Me Realising I Wrote 213,000 Words And 45 Chapters In My Twd WIP Just To Get To The Idea That Started

Shauna Shipman - The true evil.

SEASON 3 SPOILERS

Before you keep reading, please do not try and rebuttal this post with, "You just don't understand a complex character."

I can understand the complexity of a character, and still dislike them.

During season 3, I became a Shauna Shipman hater and began wishing on her down fall, and it was genuinely infuriating to me watching her fall from my top 3 down to the very bottom. I went into season 3 loving teen Shauna AND adult Shauna (Melanie Lynskey stan btw).

I understood Shauna's anger and resentment towards the group in the beginning of the season. Shauna has arguably been through the most trauma out in the wilderness, with her going through a teen pregnancy, only for it to result in a stillborn (especially after having such vivid dreams of the baby being alive and her nursing him) and losing her bestfriend who she both loved and resented and having to eat her, with their last words shared with one another being an argument.

So when I found out that the others were literally praying to the spirit of her deceased baby (and Jackie), I was gob smacked. I stayed on the Shauna Ship because if that was me, I would've been pissed too. And Akilah trying to give Shauna a "special crown" because she's the mother was so disrespectful. I love Akilah, but I have to side with Shauna on this one. It was messed up, and I do not blame Shauna for moving the burial site without telling anyone.

But then the beef with Mari happened. I do get it, Mari was being a huge bitch, which wasn't really a huge surprise if you've watched the past two seasons. But literally spitting in Mari's food and then lying about it was crazy disrespectful, especially because food is a rarity for them. And then showing literally no care when Mari went missing. Someone pointed out that they think that Mari and Shauna beef originated in season 1 because Jackie used Mari to make Shauna jealous when they first went to the lake, and I believe it.

At this point in the season, I'm like, "Okay, Shauna's really derailing, but I can understand where her anger is coming from."

But then we have the trial of Coach Benjamin Scott. The way that Shauna resorted to intimidation to get the majority to vote to execute Ben was so frustrating. Everyone was conflicted and the vote was 50/50, UNTIL Shauna scared them. Which to be fair, if I was there, I probably would've voted to kill Ben, not because I believe that he was guilty, but because Shauna is literally terrifying. Especially the Achilles heel scene. Vile. Disgusting and disturbing.

Then Shauna gets crowned as leader, and my first thought was, "That is literally the worst choice you could've ever made, Lottie." Shauna is clearly not all their mentally right now and they've all been a first hand witness to her anger. Shauna is a terrible leader because she doesn't give a shit about the others, she hates all of them, which means she doesn't care about their safety and wellbeing, which is what a leader is supposed to do.

Don't even get me fucking started on Melissa being a devil on her shoulder at the start; "You feel that? That's power." Melissa pissed me off in the beginning, because she was literally throwing a whole forest onto the fire brewing inside of Shauna.

At this point in the show, I'm thinking, "Shauna is the worst, and it sucks that no one is saying anything about it."

But at that point, Shauna hasn't really done anything TOO crazy for anyone to be like, "This bitch is fucking crazy, she has to go."

Then the frog researchers show up. The way Shauna laughed and smiled her ass off when she witnessed the guy getting axed by Lottie, was genuinely pissing me off and disturbing. Also, I do not believe Shauna cared about Melissa's wellbeing when she got shot. The way she was so nonchalant about it did not seem genuine. Keeping Hannah's hair as a little fidget toy was a little weird, but not the weirdest thing they've done, so that gets a little pass.

Shauna choosing to stay infuriated me, but I could understand WHY she didn't want to leave. She's become accustomed to the wilderness. Her whole life revolved around Jackie, so what is her life going to look like without Jackie if she goes back to the real world? I believe her reason to stay was both fear and control. Shauna has all the power now. She's the leader. And she uses that to force the others to stay. And Natalie just letting her take the gun was so frustrating.

But the whole showdown between Shauna and Melissa was actually so fucked. I felt so bad for Melissa, because Shauna verbally berated her in front of everyone, shot at her and then smiled when Melissa wet herself.

At this point, Shauna has become irredeemable. She is thriving on violence and chaos, no matter where it is coming from and who it's directed at. You cannot convince me or tell me anything that could ever excuse that type of behavior, especially towards someone who Shauna is supposed to be in a relationship with (I used the word relationship loosely, btw). It's abuse.

At this point, I'm waiting for someone to humble her ass. Slap her back to reality or something.

And then, the finale happens. Mari gets the Queen, and Shauna shows no remorse or sadness. Mocking her by saying, "Tough break, Mar." and then laughing when Lottie starts counting. And if you notice, Shauna is literally the only person hunting Mari (which I made a whole separate post about). Watching the realisation on Shauna's face that 'Natalie' was actually Hannah, was so satisfying. It's almost as if the iron grip of control Shauna currently holds on the group begins to weaken before her eyes, especially when she turns and sees the others staring at her, fully aware of what has happened.

I loved Shauna Shipman in season 1 and 2, but she become a dictator in season 3. I could see where her anger and resentment towards the group originated from and even supported some of the actions she made BECAUSE of that resentment, but there are a lot of her actions that I cannot see reason to, other than doing malicious things without any real motive behind her actions, besides to enjoy watching people suffer.

(I am also aware of the racial discussion of cutting Mari's hair after her death. Not just that, but also how the show treats their POC characters in general. I've seen a lot of debates about this (Mari) and I do believe that there were some racist implications with choosing to use the hair of an indigenous person. I do think there is a difference between intent and how something is perceived. Just because the writers didn't intend for the scene to be offensive or racist, doesn't mean that it doesn't come off that way to their audience.)

Luke Aesthetic Board

Thank you for the suggestion @loveharz  :) It’s 4 am right now so I won’t be making any more until I wake up.

Idk :)

Ben Paul Aesthetic Board

I’ve seen a couple posts of twdg aesthetic boards for characters and decided to make one myself.

Idk :)

Everything Wrong With Umbrella Academy Season 4 (Characters)

The way it felt like someone who had never seen the show wrote this season????

The characters were AWFUL and were almost entirely new characters with all their previous character development forgotten.

Allison - Honestly, I don't like Allison (after watching THAT scene w Luther), so I really didn't care what happened with her this season. I think it does suck that she wasn't able to be happy with Ray, they were nice together. Also, no rumours? Her power was one of the most interesting out of the family.

Luther - People were commenting about how childish and positive he was being this season and how it was out of character from him being so serious. Honestly? I love silly Luther, he's such a breath of fresh air. I also like to believe that because Luther was assigned the leader of the family (being number 1 and all), he's able to enjoy himself without that pressure. Also, I also love to believe that Luther is using being positive and silly as a coping mechanism as to not be overwhelmed by the sadness of losing Sloane and also his current living situation. Giving him his gorilla body back was so unnecessary and makes no sense cause it wasn't the marigold that gave him the body.

Ben - He sucked. I hate that Sparrow Ben was the one that was dragged with them because it meant that we had to deal with him sulking and being angsty the whole time. Also, the character development we witnessed 1-2 just disappeared instantly cause of Sparrow Ben. Also, his friendship with Klaus was the best thing in the show and I hate that we never get to see that in season 3.

Klaus - I was actually so happy for him being sober, even if he wasn't living the best life because of his paranoia with death and germs. So it really sucked when that immediately went down the drain the second his body got the marigold.

Diego - He deserved better. Yeah, his constant complaining about his "belly" (which wasn't even that big of a difference??) and wanting to go back to his old super spy life did affect his and Lila's marriage, but when he realised that he immediately accepted that he was at fault and was willing to improve their marriage to make Lila happy.

Lila - I liked Lila before season 4. I don't know what they were thinking honestly by changing her entire character. Yes, she and Five were stuck for 7 years together, but seriously? That plot added NOTHING to the story because in the end, Lila chose Diego and then they all DIED like 10 minutes later!!

Viktor - Honestly? Viktor didn't really stand out this season for me. Sure, he got kidnapped by Ian Hawk. I thought the idea of him trying to remove the marigold from Ben was a really cool idea but then it just didn't happen. I thought his interactions with Reginald were decent, since it's interesting to see how this Reginald thinks about Viktor compared to the original timeline Reginald.

Five - It's honestly kind of impressive how the writers were able to make the best character in the show the worst character by the end of it. They completely changed his whole character. First, his personality is duller than a door nail. He's so emotionless and so boring. Where's the excessive facial expressions and movements? Second, changing his motivations. For the past 3 seasons we have watched him with one goal in his mind; "Save the world and his siblings". So why would Five ever possibly consider both giving that up for Lila of all people. Third, giving Five a love interest was so useless and lazy. Why would he choose a girl over his siblings? Especially one literally MARRIED to his BROTHER. Fourth, him being all pouty and jealous over Lila choosing Diego (her husband and father of her kids - no shit she was gonna pick him over Five, literally have no idea why Five even thought he had a chance) to the point where he plans to just ditch his family in the middle of a big fight. Five, him fighting Diego in the middle of said big fight. THEN, Five just gives up??? Yeah, that's probably all he could do but seriously, this is Five we're talking about, the guy who survived in 45 years in the apocalypse to try and get back to his family and save the world. Do you really believe that he would just give up?

BONUS:

Jennifer - They could introduce a new character/love interest for Ben but they didn't do the same for Five so they just gave him the only other woman who wasn't his sister???? LAZY. Also, the amount of plot holes with Jennifer's character makes me queasy.

Season 3 - Eleanor rant.

TW - Lots of Swearing.

Now season 3 is not my favourite season of the TWDG, that title will always be taken by season one but it does have it’s good moments. The story line was pretty good, most characters had likeable personalities and charm - one of the reasons I love the franchise so much and the antogonists really made me feel hatred towards them. Alas, within a pen of sheep, there’s always that one fox dressed in wool you never expect.

Eleanor starts of as a decent character, being introduced as the ‘doctor’ for Prescott, showing sympathy for Javier when he mentions his family at the junkyard and even offers to sneak Javi and Clem out to save Kate and the kids. The player is given a choice to go with Tripp or Eleanor. In my gameplay, I chose Tripp, because I trusted Clem’s instincts.

Time skip, Prescott is overrun by the New Frontier, forcing survivors out onto the road where their last resort is to ask the New Frontier to help Kate who’s dying from her wound. Reunite with David, blah blah blah. Also, I know Eleanor left Kate in the car, dumb idea, but honestly, Eleanor and Kate have similar body types and probably weigh about the same, so Eleanor trying to carry an INJURED Kate all the way to the gate? Impossible. (Had to rethink here for a second if Eleanor carried Kate at some point but no, Gabe carries her if Javi stays to fight and Javi carries her if he goes).

Aaaanyway, Eleanor is given a free pass by Doctor Lingard, basically giving her citizenship because of her stitching on Kate’s wound and I get it, props to Eleanor for her medical skills. *clap clap*. This far, Eleanor hasn’t really given me any reason to dislike her for anything that she’s done. She believed she was doing what was best for Kate by leaving her in the car to get help, but that ‘help’ turned out to be bs cause they just lied to her and locked her up. During this time, she’ll obviously become close with some of the other leaders, mainly Joan.

BIG time skip up to when Gabe helps Javi escape and the group reunite in David’s house, I believe. Javi walks in on Eleanor and Tripp’s relationship housefire and then can explain how Joan is a terrible person who is planning on ‘removing’ David from his role as one of the leaders by blaming the murders of members on him. After retrieving weapons from the armory and returning, the tension is pretty thick between everyone.

Group discuss what to do, go after Joan in the centre. Eleanor agrees and asks how. I always was suspicious of Eleanor’s hesitant tone but I was like, “Pffft, that’d be stupid, Eleanor’s a good guy”.

*X factor buzzer*

WRONG! It’s all revealed that Eleanor told Joan the groups entire plan. This bitch ruined the entire plan because she wanted to play teachers pet to her new mummy. And karma, being the sob it is, drags Tripp and Ava onto the stage where they’ll be the toys of a claw machine, but SURPRISE, there all rigged! And Eleanor is forced to watch as Joan orders her men to off a woman she barely knew, or her bestfriend and past lover. And when the final show down happens, she forces the blame, onto us! Everything happened because of her. And when you tell her this, she stomps her foot and says she didn’t want to leave in the first place.

Okay. But did you ever consider the rest of the group? The group that doesn’t feel safe between these walls when Joan is the one ruling it with an iron fist? No, because Eleanor is selfish and wanted to climb the electric fence and land on a cactus on Joan’s side. The woman who instructed her men to attack Prescott, her home, take her friend as a hostage, invade the place with walkers, tear gas and begin to brutally murder the people who did nothing to provoke Joan OR her people. Did Eleanor know all of this? Probably not. Despite that, she chose the side of a woman she barely knew, over her bestfriend.

And when Javi asks her why she told Joan the plan? She has the nerve, the absolute nerve to say, “I wAS jUst TRyInG to deFUsE A baD SItuATioN”.

Bitch. YOU CREATED THE BAD SITUATION! And then, she can say, “Tripp was my best friend, Javi!”

And who put Tripp in that situation? Huh? Was it Gabe? Was it Joan? No, it was Eleanor.

And, and, AND, the stupidest thing about this entire scene; is that I can’t even chew her out for it! And the game wants me to automatically forgive her because she’s trying to help people after pulling a stunt like that? Fuck. That.

Eleanor is my least favourite character throughout the entire walking dead game franchise and I won’t see it any other way. 12 thumbs down, 0/5 star rating, undercooked, it’s a no from me, au revoir!

You know how people will skip an episode of a show they've watched because they can't stand watching it? Like the 'Scotts Tots' episode from The Office. And I know why people don't watch the episode, because it's just so uncomfortable and cringe to watch, which I also feel the same way, as I too skip that episode when I watch.

But I have a few episodes of Friends that I will just skip because there's at least one episode where I physically can't STAND one of the Friends because of what they're doing in the episode.

Monica - TOW Phoebe's Wedding. I really hate skipping this episode because I love Phoebe and Mike's wedding, but I cannot stand Monica in that episode. She was controlling and cared more about planning an elegant wedding than Phoebe and Mike's happiness. Like removing the vegetarian meal and replacing it with meat; the bride is literally vegetarian??? And then Phoebe rightfully fires Monica because she's so controlling, but Phoebe is the one that has to apologise? That's so bullshit.

Joey - I don't remember the episode, but the one with Rachel's romance book. I actually hate Joey in that episode because he just will not let it go that Rachel reads those types of books. And I get it, it must be strange for a guy to understand that it's not just guys who enjoy reading THAT, but seriously, LET IT GO!

Rachel - TOW Joey Speaks French. Rachel getting mad at Ross for NOT sleeping with her when she was completely vulnerable is crazy.

Ross - There's a lot of episodes where Ross is unbearable, but tolerable for the most part to the point where I don't want to skip an entire episode just because of him. But I do really hate watching the episodes where he dated that college girl (it was completely inappropriate) and TOW The Nanny. How insecure can you be to fire a guy who just so happens to work in a field that is primarily of women.

Phoebe - TOW The Cat. I love Phoebe, but there are some scenes where I can't stand how hypocritical she is. She's meant to be laid back but is so controlling when it comes to her beliefs. I hated the cat episode because if I was a little kid and my cat was stolen because some woman thought it was her deceased mother, I'd be pissed. And it's so wrong for Phoebe to degrade Ross when all he was doing was trying to tell her the truth, as hard as it was to hear.

Chandler - I actually can't really think of an episode of Chandler being unbearable to the point of skipping an episode. There are some moments that I don't like, but not to the point of skipping.

3 Fandoms I'm currently writing 3 fics for simultaneously.

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3 Fandoms I want to start writing 3 fics for simutaneously.

but I'm afraid if I start writing 6 fanfictions at once I'll burn out so fast that I stop writing all of them.

because I'm physically incapable of writing oneshots, so all my fanfictions are multichapter.

I am today years old when I found out that Courteney Cox and David Arquette were married. I only found out because the Friends opening said “Courteney Cox Arquette” and I was like “?????”

When the hyperfixation gets so bad you start building locations in roblox bloxburg

What if Ben survived?

I just watched a video of what they think would’ve happened if Lee didn’t get bit and I decided to write.

First of all, there would have been no way to save Ben when he falls from the balcony. When Lee and Kenny go down to help Ben, they find him on the ground with his one of the balcony poles impaled just under his ribs and one of his legs bent in an odd position. It’s possible that Ben broke his leg(s) from the fall which would easily leave him incapable of surviving. None of the people in the group with them at the moment are skilled enough to patch Ben up and even if they were to get him off the pole, the pain would cause him to scream and draw walkers (occurred in game). An injury like that would’ve caused him to die quickly from blood loss. 

Read for more detail and stuff idk 

Ben’s two alternate deaths would become an issue putting him into season 2 as some players would have saved Ben or killed him off. With Ben’s first death at the Crawford bell tower, he’s grabbed by Oberson who was hanging from the bell. Distracted by the loud noise, Ben is grabbed by Oberson and Lee shoots the walker, causing the walker to collapse to the bottom of the tower and Ben holding onto the edge. If Ben were to make it to season 2, the choice of saving Ben or not would have to never exist. Ben’s second death seems unavoidable. The group would have to take an alternate route or possibly make the balcony collapse just as the last person (before Ben) on the balcony jumps to the opposite building. Kenny will suggest to leave Ben while Omid and Christa object. Lee will have to find something to help Ben get across safely. Possibly a plank of wood.

(Here I thought of the idea of Ben jumping from another balcony before remembering they are at the houses. Ben could possibly jump for another balcony (not sure how far the balcony's are from each other) or use a something else. I also thought of the idea of Ben just risking the jump and grabbing onto Lee’s hand, but remembered the group got onto the balcony from the window. The window isn’t very big and Ben is a f*cking giant so the chance of him jumping far enough to grab Lee’s hand is super low)

Anyway, when Ben makes it onto the other side, Christa will fall through a hole in the floor and Kenny will jump down, save her and be assumed dead. Omid and Christa will cross over the billboard and it’ll collapse after Christa crosses. Lee says he’ll go down because he has nothing left to lose. 

- I’ll be posting a part two tomorrow probably. I just downloaded Road to survival in the middle of writing this after seeing Ben’s character fighting and I stopped writing this for 3 hours to play. I’m already at level 6 :)

Idk :)