I Need You All To Understand How Insane It Is That Mizu Literally Almost Dying And Being Overpowered

I need you all to understand how insane it is that Mizu literally almost dying and being overpowered by hundreds of men is placed adjacent to when she let herself be intimate with the man who would eventually betray her. The way those scenes were cut was intentional in the way that yeah, Mizu was just reminiscing of her old life in how she became the ‘monster’ she thinks she is, but it’s also how it implies that IT FELT THE SAME TO HER. Being vulnerable has ALWAYS led to life or death ultimatums, so much so that now she associates them all together. Revenge or love, what’s the difference? Are they not the same? She doesn’t have the luxury of allowing herself that intimacy, because the love has always been tainted by betrayal and that betrayal has always led to bloodshed; her or them.