Hi.

‘A Gringo Like Me’ by Monte Cazazza Smash TV's Gunslinger got this stuck in my head

‘Push Pull’ by Purity Ring pretty sure this song is about using git

What i say: I have anxiety

What most people think i said: I am awkward but cute awkward and shy.

What people assume: I am imagining illnesses to justify my lifestyle and personality.

What i actually mean: I live in a constant fear. I worry about the past, current or future situations, i have stomach and head pains all the time, tachycardia and awful panic attacks that include heart palpitations, and breathing problems. I suffer everyday and not only in "stressful situations". I think so much before i do something and eventually i don't do it at all, so people think i am lazy. I suffer from insomnia. I sweat to the idea of having to interact with people. I don't use the word anxiety to justify anything or to make myself look cool. It's a mental disorder, i have to live with it and find ways to control the symptoms. It is not a trend. Many people around the world actually suffer from this disorder. Accept those who have it and help them, don't judge them, don't joke about it. NEVER.

‘Wie ein Blitz’ by Sam Spence the drums, the bass line, and then the brass via #gunslinger

‘180db_ [130]’ by Aphex Twin is my new jam.

People adding Nazi apologist shit onto my posts like “but nazis invented cell phones and space rockets so without them we’d be less technologically advanced VuV” like buddy, if you think for one second we wouldn’t have eventually made it to the moon or made instant communication devices without mass genocide then I dunno what to tell you except to get the fuck away from me.

Your kind aren’t welcome here.

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