounding it, even the fatui near the estate are concerned about what happened. Fortunately(or rather… unfortunately), Ayato has begin to notice this, how when you hadn’t come up to his office to “bother him”, how everytime when Thoma sees him his face falls into a saddened one, and how..how he has suddenly felt… troubled..? why does his heart picked up when he’s near your shared room..? everyone in the estate is so.. depressed, as if someone has passed. He connected all the dots and… no. There’s no way. He refused to believe that. And there he came searching around the estate, looking, searching, YEARNING, for any traces you left behind. Hell, he even goes out to Inazuma city to ask about everyone if they have seen you, but all of that comes to a waste. No traces was found, he’s stressed. Had you gone to another island? or even region? why doesn’t you tell him anything? do you… hate him..? He grips his Sumi(a japannese calligraphy pen or some sorts), it almost break because of how much power he used. “Godammit [name]. Where could have you been..?” all of the regrets, its all coming to him, it feels like a burden behind his back, guilty. He hated the fact that he had yelled at you, when he swore on his life he would never yell at you. He asked one of the guards regarding your presence, but all of the guards said that they cannot tell him, its not that they want to, but its an order. From a certain someone, someone he cherishes, he loved, he worships. He’s getting enough of this, “Ayaka!” his smooth voice rangs around the estate, Ayaka, who was practicing her swordmanship rushes to her brothers office, “Yes brother?” she asks him while also being nervous. “Where is [name]?”

Tears streaming down his face. How could.. how could you..?!?! you left him. In this world behind, alone, well not really but he doesn’t care. Why hasn’t anyone told him about your passing?? once he opened the letter that you write from him before you’re gone, he’s so, so heart brokened.

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To my dearest, Ayato.

Hello, dear. It seems that Ayaka has given you this letter i wrote days, weeks, or even months prior. Yes, i’ve probably am already gone from this beautiful world, im sure you’ve probably felt guilty about it. Don’t worry, i’ve forgiven you, so don’t think about it that much… just.. be happy for me alright..? I love you.

Full of love, yours only.

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thanks for reading, this is so shit, im so sorry

maybe true maybe not;)

tagging: @under-the-cherrytree @shouxmo and anyone who wants to join:D (since i dont know who to tag)

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Hello! I know you’re busy but just wanted to check on you and ask how is school? 😊Hope you are taking plenty of care to yourself and are enjoying the nice weather.

Hello kat! i've been doin ok ever since my school has ended and i just got my report card since 4th of july (man what kind of coincidence) and it was a 89, report card aside i have been taking care of myself and the weather here..... not sure its nice it keep switching to hot and cold. and for everyone who sended an ask its all still halfway done, my friends are chaotic and they keep distracting me(i cant say anthing to bad about them one of my friends follow me and she'll say it them them)

~sincerely miku's bakery~

......excuse me WHAT

I have no words.

slo my first friend on tumblr has passed away, me and sienna haven't been friends for very long but i can genuinely tell she was a great friend, i wish me and sienna had more time to be friends, i cannot express how grateful i am to be friends with sienna.

this is very short but as i have said i have now words to say how sad it is to lose a great friend like sienna, how i wish to spend more time with you sienna, sending condolences to her family.

thank you for being my first friend sienna 💗

~sincerely miku's bakery~

how i wish this is a nightmare, it's horrifyingly shocking when i returned from school only to find out one of my best online friends has passed away— sending condolences to @threepointseven

millions of thank yous to her sister for reaching out to me, you dont know how grateful i am. i felt terrible knowing that im in august without her

i have known sienna not for that long, but since last december we started to interact with one another and was kind of inseparable through online chatting, and we talked like a lot. sienna was a kind, sweet, humourous, caring, beautiful, understanding , an amazing friend and an incredibly lovable person— it's upsetting how she just turned 14 back in 29 Jun, it hasn't been a month since she turned a year older

when i wished her birthday at discord, the phrase "panjang umurnya serta mulia" is a lyric from a malay birthday song which literally means "live a long and well life"

she had told me several times before about her private life, how she was constantly having rough times and was poorly treated at school. this terribly upsets me as i cherish her presence a lot, but due to how busy i am for my upcoming biggest exam that i'll be sitting for next year, i became inactive in tumblr when she was here ( in which, Sienna always reminded me to go study 😭 and get passed with flying colours ) how i wish i could've spent more time together with her, and tell her more about how much i love her

back in january, when she found out my birthday has passed ( 18th Dec ) she immediately made a birthday special drawing for me

i always smiled when i see your notifications, smiled when you replied, laughed at your antics, enjoyed our chats till late night and woke up only to chat again with you

words can't describe how devasted i am upon hearing this news– if only multiuniverse exists then i hope me and her are friends in real life, and she's still here with me. sending condolences to her family 🤍

i love you more than you'll ever know, Sienna 💕

Ok its been a few months or a year even sfter i updated but im being fr now im just writing down my idea and doing it, and posting amd im finished but then again exams are coming up so ig by next week its finished?? Just doing it here now and done

Hey, Raze. How's it going? Have you been keeping well? I wanted to check up on you since I've been off the grid for a bit lol.

Im doing great and well ive also been off the grid lately plus ive been doing my drafts but not finishing them (i want to write for blue lock and danganronpa should i do?)

I SEE

WELL PLEASE REST UP THEN IF YOU ARE IN PAIN-!!

DONT WORRY MY BODY ISNT IN TO MUCH PAIN AND IM CURRENTLY RESTING RIGHT NOW

i was just literally about to sleep when i checked my activity(for off reasons) and saw that T H E INFAMOUS LEGENDARY (my favorite genshin writer) @thelost-in-time HAS LIKED MY XIAO X READER?!(maybe im being dramatic but who cares) i literally almost said to my sister but i remembered everyones asleep and she doesn't have tumblr

anyways i have to sleep cuz i have school tmrw and i left my unfinished work there🥲