Never Enough

Make it to Christmas 1/3

Info: Christmas for the Shelby clan were never special, but this year seems t be the worst as y/n, the youngest, has been diagnosed with the illness that takes many away.

Set in season 1

Masterlist

All was quiet in the Shelby household, all were asleep bar Tommy who sat in his office working on some papers that were due. His thoughts were stalled as he hears movement around the halls upstairs and a door slamming against a wall before sounds of chocking, causing him to sigh and move to stand up, knowing who it was.

Y/n Shelby had been sick for the last five days, and it seemed to be getting progressively worse. For an eleven year old her energy had severely deteriorated and anything she ate always came back up, that was if she ate anything at all. She spent majority of her time in bed, sleeping most of the day.

Tommy sighs as he makes his way up the stairs to check on his sister. Arriving at the bathroom door he seen Polly sitting on her knees beside the young girl, holding her hair back and rubbing her back in comfort, muttering kind words as her youngest niece struggled to keep anything down. Hearing noise, Polly looked up to see Tommy standing in the doorway, who glanced at his oungest sibling before looking at Polly.

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“It’s been five days Pol, something ain’t right.” Tommy stated, not liking his sister being sick.

“I know that Thomas, hardly think this is normal.” Polly snapped at her nephew, worry get best of her.

“Pol.” Tommy warned, moving his head to y/n, saying not to stress her out.

“Tommy.” Y/n whined after she finished heaving, hearing her older brother and wanting his comfort.

“Hey there little angel, still not feeling great aye?” He asked, causing Polly to glare at him.

“I’m tired, and sore and icky. I don’t like it, I want it to end, I want to get better.” She whined as she coughed, bringing her hands up as an indication for Tommy to lift her.

“I can imagine that it isn’t pleasant, but you will get better. Why don’t you and aunt Pol go to the doctors today, he can give you something to make you feel better, how’s that for ya?” Tommy asked, picking up his sister despite Polly’s protests and grabbing a rag from the bathroom sink, wetting it and wiping her face gently with it.

“What’s the doctor going to do for her, she has the stomach bug that’s all. Nothing rest can’t fix.” Polly stated, not liking the idea of going to the doctor only to be told the girl needs rest.

“If it was a stomach bug I’m pretty sure it would’ve gone by now. Just bring her Polly, all they can say is that there isn’t anything wrong.” Tommy stated, allowing y/n to place her head on his shoulder, her eyes closing with tiredness once again.

“I swear Tommy she has you wrapped around her finger.” Polly stated wit ha shake of her head.

“Her health is important Polly, I thought you prioritized that.” Tommy stated before moving out of the bathroom and heading to put his sister down for bed once again, kissing her head before leaving.

"Lord, watch over y/n and I pray that she get's over this bug amen." Polly prayed before heading back to bed.

Next morning, y/n and Polly sat around the kitchen table, waiting for Tommy to return with the doctor. Y/n sat sluggish in her chair, appearing to be struggling to keep herself up right as she lay her head on her arms which were crossed on the table. In her hand was her Christmas teddy that she always had on her from the moment it hit December 1st, being the teddy that John had given her shortly after returning from the war.

Y/n loved Christmas, always had from the moment she understand what Christmas was about. She loved to decorate the house in the little amount of decorations the Shelby family had. The Shelby's were never really into doing Christmas, seeing it as another day, and if it wasn't for y/n they probably wouldn't even celebrate Christmas.

Polly looked away from her niece as the door was heard opening, and stands up when she sees Tommy walk in with the doctor behind him. Seeing her looking at him, Tommy nods at her before moving towards his sister, crouching beside her and placing a hand on her back to try wake her up a bit, only for her to whine, feeling discomfort from touch and moving away from her brother. Tommy frowning and looked at Polly, both knowing it was strange for the youngest Shelby to deny affection.

The doctor moves towards y/n who looks up in confusion, eyes beady due to tiredness. Seeing an unfamiliar face, she frowns and looks at Polly before moving hands, wanting to be picked up. Polly clicked her tongue in frustration, shaking her head in disapproval at her niece, causing y/n to whine again, not liking her aunt’s reluctance to pick her up

“Y/n the doctors here.” Polly stated, glancing at the doctor as he watched how the youngest Shelby reacted against her brothers contact.

“I’ll leave you too it.” Tommy stated ,clearing his throat and moving to his office, closing door tightly.

Y/n sighs before groaning in discomfort as she wiggled in her seat. The doctor took this as a sign that the young girl was ready and made his way over to her. Seeing y/n's eyes flutter with tiredness the man sighed kindly and began working quickly to prevent further discomfort for the girl. He checked her temperature, back of the throat, her walking abilities and a urine sample. At the end y/n was nearly falling asleep, causing the doctor to become concerned.

“Y/n, the doctor is here to look over you, will you be good for him and let him do his work.” Polly instructed to young girl, knowing this could go one of two ways.

“I want Tommy.” Y/n stated tiredly, her voice ruff after the severe coughing episode she had earlier.

“I’m sure Tommy will come back when it’s over, now come on, be a big girl now.” Polly stated with a bit of roughness, wanting this to be over with.

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“Does she always appear tired.” He asked Polly, who stood in the corner of the kitchen out of the way.

“Most days, especially after any vomiting episodes.” Polly stated, sounding as if she knew what it was her niece had.

“And her temperature, she appears to have a fever, how long has that been going on.”

“Around five days, she always gains a fever when she’s sick.”

“And you say she’s been vomiting for nearly a week?”

“Like I said doctor it’s just the stomach bug, all children get it. They lose their appetite, have aches and pains, get sick, rise a fever, and then it runs its course. Tommy’s worrying for nothing.”

“Actually Mister Shelby has every right to be worried. Because young y/n here doesn’t have the stomach bug. A stomach bug wouldn’t last as long as it has, at least not as severe. With her fever, redness of the throat likely caused by her abrupt coughing episodes and vomiting as well as the aches and pains you say she’s been complaining about, young y/n is suffering from more than just the stomach bug, or any common illness for that matter.” The doctor stated, pointing out all the symptoms.

“Well, what is it then?”

"I'm afraid young y/n Shelby here, has the Spanish flu." The doctor stated causing Polly to look at him in horror.

Each of the Shelby siblings didn't know what to say, their baby sister had caught the illness that majority of people died from if caught. Arthur stared ahead, not knowing what to think, John looked down, regretting the joke he made and feeling fear for his baby sister, Ada tried to hold back tears while Finn allowed the tears to fall, not wanting his twin to go. Tommy stood frozen, refusing to look at anyone as he tried to process the news his aunt just said. Y/n was the Shelby's little angel, from the moment she was born she was their light, the thing that helped the brothers when they returned from war. Without her it would become darkness.

“Polly, what’s going on, why did you call a family meeting?” Ada asked, watching her aunt in confusion as the woman paced around the floor, worry clear on her face.

After the doctor had diagnosed the youngest Shelby- he had warned Polly of the likelihood of her getting worse instead of better- though poor Polly knew this as not many people were known to survive around the town if they caught the lethal disease, with the majority of them dying weeks after their diagnoses- with how y/n’s little body was reacting to the disease it was likely to take it’s toll on the youngest Shelby’s body quickly, meaning she likely wouldn’t make it to the end of the year- hence why she was sent to bed before her siblings were called to hear the news.

“Right Pol, what is it? What’s so important that you had to call us all here aye?” Tommy asked, barging through the front door and stalking towards the kitchen table.

“I need everyone to keep a clear head and remain quiet as I tell you this alright. Y/n’s in bed and needs her rest.” Polly stated, not wanting to wake y/n up.

“Bloody hell Pol your talking as if someone’s dead.” John stated, shaking his head slightly at the dramatics of the situation.

“Pol, what is it? What did the doctor say?” Tommy asked, seeing the seriousness in Polly’s face.

“Y/n’s sick, really sick.” Polly started, looking at each Shelby sibling before continuing, “And I don’t want any of you to start worrying alright, because it won’t make it any easier.”

“Pol, what’s wrong with our y/n?” Arthur asked, not liking the way Polly was talking.

“Y/n has the Spanish flu. The doctor said with her symptoms it’s likely she’s been infected for a while.” Polly stated, waiting to hear the reaction.

“But she seemed fine last week.” Finn stated, looking at his aunt in confusion.

“The doctor said it will get worse, and there is a chance.” Polly stopped, wanting to get control of her emotions before continuing, “There is a chance that she may not survive this. Her bodies not able to keep up with it.” Polly looked down as silence fell around them.

Polly sighs, knowing the Shelby stubbornness was strong when it came to little y/n. She also knew that this would break the family, regardless of the outcome. And all Polly could do was pray, and hope, that y/n would at least make it to Christmas, her favorite time of year.

“Is she asleep?” Tommy asked, moving towards the stairs.

“Yes, and I don’t want anyone going into her. Don’t need anyone else catching it.” Polly stated forcibly, moving towards Tommy as he scoffed.

“You expect us to not be there for our sister when she’s ill, you clearly don’t know us Polly.” Tommy stated harshly.

“we’re not leaving her Pol, she needs us. And if she doesn’t make it we need her too.” Finn stated, sniffling from the tears.

Never threaten the Shelby sister 2/2

Info: Tommy never believed his sister when she said she was threatened by his enemies, but when injuries happen, Tommy is quick to make sure y/n knows how much he cares.

Relationship: Tommy Shelby x sister

Part 1

The situation kept replaying in Tommy’s mind. Shooting the man, running to y/n, seeing his sister surrounded by her own blood and Michal leaning over her, begging her to stay with him as he held pressure to the wound, his arm bleeding from the shoulder. Tommy remembered shouting for someone to grab a doctor, and two men running out with a gurney, transferring his sister on it before rushing into the hospital. He remembered trying to get by them to be with his sister while nurses held him back, telling him to sit down and wait till the doctor came out.

Michal managed to get away with a few stitches, and a telling off from Polly about being so careless to try and take down two men when he was on his own. Y/n however, had fared out with serious injuries, and Tommy couldn’t help but blame himself. If he had of believed her than she probably wouldn’t be in this situation. She wouldn’t be lying in the hospital bed with Tommy holding her hand, her family coming in and out to see if there was any change. She was the one who took care of the patients who came an went, she wasn’t meant to be one. Instead, she lay on the bed while Tommy kept his head down, a grip on her hand, refusing to leave her side.

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“Any change.” Tommy looked up to see his aunt Pol standing at the door.

“No, nothing.” Tommy spoke, dropping his head to look at y/n.

“What did the doctor say?” She asked, moving into the room, and Tommy seen Michal following behind, winching as he jolted his arm as he sat down.

“They managed to get the bullet out but there was a ruptured vessel. They managed to stop it so it’s just a waiting game.” Tommy explained, rubbing y/n’s knuckles with his thumb.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t save her.” Michal spoke up, and Polly shook her head as she looked at her son.

“Don’t blame yourself pet, it wasn’t your fault.” She smiled before turning to Tommy, “It was your idiotic cousins’ fault.”

Tommy looked at Pol to see her piercing glare.

“Yeah, I get it, I messed up, is that what you want to fucking hear?” Tommy snapped, not liking his aunt at him when he knew he had messed up.

“Yeah Tommy, it is. You need to realize that if it wasn’t for you y/n probably wouldn’t be in this situation. This could have been prevented if you had just listened to her. But no, you had to be so high on your horse to believe her didn’t you.” Polly snapped at her nephew, and Michal looked away, not sure where to look. “Who was he anyway?”

“Doesn’t matter, he’s sorted. Won’t get near her again.” Tommy spoke, looking down at y/n and kissing her hand as he ran a finger down her face.

After an hour or so, Polly and Michal left with Polly promising she’d be around tomorrow, and warned Tommy to call if anything changed. Arthur and John had came by and said that they would be outside the door if Tommy needed them, stating that she needed all the protection she could get after the events of the evening, and Tommy agreed, saying that when y/n came through, he would be sure that a peaky blinder was around her 24/7, whether she liked it or not. He wasn’t going to let anything happen to her again. He realized just how much leverage his enemies would have over him if they got to y/n. She was his light, and Tommy knew that she was his everything.

That night Tommy refused to sleep. He spent the night sitting in the seat beside y/n’s bed, leaning back and staring into space. Grace had came by to try get him to come home, Charles had been wondering where his daddy was, but Tommy refused, stating that his sister needed him. This lead to an argument between the two, with Grace furious that he would choose his sister over her soon, but Tommy took no mind as his priorities lay with his sister. She was injured because of an error he made, and he wasn’t going to leave until he knew that she was okay.

It wasn’t until the early hours of the morning when an improvement to y/n’s condition was made. Tommy was knocked out of his thoughts by a slight movement of the hand he had never let go of since he was let into see y/n. Looking down, he could see y/n’s finger moving ever so slightly that he thought that it was his sleep deprived state that was making him feel it. But when he looked up at y/n and seen her head move to the side he knew he wasn’t hallucinating what he wanted to happen, it was in fact happening. In his desire to get y/n to waken up some more, Tommy stood up and leaned over his sister, placing a hand on the top of her head as he brushed back some lose hairs.

Y/n hummed as she felt the cool water hit the back of her throat. Licking her lips, she moved her head away from the cup Tommy had at her lips and winched as she swallowed. Tommy brought his hand back to hers and rubbed it between both his hands as he watched her try to open her eyes. Y/n struggled for a few minutes before finally opening her eyes, shutting them just as quick as she opened them when the light came to view. Blinking, she opened them once again, and Tommy came into her view, a slight smile on his face.

“Hmm, Tommy.” Y/n muttered dryly, smacking her lips together trying to get moisture to them as she kept her eyes closed with tiredness.

“Y/n, can you open your eyes love.” Tommy asked softly, rubbing his thumb around the palm of her hand.

“Water.” Y/n stated, though Tommy struggled to hear it with y/n’s dry throat.

“Here you go.” Tommy stated, quickly moving to the side of the room and filling a small cup with water, bringing it to her lips so she could drink.

Y/n indicated weakly with her hand for Tommy to come towards her and Tommy looked at her before sighing and moving back beside her bed. He took her hand once again and y/n smiled, squeezing it.

“Hey you.” He spoke gently, and y/n smiled slightly.

“Hey.” Y/n replied, moving to get up but gave up upon feeling pain.

"How you feeling love?"

"Like I've been hit by a bullet?" She joked, smile fading as she watched her brothers reaction.

"Y/n I'm so sorry for not believing you when you told me some guy threatened you. I should of trusted you and went to deal with him as soon as you said. But I didn't, and now look where you are." Tommy stated, throwing his hands up in frustration.

"Tommy, it's okay." Y/n tried to calm him down.

"No, it's not. And don't play it down like it is. You could of died y/n, and that would of been for my stupidness." Tommy said, standing up forcibly.

"Yeah, and I was beyond hurt that you didn't believe me. But you saved me from a worse faith Tommy. You got him and got help before it was too late. You may not see it but if it wasn't for you turning up when you did I would be very dead right now." Y/n explained to Tommy, and he looked at her with unease. "Come here."

" I thought you'd hate me." Tommy spoke in a small voice, one y/n hadn't heard in a long time.

"We make mistakes Tommy, and we learn from them. Be glad nothing terrible happened, don't overthink what you could of done. I'm here, and I'll hold it against you, but I could never hate you. That's not in my blood. Besides, the rest of the family hate you enough for me." Y/n stated, smiling slightly to ease Tommy's worry. "I love you Tommy, that will never change."

"I love you too." Tommy smiled, kissing y/n's hand, "and from now on someone will be with you at all times."

"Course they will." Y/n muttered before smiling at Tommy, knowing it would make him feel better.

1, 2, 3

Info: Y/n suffers with panic attacks, and counting seems to help

Relationship: Halstead brothers x sister

From a young age y/n had always been an anxious child. While her class mates ran around the school yard playing, y/n opted to spend her time curled up in a ball at the corner of the yard, avoiding the concerned looks of teachers. The teachers never bothered her, she was a troubled kid who had good grades so they saw no need to chastise her. She lost her mum early on, and it was no secret that her father was found of the drink. Bother her brothers left home even before their mother died, so the young girl only had herself really.

When Jay returned, he seen the way his sister was and tried to get her out more often. He’d bring her to the park and try encourage her to play with the other children. It always ended in tears, so Jay ended up leaving it, thinking his sister would eventually come out of her shyness and find friends of her own. However in high school y/n became the loner of the class, no one went near her until class projects were due. She was known as the smart one in class, so naturally everyone wanted her on their team to get the good grades. So it was no surprise when she graduated all honours, even became the top of her class. The young girl got scholarships for 4 out of the 5 colleges she applied for, and she started studying forensics and lab.

It was during her early college years when Will came back. Being a doctor, he seen the signs and approached y/n, suggesting she went to get checked out for anxiety. It was in the hospital that y/n had her first panic attack. She was waiting in the waiting room, fiddling with her hands when Dr Charles called out her names. Not being good at talking to people., she often went hours without talking to her brothers, her anxiety hit the roof, and her chest collapsed in on itself. Dr Charles had seen the young girls reaction and called for her brother, before telling him that his sister had anxiety. She winded up in hysterics, and her brother and Charles struggled to help her, before Will started counting their breathing, and the girl started to calm down. Figuring out that counting helped the Halstead girl was a relieve for her brothers. She was given medication to help her, but the odd flare up did happen.

Y/n’s job as a crime scene analyser was a stressful job, but Jay seen his sister become more lively. Her old shy self-became a more energetic young woman, and even though Jay knew that a lot of that was due to the medication Dr. Charles put her on, he could never stop the smile when he seen her passion grow for the work she did. Majority of the crime scenes were never nice to see, but y/n always came with a smile, and left with the attitude to work. Gone were the days Jay would see her sister come to the crime scene with a slouched appearance, staying away from her coworkers and detectives. She begun talking and explaining things to Hank, leaving even Hank impressed with the new y/n.

She’d even spend nights out in Molly’s with Will & Jay after tough cases. Which was where she was when things came down on her. An arson case had just been solved, and y/n had been head of the forensics team for it. It wasn’t often that y/n took the top for cases, due to her anxiety she’d often turn down opportunities like that, but with her anxiety under control she decided to take a chance. Yet the added pressure of meetings with her team and taking control of what went on, y/n couldn’t help the feeling that started to build in her chest.

The Halstead siblings sat in their usual booth at the bar, Jay & Will joking with Severide after coming out of another big case. Many victims had been lost within the fires, and multiple casualties from the fires. Med & 51 had been run off their feet the past few days saving all they could and trying to prevent the fires from spreading, while Pd had been trying to figure out who the person was, and why they were doing it. Multiple charcoaled victims were brought to y/n to analyse, and many scenes were left with little to go by. The big hit was when the arsonist got sloppy, and 51 had gotten to the scene on time to stop the fire, leading to forensics to find his DNA on the letterbox of the front door.

The first sign of y/n’s anxiety would be her being quiet. Having not seen their sister having a panic attack in a while, they never noticed how she stayed away from the conversation, offering a weak smile that they put down to tiredness. The second was when y/n began to pick at the bottles sticker and fidgeting with the bottle. Severide glanced at the younger Halstead as the bottle was heard moving from one hand to the other. The tired sign became evident as y/n cleared her throat and tucked her hair behind her ear before moving in her seat, pushing at Jay slightly to get out.

The fourth sign was the one the Halstead brothers caught onto. Y/n staggered off the booth, hand on her chest as she moved to hold into a stool for balance. Y/n wasn’t one for much drink, so her brothers knew straight away that something was wrong. Glancing at his brother, Will excused himself for Severide to get up before walking towards his sister. Those around them watched as the Halstead sister’s breath became evidently sharp as she made her way to the bathroom. Not caring about it being the women’s bathroom, Will entered after her just as she locked the door to the stall she entered.

“You good?” Jay asked, seeing the slight distress on y/n’s face.

“Bathroom.” Y/n muttered to him ,rushing to get out of the booth and head to the bathroom.

Y/n held her chest as she rushed to close the toilet seat before sitting on it, leaning forwards. Tears streamed down her face as she gasped for breath, and she ignored the knock that came from the door.

Jay had walked to the bar and asked for Stella to help him get into the women’s bathroom. Wanting to be a little sensitive to the fact that it was the women’s bathroom, he got Stella to open the door for him before he went in to his brothers side. Will glanced at his brother with sad eyes, and Jay nodded in understanding.

“Y/n open up please.” Will’s soft vice was heard.

All Will could hear was y/n’s staggered breathing.

“Y/n, let me help.”

“Y/n, I’m going to kick the door in alright.” Jay spoke into the door towards y/n, knowing their sister would probably be in a ball of herself.

Lifting his foot, Jay held onto the sides of the stall as he turned to kick the door, muttering an apology to Stella as he done so. With the door opened, the Halstead’s hearts clenched at the sight of their sister with her knees to her chest, head ducked down. Deciding to move towards their sister, Will gently placed a hand on y/n’s chin, and she flinched at the contact. He forced her to remove her hands from her face and held them in his. She glanced at him with the hood of her eyes, and he smiled reassuringly as he brought her hand to his chest.

Jay watched as Will coached their sister to breath in time with him, and rolled a hand through his hair as she began to breath with their brother. Her breathing turned to hiccups as she started to breath slowly, and Will smiled at her as he placed a hand on her cheek gently.

“We’ll take this slowly Alright?” Will offered, and y/n nodded slightly.

“One.” Ill started, breathing in dramatically, “two.” He repelled his breath, watching y/n try to do the same. “Three.” In “four” out.

Y/n smiled and looked down, wiping her hands before dabbing at her face.

“There you go, that’s it.” Will smiled, talking to her as if she was a child as he wiped a stray tear that fell.

“I’m sorry.” Y/n whispered, looking down.

“It’s okay.” Will reassured her.

“You haven’t had one of them for awhile.” Jay observed, causing his sister to look at him.

“What brought it on?” Will asked, as he moved out of the cubicle so y/n could move to the sink.

“I think taking the lead on the analyses team was a big step, I got a bit freaked out I guess.” Y/n shrugged, cupping water in her hand before splashing her face.

“You were great. But don’t feel you have to continue it now that you’ve done it. What you done was a big case, maybe do a few small ones instead.” Jay stated, kissing the back of her head as he placed his hands on her head and looked at her through the mirror.

“We’re proud of you y/n, you did good. Take it easy on yourself. You took a big step this time, it’ll always be up and down, but your doing amazing regardless.” Will stated, leaning against the sink beside her as he spoke to her.

When y/n left the bathroom she seen Jay talking to a less than impressed Hermann and Will laughing beside him. Seeing the look on her older brothers face, she could tell Hermann was giving out to him about the bathroom door, but it quickly stopped when Stella hit Hermann on the back of the head.

“Take your time and come out when your ready. We can head home and have an early night if you’d like.” Jay stated, running his hands through her hair to get rid of the knots.

“Maybe another drink first.” Y/n smiled weakly, and Jay hugged her from behind.

“Whatever you want.” He smiled at her, kissing her cheek before leaving the bathroom, Will following in toll.

Y/n could only smile at Jay as he turned to face her, and he winked back, letting her take a beer from him before they sat down at their booth, talking with Severide about the time fire department was called to save a cat.

“He was worried about his sister, let him be.” Stella spoke to the older man.

“I’m just saying, you know, there are better ways to getting in than kicking the door in.” Hermann defended himself.

“Sure Hermann, I’ll take it easy next time my sister locks her self in for a panic attack.” Jay stated, rolling his eyes as Stella gave him the three beers.

Inocence taken (pt 2)

Info: Thomas Shelby has been the sole carer for his baby sister since he returned from the war, meaning that he has always been overly protective of her. At age 16, she tries to be more independent without the help of her brothers but when she gets attacked one night, she ends up pregnant and when her brother finds out, he doesn't realize that it wasn't by choice, and regrets it when Ada tells him the bad news.

Pairing: Tommy Shelby x sister, Shelby clan x sister.

Season: 1

Warnings: Mentions of rape, mentions of abortion.

Part 1

Y/n looked into the mirror as she stood up to get ready for the day. Her eyes were red rom the crying she had done last night, having spending the night with Ada instead of Tommy. After the fight neither party could look at each other in fear of what would be said if they met eye to eye. Sighing, y/n changed quickly before heading downstairs where Ada and Polly were sitting t the table. Seeing her younger sister, Ada smiled weakly as she moved forwards to her.

"Y/n sweetheart, wake up, we'll go before the boys get up." Pol spoke softly to her niece, rubbing her shoulder gently to wake her.

"Yeah ok." Y/n spoke tiredly, sitting up in her bed before watching her aunt leave before getting up.

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"You'll be okay." Ada spoke softly, rubbing her arms in comfort.

"We better go, the lads will be up soon, don't want questions on where were going." Polly spoke, moving towards her nieces and giving the youngest one her coat.

"Will it hurt." Y/n asked weakly.

"It'll be over quickly." Polly spoke, trying to comfort the girl, knowing the statistics of the women who lost their lives during the process due to blood loss.

"I love you." Ada smiled, trying to ease her younger sisters worries,

"I love you." Y/n smiled weakly before leaving with her aunt.

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Something Thomas Shelby had done since he returned from the war was looking after his baby sister, regardless of what happened the day before. So when he woke up the day after fighting with his sister, Tommy made his way to y/ns room to check on her. However, when he opened the door and didn't see the youngest Shelby sister, he panicked and went to check Polly's room, where y/n would regularly go after a fight with her closest brother. Not seeing either Shelby women, Tommy groaned in frustration before heading downstairs, expecting the glares of the two when he got to the kitchen.

However to his surprise, there was no sight of Polly or y/n when he got down there. In Polly's place was Ada, who was finishing up the breakfast and dishing it. Arthur was next to come down, immediately noticing the missing Shelby's.

Ada's eyes widened, not used to this version of Tommy. Everyone knew how protective he was of the youngest Shelby sister but never had he looked at a family member as if they were an enemy to him before. She sighed but told him, watching as he all but pulled the door off the hinges to get to his sister.

"Where's Polly and y/n?" Arthur asked in confusion as he sat at the table.

"Gone out. Finn, get down here for breakfast or starve." Ada replied before going to the end of the stairs to shout up at Finn.

"Gone out where?" Arthur pushed wanting to know more.

"Hopefully to sort out our whore of a sister." Tommy spoke, lighting a cigarette before inhaling some smoke.

"Jesus Crist, your such a fucking dickhead Tommy." Ada snapped, slamming her hands onto the kitchen table.

"I don't know what you mean Ada." Tommy shrugged, looking at his sister wit ha shake of his head.

"You say your there for y/n, but when she needs you most you leave her there as if she's fucking stale bread."

"She's the one who got pregnant Ada, not me." Thomas spoke, causing Arthur to look at him in shock.

"Oh my God you just don't get it do you Tommy, our sister was raped, she tried to tell you but you had ur head too far up your fecking arse, and now she's off getting a fucking procedure done that can be life threatening if gone wrong. She needed you Tommy, and you weren't there." Ada shouted, not realizing what she had said.

"Y/n was raped." Tommy asked quietly, in shock of what he had just been told. "

"Yeah Thomas she was, and unfortunately she became pregnant because of it." Ada said softly, looking down.

"Where'd Polly take her?" Tommy asked, frantically grabbing his coat and throwing it on.

"I don't think it's a good idea for you to go Tommy." Ada started

"Ada, listen to me. The one person that I live for and vowed to protect is gone for a procedure which can turn fatal without the appropriate care. I wasn't there to stop this from happening but I will not just sit here when I know where she is going. So Ada, where the fuck is she going?" Tommy spoke, moving towards his sister threateningly.

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Y/n sat quietly with Polly, shuffling her feet on the ground as they waited for the lady to call her in. Seeing her nieces fear, Polly grabbed the young girls hand, giving it a squeeze to bring Y/ns attention to her.

Y/n smiles at her aunt before turning to the door as it opens

"It'll be ok darling, it'll all be over soon." Polly tried to comfort her niece.

"I'm scared." Y/n whispers in fear.

"I know, but Your a Shelby y/n, and we Shelby's can get through anything."

Polly sighed and sat down, lighting a cigarette before staring at the wall ahead of her as she smoked it. She took a deep breath of worry as the silence surrounded her. That silence was short lived as she heard footsteps coming towards her, pulling her out of her thoughts. She sighed when she seen who it was, her nephew Tommy Shelby.

"Y/n Shelby?" The lady called out, peaking her head out the door.

Y/n looked at Polly in fear.

"It's alright love, I'll be out here when it's over then we can go home and forget about all this" Polly smiled in assurance, rubbing the girls arm before watching her niece follow after the woman who would do the procedure.

Tommy looked at his aunt to see the hard look on her face. He sighed and sat down on the seat closest to the door, pulling out a cigarette and placing it between his lips, rolling it before lighting it as he stared at the wall in front of him.

"Polly, where is she, where's y/n?" Tommy asked, stopping in front of her .

"You have some bloody nerve Tommy." Polly stated, ignoring his question.

"Polly, is she in there?" Tommy asked, pointing at the door his sister had entered minutes ago.

"You know Tommy I knew you were heartless, but I didn't think you would ever do something like that to your sister. She needed you and instead of letting her explain to you what happened you called her a whore. A fucking whore Tommy." Polly stated, standing up from her seat.

"I know Pol, I know, and I get it but I am here now, just please, don't start now, y/n needs us."

"You'll be lucky if she lets you near her after what you did Tommy" Polly spoke before their attention turned to the door as a scream was heard.

"Y/n.." Tommy spoke, going towards the door.

"You can't go in there Tommy." Polly spoke, moving in front of him, blocking his path.

"To hell I'm not after hearing her scream." Tommy spoke, determined to be there for his baby sister.

"It's part of the procedure, it's painful but only takes a matter of minutes." Polly explained, indicating for Tommy to sit down.

"Polly I swear to God if she......."

"Just sit the fuck down Tommy." Polly said with agitation.

Memories with y/n came back to him as he remembered her as a young girl, the laughs she made which caused everyone around her to smile. The times she snuck into his room as she knew it helped him with the nightmares and gave her the reassurance that he was there, alive. He shook his head in disbelief.

Tommy's head snapped up at the sound of the door opening. He stood up with Polly as the women stepped out, closing the door behind her before offering the Shelbys a small smile.

"How did we not realize, how did I not realize." He asked aloud, causing Polly to look at him.

"Don't do that Tommy, you can't do that to yourself." She stated with a shake of her head.

"She's my fucking sister Pol, and I didn't realize that she wasn't comfortable around men, I should of known something wasn't right the moment she wouldn't come near us, near me." He stated, throwing his hands up in frustration.

"We're hear now, and she will need you when this is all over. Only you can truly help her Tommy, God knows how close you two are, she looks up to you Tommy, she's been there for you when you needed her. Now it's your turn to be there for her." Polly spoke, watching as her nephew placed his head in his hands.

Polly turned to face her nephew as she sat down, taking a deep breath of relief as he brought his hands together and placed them under his chin. She smiled softly as she turned to the sound of the door, seeing y/n step out with a look of exhaustion.

"It's done, she'll be bleeding for a few days but that should clear up once everything's cleared out. She might be in pain and feel cramps but that's to be expected."

"Is she okay?" Tommy asked, wanting to know his sister was okay.

"She's tired but other then that. She'll be out to you in a minute, just getting herself sorted." The woman smiled before leaving them be.

True to his word, when they got back to the house, Tommy stayed with his sister as she went to her room to lie down. And as Tommy held his sister in his arms, caressing her back gently as she lay her head on his chest, he vowed that he would never let a man touch her like that without her consent.

"How you feeling sweetheart?" Polly asked, gaining the attention of Tommy.

"I just wanna go home Pol." y/n spoke, tears welling in her eyes as he voice wobbled.

"Then let's get you home." Tommy spoke up, causing y/n to face him in shock.

"What are you doing here?" She asked, scared he would have another go at her.

"Ada told me what happened, I had to come be with you when she told me where you had gone." Tommy spoke, cautisly moving closer, making sure not to scare her.

"I tried to stop him, I really did." Y/n tried to explain, tears beginning to fall.

"Hey, come here." Tommy spoke softly, pulling y/n into his arms, relief flooding him when she didn't pull away from him "I know you did, and I swear I will let nothing like this happen to you again okay." He promised, kissing her head in comfort.

"Okay." Y/n mumbled, not trusting her voice.

"now, let's get you home eh." Tommy smiled, pulling away and placing her in Polly's arms.

"Stay with me?" Y/n pleaded, looking at her brother with watery eyes "I will never leave you." Tommy nodded in agreement.

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Info: Y/n ends up deep into the woods, not knowing riven and sky had followed her. A frozen one attacks her but doesn't succeed as she is saved by the boys. They come towards her but she doesn't let them near her, afraid she will hurt them before running to the greenhouse, begging for help.

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Y/n gasps for breathes as she runs through the forest. Looking up, she screams in frustrating as ice sparks from her hands onto the ground while she falls onto her knees. Leaning her arm on a trunk of a tree she puts her head against it as she starts crying once again.

She freezes as she hears a noise behind before turning and screaming. She pushes back with her arms as a frozen one comes for her. Crying in fear, she covers her face only to hear a screech. Opening her eyes she sees a branch pierced through it's chest.

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Riven and Sky chase after y/n as she heads towards the woods. Hiding behind a tree they see her lose control.

"Mate she needs help." Riven stated, concerned for his friend as they watched her break down crying. "I know, and we haven't been there for her." Sky stated, his heart breaking seeing his best girl mate so broken. "Yeah well, we're here for her now, even if she's stubborn about it." Riven said with determination, going towards her only for Sky to grab his shoulder. "Wait." "Sky, she needs us." Riven glared at Sky, shrugging his hand off his shoulder roughly. "I know but we also have to be cautious. Her feelings are all over the place meaning her powers aren't under control. We can't just go over to her or else we'll get hurt causing her to feel worse." Sky stated, looking Riven in the eye.

They both snapped there heads towards y/n when they heard her screaming. there eyes widened when they seen a frozen one leaning over a terrified y/n. Riven looks around and grabs a branch from the ground before throwing it at the creature, watching as it crumbled onto the ground. They moved closer with caution as y/n scrambled to her feet.

"I thought frozen ones weren't seen in century's." Riven stated. "We thought that about burned ones too but you know." Sky stated as they watched y/n sand up properly.

"Stay away.." She begged them, putting her hands up shakenly. "Just calm down y/n, please. We can help you." Sky stated, putting his hands up in surrender. "No you can't." Y/n said, stepping back with distraught. "Y/n we're sorry we weren't there for you when you needed us but we can help you now. You just have to let us in." Riven stated, tears unwillingly building in his eyes. "I'll just hurt you." She whimpered, leaning against a tree. "No you won't, I know you won't." Sky stated softly as he moved closer, placing a hand out, hoping she would take it. She looked at him with sadness before turning to Riven who nodded in assurance. "No." She shouted as she shook her head before running off in the direction of the greenhouse.

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Harvey, Terra and Sam were in the greenhouse working away when suddenly the door slammed against the wall. Startled, they looked up to see a hysterical y/n burst into the room.

"Y/n?" Terra asked as she and Sam stood up. Y/n didn't move but instead stood in the room shaking. "Terra, get headmistress Dowling, tell her that it's happened again, she'll know what you mean. Sam tell Headmaster Silva the same." Harvey ordered his children as he stood up as well. "Is she okay?" Terra asked, concerned for her roommate. "Now Terra." Harvey said urgently causing his children to rush off.

Y/n breath increased rapidly as she began to ventilated.

"Y/n, listen to me you need to calm down." Harvey stated as he closed the door gently. "I can't." She replied in rapid breathes. "Control your breathing or else you will lose control of your magic." He stated, coaching her with his breath.

Y/n moved her vision to professor Harvey and slowly tried to catch her breath. She sat on the bed as her breathing slowed down.

"I can't do it anymore." Y/n stated, silent tears rolling down her cheeks as she looked down at her lap. Harvey just listened as she continued to talk. "I am tired of losing control and the feeling of aloneness and fear. I can't keep living like this." She stated before turning her vision back to the professor, "Which is why I am asking you, begging you, to remove my powers." She stated as Dowling and Silva walked into the greenhouse.

Dowling and Silva froze in shock. Harvey looked at y/n with confusion before turning to his peer teachers in surprise.

"Y/n what your asking, isn't possible." Dowling stated, moving carefully towards her student. "Oh don't lie, I know it is Farah. I read it in the so called forbidden books." Y/n stated, looking at Dowling. "Y/n, what your asking for................" Silva started, placing a hand in front of him. "Please, just take them. I can't do it anymore. I'm afraid of what's to come. With the frozen ones after me I just can't do it anymore, I'm done." Y/n cried out, putting her hands on her face as sobs racked through her body.

The teachers turned their attention to the door as it opened once again. Sky and Riven came into the greenhouse with looks of worry before seeing y/n sitting on the bed beside Harvey.

"Y/n." Sky breathed in relief causing y/ns head to shot up. "No, please, no, stay away." She cried in a loud voice as they tried to come to her.

Silva quickly made his way to the boys and held them away from her. Y/n stood up from the bed and ran towards the exit for the halls. The two began to fight their trainer as he began to push them out of the greenhouse when they seen her try to run.

"Boys you need to leave." Silva stated in a stern voice, starting to struggle against the two boys as they fought back. "No, please, stop." Y/n screamed as Harvey held her in a tight embrace. "Silva she needs us." Sky fought with his second father, trying to get to his friend. "She's needed you for awhile now and you weren't there. Your making her restless so you need to leave." Silva stated in a harsh tone "Silva please." Sky begged, hearing the cries of y/n. "Sky, please, leave. It's the best thing you can do right now." Silva stated, finally pushing Riven and Sky out of the greenhouse before closing the door.

Y/n cried and screamed out as Harvey kneeled on the ground with her still in his arms. Her vision was no longer clear and she couldn't see anything around her as she heard her teachers trying to help her.

"Please." She begged tiredly, "Please."

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Y/n groaned as she heard her bedroom door open. After last nights events y/n had spent half the night tossing and turning, unable to get a certain blonde gentleman out of her head. Her mum and sister had thrown questions at her on the ride home and the excitement between them hadn’t gone unnoticed. The excitement the young girl herself felt was also apparent, but y/n refused to show it in fear that it may be thrown back at her.

“Good morning Miss, are you ready to get ready for the day?” Her handmaid smiled.

“Yes I am. Is everyone ready for our visitors today?”

“Yes the chef has prepared sweet treats and tea for this afternoon. They shall not be disappointed.”

“Good.” Y/n smiled, optimistic about today’s agenda.

Y/n opted for y/f/c dress with detail on the shoulder before heading down the stairs to the drawing room where her mother and sister were already sitting, working on their embroidery. Y/n never cared for embroidery, so instead opted to take out her drawing pad, deciding to draw the garden view as she waited for todays visitors. It wasn’t long before the door opened, and Anthony and Benedict arrived in the room.

“Your up early.” Violet stated to her sons with slight dismay.

“Are we the first ones here, how lovely.” Anthony stated, grabbing a biscuit before sitting beside Daphne.

“Perhaps you should make use of your time elsewhere.” Their mother stated.

“I believe y/n would like me to stay, right y/n.” Benedict stated, thinking their usual antics would start.

Y/n went to reply when the door opened once again, and y/ns handmaid opened the door. Violet stood up in anticipation when a figure came close behind her.

Violet watched in awe as her daughter allowed the prince to guide her to a seat away from prying ears. Daphne couldn’t help the smile that spread on her face, despite wanting to advance on the prince herself. Y/n only turned back briefly to smile at them before turning her attention to the prince as he accepted the lemonade from the handmaid and offered one to her. She nodded her head in thanks before taking a delicate sip.

“A visitor for Miss Bridgerton.” The woman spoke out and the figure stepped into the room.

“Price Fredrich, good afternoon.” Violet nodded, indicating for her children to stand up to greet him.

“Your highness.” Daphne stated as she curtsied and bowed her head.

“Good afternoon Lady Bridgerton, I have come to call on one of your daughters.”

“And which one may that be.” Anthony called from his position.

“Miss y/n.” The royal stated, looking at the second oldest daughter of the family.

“I believe you should like to go Benedict.” Y/n muttered to her brother.

“I believe I should most certainly like to stay,” Benedict replied quickly, not taking his eyes off the prince in front of them.

“Now Benedict.” Y/n stated to him before stepping towards the prince with her mother.

“Can I offer you some light refreshment?” Violet asked their visitor as Benedict left the room.

“I would love some. Perhaps some lemonade, and for miss Bridgerton?” Fredrich looked at y/n, expecting an answer.

“The same please.” Y/n spoke with a smile, before accepting the princes outstretched hand.

The two sat in silence, enjoying each other’s company under the watchful gaze of her family. A smile remained on each of their faces before the door opened once again and miss came through.

“So, what do you like to do, tell me more about you?” Fredrich smiled, leaning closer to the girl in front of him to listen.

“Well, I like to draw, I find you can capture anything with a pencil and page. I suppose that’s not a typical hobby of a woman but I find it so refreshing that I could just draw for hours, often with my dear brother Benedict.” Y/n stated, smiling fondly.

“I admire that. Would you be close with your siblings?” Frendrich asked, taking a sip of his drink.

“Yes I like to think that we are. I enjoy being with my youngest two, Hyacinth and Gregory, there so sweet. Do you have any siblings yourself?” Y/n asked, intrigued to learn more about her suitor.

“Unfortunately I am an only child, but I hope to have my own family someday, possibly many. Do you want children some day?” The blonde man asked the woman in front of him, not missing how her smile disappeared to sadness.

“I would love to have my own but the thoughts of having them terrify me after what my dear Mama went through with Hyacinth.” Y/n spoke sadly, remembering the screams of her mother and how she family nearly became orphans.

“I am sorry I asked.” Prince Frendrich stated, placing a hand on y/n’s in comfort.

“It’s ok. Maybe with the right guy I will have my dream, and my fear may be placed at ease.” Y/n stated, her mouth twitching with a smile.

“Perhaps, I may be that guy.” The prince dared to say, moving a hand under y/n’s chin to move her head up.

“Perhaps.” Y/n spoke, smiling at the thought.

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“Another visitor, for Miss Bridgerton.” This time she looked at Daphne and y/n sighed, knowing the time with the prince had come to an end.

“Perhaps we shall pomegrade tomorrow.” Prince Fredrich offered, wanting to spend more time with the Bridgerton in front of her.

“I would like that.” Y/n announced, nodding her head in agreement.

“Until tomorrow.” Prince Fredrich took y/n’s hand and brought it up, kissing it delicately.

“Until tomorrow.” y/n smiled shyly, watching as the prince moved to say his goodbyes to her mother and brother.

The following days followed with y/n and Fredrich spending many hours together. Benedict had taken it upon himself  to escort his sister to these meetings, despite his sisters disagreement, and the prince was starting to grow on him. Seeing how his sister smiled around thig guy made Benedict realize that maybe his sister meeting with this guy wasn’t a bad idea. The relationship between brother and sister were remarkable, but Benedict would be willing to leave the prince be if it made y/n happy. And it would appear that he made y/n very happy.

Y/n had found herself falling for the royal she had been spending so much time with these past few weeks. Each ball lead to a new dance, and each day lead to a new Pomerado around, getting to know each other more and more. The more time spent with the prince, the more y/n thought that maybe he could be the one. Maybe he was the one she would marry and make her feel safe and secure with herself, much like her father had been for her mother. And the prince, well, he was seeing the Bridgerton girl in a new light.

Today was no different. Y/n had arrived back from a boat ride with the prince ,and was now in a carriage towards the ball of the night, one that was being held by the her sister. Since Daphnes marriage things had been a spiral of emotions for the Bridgerton family, yet the giddiness that y/n felt for tonight was something that did not go unnoticed. Violet watched her daughter with happiness as she glowed. With Daphne now engaged to the duke, Violet hoped that maybe there would be another love story for the Bridgerton family.

The carriage came to a stop and y/n allowed her mother to get out before she herself stood up and exited the carriage. Looking at the entrance in awe, she couldn’t help but smile as she seen the familiar blonde hair standing with the Queen at the back of the hall. Smiles were exchanged as the prince caught sight of the Bridgerton clan walking into the ball, and took no time to start making her way down to them. Ignoring the mothers and daughters who swarmed him, he made his way over to y/n and nodded his head in greeting as the mother daughter duo turned to face him.

Y/n smiled at the Prince as they prepared to dance. Allowing the royal to lead her around the floor, y/n couldn’t help the slight giggle that came out of her mouth. Her giggle made the prince in turn smile as he twirled his dance partner around.

“Good evening ladies, I hope you are well.” He spoke to the two.

“Good evening your highness. We are very well.” Violet spoke for the two of them as they curtsied to him.

“Would it be too much to ask for a dance with your lovely daughter.” He asked, offering his hand out out to y/n.

“Please enjoy.” Violet confirmed, watching with pride as the prince kissed her daughters hand before leading her to the floor.

“Perhaps there may be another Bridgerton wedding in the horising.” Simon spoke beside his mother in law.

“One can only hope.” Violet stated, hoping the best would come for her daughter.

The prince stepped away from her and fiddled with his pocket before bringing out a small velvet box. Y/n watched in shock as the attention of others became apparent. Violet grabbed bEnedicts arm as she watched with hope.

“I hope you are enjoying your night.” Prince Fredrich stated as they danced around the room. Her back to his chest.

“Very much.” Y/n nodded.

“Y/n, I hope I am not overstepping when I say but, I enjoy our time together.”

“I enjoy our time together too.” Y/n smiled.

“And I hope you wouldn’t be opposed to spending more time together.” The prince asked, twirling her around once more.

“I was hoping we would.” Y/n smiled, glancing over her shoulder at him.

“Perhaps you would do me the honour of spending the rest of our time on this earth together.” The prince asked, causing y/n to look at him in shock.

“Your highness, what are you saying.” Y/n asked, turning to him as the music stopped.

Unable to hold her excitement, Violet rushed towards her daughter and pulled her into a hug.

“Y/n Bridgerton, would you do me the honour of becoming my princess, my wife.” Fredrich asked, opening the box to show a ring held delicately with a small coushin.

“I would love to.” Y/n spoke happily, allowing him to pull her in a hug.

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“You are to be married dearest.” Violet stated, and y/n smiled excitedly.

“I got it mama, I got my dream.”

“We better watch out with royalty in our house.” Benedict teased causing y/n to chock in tears.

The wedding was everything y/n could of ever dreamed off. Prince Fredrich wanted the day to be everything his bride had ever imagined, and went above and beyond to make sure her dreams became a reality. It was fit for a princess, which was what Miss y/n Bridgerton would now be called. Violet was beaming for joy as she watched her second daughter walk down the aisle with her second oldest. Benedict couldn’t help the smile on his face as he walked his sister to her new family, having cried after y/n had asked him to step in what should have been their fathers job. Daphne held her husbands arm in delight watching her twin get married. The Queen herself couldn’t help but show a slight smile, even if only for a brief second.

The night itself was magical and fit for royalty. Y/n danced with her husband under the night stars, outside in the Queens garden. United as one, y/n couldn’t wait to live her newfound life. Princess y/n of Prussia, dawning a ring that belonged to her majesty the Queen on her finger, vowed to spend entirely with her new love, the prince of Prussia.

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Fear turns to confession (1/3)

Info: A friend and colleague of Jay and Mouse returns from the army due to leave, but feelings arise when she joins intelligence.

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It was long day for intelligence. They were working on a murder rape case where three women and two children were found dead with multiple stabbing wounds, the children haven been sliced in the neck. There was prove of forced sexual intendancies but they were no closer to finding the killer, only knowing that it was likely personally due to the victims being related.

"Alright any questions?" Hank asked, looking around after going through some new information before a phone goes off. "Sorry, sorry." Mouse spoke in a rush, grabbing his phone and looking at it before answering. "Everyone good?" Hank asked, bringing everyone's attention back to him causing everyone to nod, "Alright, back to work."

Jay made his way back to behind his desk and sat down, leaning towards the paperwork that contained information about the victims and how they were killed. Hearing movement, he glanced up only to see Mouse heading towards Erin in a rush, speaking to her abruptly before heading down the stairs, likely taking two at a time. Realizing the unusual behavior of his fellow veteran, Jay frowned and moved towards his girlfriends desk, leaning against it as he spoke.

"What was that about?" Jay asked her, looking in the direction Mouse left. "What was what about?" Erin asked, faking confusion. "Come on, where's mouse going?" Jay spoke, crossing his arm and looking at her. "I dunno, probably to get coffee or something." "What was he talking to you about?" "The case, he found something he thought was useful." "That quick?" "Jay, you know him, he's quick on things like this, just go back to work." She responded with a sigh before leaving her desk and heading to Hanks office.

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Erin did know what was going on with Mouse and why he had rushed off so quick after getting the disruptive phone call. She just chose not to tell Jay because she knew previous relations may arise.

Mouse had gotten a call from Will, saying that he and Jay should go to Wills house as someone from their past work had turned up. Upon hearing it was y/n he rushed out, not bothering to wait for Jay and opting to tell his trustworthy girlfriend instead.

Y/n was someone who used to serve with Mouse and Jay up until they left the army. She had started working two years after Jay and Mouse started and was still an active soldier when Jay had left, Mouse following two years later. They still kept in occasional contact but they hadn't seen each other in person since they left the service.

A couple of days ago y/n had gotten into an accident with work, and as a result was ordered to take leave to recuperate and recover before returning should she choose to. Instead of telling Jay like Mouse had asked her to, she opted to keep the information from her boyfriend, afraid that he would leave her for his former colleague. She knew that Jay and y/n had some form of a relationship, whether it was official or not, based on the fact that sometimes Jay called her y/n instead of her actual name. The fear of Jay leaving her for someone was something that wasn't worth taking the risk in her opinion, so she was determined that Jay wouldn't find out, even if it meant lying to him.

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That evening, Jay kissed Erin goodbye from the district before heading towards Will's place for a couple of drinks and to watch the match. Seeing Jay at his door, Will smiled in greeting before letting into the apartment, grabbing two bottles of beer from his fridge before sitting on the couch beside him where the TV was on playing the match of the week.

"How was work?" Will asked, starting conversation. "It was good, tough case." Jay spoke with a shake of his head, taking a drink from his bottle. "Yeah it must of been when you didn't come by earlier with Mouse." Will replied, drinking his own drink. "Mouse came here?" Jay asked in confusion. "Yeah, earlier on I called him and he came, said he told Lindsey to tell you." "Why would he come here? Erin never told me anything." Jay asked, confused about why his girlfriend would lie to him. "You don't know?" Will asked, squinting his eyes in confusion. "Know what?" "Y/n's back, she had an accident with a landmine so they told her take some leave time. I called mouse and you but when you didn't answer Mouse said he would get Erin to tell you." Will explained, leaning back into his seat. "Erin didn't say anything. Y/n's back?" Jay asked, looking at Will with wide eyes. "Yeah, just this morning. She's on leave to recover, you really didn't know?" Will asked, realizing that his brother clearly wasn't told anything. "Nothing was said to me. Where is she staying?" Jay asked, grabbing his phone and keys from in front of him. "Ehh here, but she's looking for her own place so it's temporary. She's off in an appointment right now with the military doctor or something." "Right, tell her to call me, yeah. I need to sort something out." Jay stated, standing up and grabbing his coat. "I'm sure there's a reasonable explanation for her not saying anything." Will shouted after his brother as he heard the door open. "Yeah, I'm sure there is." Jay agreed to himself as he closed the door and left.

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"Why didn't you tell me?" Jay spoke, walking into his and Erin's shared apartment. "I thought you were going to Will's for the night?" Erin asked, by passing his question. "I was, but then he told me that he had been trying to contact me but when he didn't called Mouse to tell him that y/n was back. But you already knew that because Mouse told you to tell me." Jay explained and Erin's eyes widened slightly. "Look, Jay..." "Why didn't you tell me Erin, don't you think I would of liked to know that my friend and fellow soldier was home after an accident." Jay asked, placing his hands behind one of their kitchen tables. "Yes, I know, I should of told you but, I know the way you two were before you left the army. How close you two were. You called me her name and I was afraid that if you knew that she was back you would leave me for her." "You still should of told me." Jay spoke with a shake of his head. "I know Jay, and I'm sorry, I just don't want to lose you." Erin spoke in a small voice, knowing what she did was wrong. "Linds, your not going to lose me okay, you and I are strong and are relationship works on trust and truth. I need you to tell me these things no matter what you fear and trust that I will not try anything behind your back." Jay spoke, lowering his voice and moving closer to his girlfriend, placing a hand around her waist. "I'm sorry I lied." Erin smiled and Jay smiled back, leaning down to pull her into a kiss.

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The following day intelligence gathered to talk about the case. Jay and Mouse were leaning against a desk with their arms crossed, half listening and half not. Both men were thinking of their old friend, and only one of them were expecting to hear their phone go off. Jay glanced at Mouse as he heard the soft ping and Mouse smiled as Hank finished before heading down the stairs. Frowning in confusion, Jay watched Mouse head down as Erin came towards him.

"Hey, you ok? You seem distracted." Erin asked, putting a hand on Jays arm. "Yeah fine, just confused is all." "About what?" Erin asked, scrunching her eyebrows. "Y/n?" Jay asked, looking away from Erin causing her to frown and turn to where he was looking.

Mouse walked up the stairs with a young lady beside him. The ladies arm was in a cast and she seemed to have a limp. Her h/c hair was down, covering half her face and she refused to make eye contact with anyone, but yet Jay seemed to know who she was. Erin glanced at Jay as he moved towards the two while the rest of the group watched on, wondering who the lady was.

"Y/n?" Jay asked again, louder this time, causing the lady to look up. "Hey Jay." She smiled, happy to see her old army friend. "What are you doing here? I thought you were spending the day recuperating. I was going to come see you after shift." "Decided to get out of the house. You know I always hated sitting around."

"Care to introduce us." Hank asked, his rough voice breaking the reunion. "Guys this is y/n, she was in the army with myself and Mouse here." Jay spoke, placing a hand on Mouses shoulder as he smiled shyly. "Y/n this is intelligence, where I work now." "Nice to meet you all." Y/n smiled, though Jay couldn't help but notice the slight flinch she gave. "Voight, Hank Voight. Head of intelligence." Voight stated, offering a hand shake. "Nice to meet you." Y/n smiled, accepting the hand shake.

Y/n started greeting the rest of Jays colleagues, and all but one seemed to happily greet her. Erin appeared to give y/n a hard shoulder, and y/n knew that it was over her and Jays past. Mouse had told her that Erin refused to tell Jay that she had returned, and y/n couldn't help but feel slightly bitter towards the woman her friend was dating. She knew Jay had called Erin her name a few times, but y/n couldn't help but be embarrassed about it even if she wasn't to blame. But none the less she smiled at Erin, and Erin smiled in compliance before wrapping her arm around Jays, causing him to look down in confusion as they never really showed affection in work, before watching y/n as she smiled at Adam as they spoke.

Scared and alone (11/12)

Y/n woke up to the clock shining 12am and turned her head to see Sky still lying beside her. She smiled softly and moved to sit up, careful not to wake her. She stood up and went to move to the doors only for a voice to scare her.

"You always were one to sneak out after spending the night in here, always gave us a heart attack in the mornings when we seen you gone." Riven stated as y/n turned her attention to the specialist who leaned against his bed rest. "Well I never wanted to get caught, didn't need to cause trouble as a first year." Y/n stated and Riven chuckled lightly, shaking his head. "I'm pretty sure Silva knew we did it considering the fact he seen you and Sky last night and didn't say anything." Riven stated and y/n sighed, looking down. "What do you want Riven, to start at me again." "No, I want to apologize, I was angry and hurt and I took it out on you and I shouldn't have. I should of never said any of those things to you or used the things you told me against you and so I apologize." Riven stated as he stood up and moved towards his fairy friend who raised an eye brow at him. "So the famous bad boy Riven is apologizing." Y/n smiled sarcastically and Riven rolled his eyes. "Some people are worth softening up for." "Okay now your getting all soft." Y/n stated and Riven smiled at her as he moved back to his bed. "Don't get too used to it." He stated as he moved to lie down on the bed once again. "Goodnight Riven." Y/n smiled. "Night y/n." Riven saluted her as she left, closing the door behind her.

Carefully y/n moved towards the fairies suite area, before opening the door slowly before seeing the lights still turned on. She looked around in confusion to see Aisha plaiting her hair, Bloom at her desk, Musa on her phone and Terra moving plants around. The ice fairy also noticed the absence of a certain light princess.

"Is Stella moved?" Y/n asked Musa in confusion as she stood with the mind fairy as they watched Terra sorting the plants. "Heard rumors of her mother pulling her out due to the burned and frozen ones, came back to her room empty, nothing there. And I think someone is missing her." Musa stated and Terra turned to face the two abruptly. "What, no I'm not." Terra stated and Y/n and Musa looked at each other knowingly. "I'm going to pretend to believe you." Y/n smiled before moving away towards the living area, sitting on the couch until a smash was heard.

Y/n turned her attention to the room the other girls headed too and chuckled slightly when she seen it was a plant that had fallen over. She smiled at Aisha as she left into the room she shared with Bloom before turning on her phone to see a text from Sky, asking her where she left to. Her attention abruptly turned to Bloom and Aisha's room as bloom rushed out of the dorm, causing y/n to look at Aisha with a frown.

"What the hell was that all about?" Y/n asked the water fairy as Musa and Terra came back into the room. "We need to talk about Bloom, she's been single minded about her birth parents and Rosalind for weeks, and now it seems like she doesn't care at all. Are we actually meant to believe that she is just over it?" Aisha asked her three room mates and y/n looked around at the three first years. "Perhaps she's trying to deal with the things she's been told?" Y/n suggested causing Aisha to shake her head in disagreement. "I know she's keeping something from us I just don't know what it is. Why is she texting Dane?" "She was texting Dane? Riven says he's still Team Beatrix." Terra stated causing y/n to look at her in confusion. "Somethings going on, I just don't know what." Aisha stated and Musa and Terra nodded in agreement. "I just wanted a normal year." Y/n groaned before leaving the three first years alone and heading to her room, getting ready for bed.

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Y/n sighed as she walked towards the training area, rubbing the sleep from her eyes. Her attention came to Riven and Musa and she smiled at their interaction before heading towards where the ice fairies were training. She moved closer towards the benching area when someone grabbed her arm gently.

"Whoa Sky, what?" Y/n asked, catching her breath as the shock went down. "Sorry, where did you go last night? I woke up around 2 and you weren't there." He asked and y/n smiled with a slight chuckle. "You know I always left in the middle of the night last year and yet you always wondered where I got to." Y/n mocked him and Sky nodded, rolling his eyes. "Yeah well forgive me for caring about my friend." Sky stated and y/n laughed gently. "I headed back to my suite, did you know Stella left Alfea with her mom" "Yeah, she never told me but I assumed with what was going on, you know her mom, goes wherever she pleases and does whatever she likes." "True, I'm sorry she didn't tell you." Y/n spoke sympathetically, taking Sky's hand in hers. "Hey that's the way our relationship was messy and on and off and...." "Toxic." Y/n finished causing Sky to laugh slightly. "Yeah, possibly." "Hey I don't have anything on apparently and neither do you, why don't we head to somewhere quite." Y/n suggested, looking at Sky as he nodded his head. "Sure, why not." Sky smiled and the two headed off away from the training area.

Y/n smiled softly and wrapped her arm around Sky's as they walked through the woody area in silence. Sky looked down and smiled at his fairy friend before turning his head at the sound of rustling in the distance. Y/n looked up in confusion as Sky stopped before hearing it too. Scrunching her eyes, y/n moved towards the noise with Sky following close behind. Her eyes widened when she seen Bloom at the magic circle, performing some form of magic.

"This where the overachievers hang out?" Sky stated sarcastically, moving out of the bushes to stand in front of Bloom as she turned towards them. "Yeah it get's uh, loud in the suite." Bloom stated, eyeing y/n as she came into view. "What's that?" Sky asked Bloom, nodding at the metal object that Bloom had covered quickly with a book. "That is a book. Bit concerned you've never seen one." Bloom stated sarcastically causing y/n to lift her eye brows in shock. "I don't want to do this Bloom." Sky sighed, shifting his feet slowly." "Hmm?" Bloom hummed in question. "I don't wanna lie to each other and I don't wanna play a game." Sky stated as y/n moved closer to Bloom. "There's no game." Bloom stated as she moved to block y/ns path. "Silva wanted me to watch you, I told him that he was crazy, that there was nothing going on. And that you were frustrated and you wanted answers and you were gonna find..." "You've been spying on me? And you just blindly did what he said." Bloom asked, moving closer to Sky in a threatening way. "He gave me an order." Sky stated. "Which he could of given to anyone but he used you, used our friendship, are you..." Bloom sighs in frustration, "But I'm the bad guy right." She stated in dibelief.

Y/n looked down as Sky looked at Bloom with sorrow in his eyes only for said fire fairy to scoff and move away from him and towards her bag. Y/n groaned as Sky followed after her and grabbed the book she held in her hand, opening it to reveal the metal object Bloom had covered a few moments ago. Y/n moved closer to Sky to see as Bloom tried to avoid eye contact with either of them when Sky threw the book down, looking at the object.

"What is this Bloom?" Y/n asked as Sky looked up at the red haired fairy, waiting for an answer. "I'm trying to be on your side here but your making it really difficult." Sky stated as Bloom looked up at him, "Bloom, you can trust me" "I'm not sure I can trust you, But maybe I can convince you that what I'm doing is right." Bloom stated, looking down with determination. "Help us understand." Y/n stated, and Sky glanced at her before turning his attention back to Bloom. "Have you ever heard of Aster Del?" Bloom asked Sky.

Y/n moved towards the book and began to read over it as Bloom began to explain the Sky all about Alfea. The latter stood in silence, placing the piece of metal down onto the stone as he listened to the fire fairy explain everything. Y/n glanced at him as he began to speak.

"I've lived in Alfea all my life, Silva raised me." Sky stated in disbelief. "I saw Aster Del with my own eyes." Bloom stated, leaning against the stone. "He'd never help massacre an entire village." "Even if he thought he was killing the burned ones? If he thought he'd save more lives in the future?" Bloom stated and Sky sighed, moving to stand beside Bloom as she turned to face away from the stone circle, y/n watching on.

"I don't think that Dowling and Silva are evil Sky. I think that they are protecting this place but they are also protecting themselves. So, whatever happened that day whatever the truth is there not going to tell me." Bloom stated, looking up at Sky as he looked down at her. "I know what it's like, not to know your parents." Sky stated and y/n smiled sadly, moving towards Sky and taking his hand in support, knowing the sensitivity of the subject. "At least those who raised you know your parents. You had stories, you saw pictures." Bloom stated.

Y/n looked down, removing her hand from Sky's and wrapped her arms around herself, remembering her parents fondly. She felt Sky bring a hand to her back before looking up when she heard fire light up.

"Right, cause you never need anyone's help." Sky stated as Bloom grabbed a water bottle from her bag. "Part of my charm." Bloom stated with a smile, handing the water bottle to Sky. "Frustration charm." Sky stated, taking the water bottle and moving to open it. "Cause your a fixer and I don't need to be fixed." Bloom stated as Sky took a drink from it. "I am a fixer, what'd you expect?" Sky asked as he offered the bottle to y/n before moving away when she took it. "I'm the son of a war hero raised in Alfea. I've heard more stories about the great Andreas than I can count. It's almost like he's still alive. But he's not, he's an ideal. Do you have any idea what it's like to live up to him?" Sky looked back as Bloom walked towards him "Hey, Sky "Bloom comforted him as y/n threw the bottle she held onto the stone circle to go towards Sky. "I'm a fixer cause I have to be, 'cause I'm supposed to be. Because, when I fix other people I don't have to think about how fucking broken I am." Sky stated and tears caught y/ns eyes as she went to comfort her friend when she felt dizzy. "Sky.." Bloom stated, bringing a hand up Sky's arm in comfort. "We're all broken Bloom, there's a charm in that too." Sky stated, moving closer to Bloom.

"Sky." Y/n called out, starting to lose her vision. "Y/n." Sky stated, moving away from Bloom and towards y/n as she landed on the ground. "Y/n" Sky told out, trying to reach his friend only to lose his balance dramatically. "Woah, what's happening?" "I'm sorry, it's just a sedative, Dane said it would just last for a little bit. I'm so sorry." Bloom apologized before Sky crashed to the ground beside y/n with a thump."

“Hate when secrets are revealed” Avengers cast x teen reader

Detail: Y/n has been part of the cast since the first Iron man. She is now 16 and everyone sees her as family. During filming of infinity war she starts to act a little different. What the cast don't know is that she is hiding a big secret.

Who: Robert Downey Jr, Mark Ruffalo, Sebastian Stan, Anthony Mackie

"I don't know why I bother trying to talk to you dad. You never listen to me!" y/c/n (Your character name) screamed at her father figure since she was young.

"Oh I never listen to you. News flash darling, not everything is about you. I should of left you there the day  I found you." Tony yelled back. Y/C/n looked at him in tears as Tony instantly regretted it. "Y/C/N............" "Don't Tony, don't you dare." She said through gritted teeth as she stormed off. "Well that went well." Thor stated after a minute silence, causing everyone to look at him.

"And cut, well done guys."Joe called. "Alright, lets call it a day. Back tomorrow at 7 sharp." Anthony followed on as the cast moved off set.

Y/n slowly moved towards her trailer and started to change into her own clothes. She was trying to avoid the cast as much as possible. She didn't want them to find out that she was hiding something big from them as she was sure they'd freak. However, on her way out she immediately bumped into Mark.

"Woah." "Sorry Mark. Didn't mean to." Y/n replied to the older man as she went to leave. "I was heading to tell you that I'll bring you home." Mark offered with a smile. "No thanks, I'm good." Y/n replied with slight panic. "Come on y/n, it's too dark for someone your age to walk home alone. I'll drive ya." "No seriously, I'll be fine. I've done it before." "Which none of us agree with. Seriously, I'd much prefer to see you home safely." "Mark I'm sixteen years old. I've been walking since I could talk. I think I'll be fine to walk on my own." Y/n stated causing him to roll his eyes. "Y/n go with him. You'd safe us all the worry." Robert called as he came out of his village of trailers. "Guys, I'll be fine. Thanks for the concern though." She fake smiled and headed off.

"Is it just me or is y/n distant lately?" Robert asked Mark as they watched y/n walk off. "No, I've realized that too." Mark nodded. "Watcha watching?" Sebastian asked as he and Anthony walked towards the two. "Y/n. She's being distant." Robert explained. "I know right." Anthony sighed. "Why don't we follow her. But not so it's noticeable." Sebastian suggested. "Good idea." Robert nodded and they headed in her direction.

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Y/n turned on the television as she sat down in front of it with a cup of hot chocolate. Currently, she was living in an apartment. After everything that happened with her family y/n decided it would be best to start living on her own.

Y/n was interrupted from her thoughts when there was a knock on the door. Confused, she placed her cup on the table and made her way to the door.She looked on in shock when she seen four of her cast mates standing in front of her.

"What.............." "We followed you." Robert interrupted her as the four pushed their way in. "That's not creepy at all." "How long you been living here?" "A while." "I thought you living in a house." Mark stated. "Dad decided it would be best for us all to move somewhere close to my work." "Where's your parents?" "Out. Now if you don't mind, I have school to do." Y/n stated as she grabbed her laptop.

"y/n." Sebastian sighed as she ignored them. "Y/n." He said again as he took her laptop. "Hey!!" Y/n exclaimed. "We know you don't live with your parents. Robert called them." Anthony said causing Y/n to slouch in her seat. "How'd you get their number?" "Working with you since you were young has it's strengths." Robert explained.

"So now can we have the truth?" Mark pleaded as they sat beside her, him and Sebastian either side and Anthony and RDJ on the table in front. Y/n sighed and leaned forward, head in her hands. "My parents are struggling. Dad lost his job and mum, mum lost it. Money is scarce. With three kids it is a struggle so I decided to leave, give them some sort of relief even if it isn't much." "How long?" Sebastian asked. "Six months." Y/n sighed. "Six months!!? Y/n, why didn't you say anything?" Robert asked in shock. "Because I knew you guys would want to help. That's not what we want. I give them half of my earnings so they are slowly getting on their feet. Dad thinks he found a new job. I would be moving back in soon so what was the point?" "The point is we could of helped. I know what it's like for your family to be, well, poor. It sucks and a struggle beyond belief. We could of helped you grasp it better. Stay with one of us." Mark stated, wrapping a arm around y/ns shoulders. "That's what I didn't want. You guys and everyone else would hassle against noting. I'm fine living here. I get around." "How did your parents agree to this?" Rob asked,not believing that y/ns parents allowed their child to leave and live on their own at 16. "I didn't give them much of a choice." I stated causing them to chuckle. "Just like your character. Anyway, listen, we all would like if you would at least spend once a week at one of our houses. That way, we know that you are safe for at least one day." Rob smirked. Y/n sighed. "Your not going to take no for an answer." "Not a chance." The four laughed. "Alright fine, but only once a week. I don't want you to stop everything for me." "And we'll keep it between the four of us." Sebastian stated. "You going to be able to do that Mark?" Y/n joked causing the other three to laugh. "I'm not that bad." Mark said, fake offended. "Oh but you are." Rob said as they calmed down.

"I love you guys." Y/n smiled. "We love you too y/n." The lads said as they pulled into a group hug.

And here, Y/n felt safe. She knew that these four, they would do anything for her. And she was grateful for that. And when she returned home to her family when everything was sorted, she made sure that the rest of the cast knew that Iron man, Hulk, Winter shoulder and the Falcon, were real life heros as well as in the movies, much to the dismay of the four actors.