I Fuucking Miss It

Maybe not softer for me. I want extreme, hardcore

Lately I just want to exist in a way that feels natural. No over explaining, no performance, just moving through life in a way that makes sense to me. Slower, softer, more intentional. Less about proving, more about being.

In English we say "I can't make eye contact". But in Urdu, we say:

"Unki nazron ka rukh aaj meri taraf hai,

Aaj meri palkon ne uthne se inkaar kar diya hai".

Cigar, fire, stars

Reserve all your prayers, supplications, solicitations for Him and Him alone. For to bestow, give, and confer lies only in His Power. Allow God to exceed your expectations and be extravagant in what you ask of Him. Ask audaciously for your heart's greatest desires, and know that how you perceive God's generosity will shape the outcome to your prayers. Indeed, only He Who is Most Generous is worthy of worship.

— Imām ʿAlī ibn Abī Ṭālib (ع)

I must be ignorant

I trust she’s arrogant

My expansion of failure

2 love her femininity

Her kiss was my last breath

Love was my best death

Now

Their is nothing left of this failure of a man

No broaden step 2 collect

Mullet era