No, Because Im Still Upset About This.

Arum - dustberry fanchild - !! a friend's OC !!

Not my art - you can ask him if you want

My friend - Star_Natz

not sure if someone's done this yet but here it is anyway

Ink: *touches Error*

Error: *crashes*

Ink: Oh no! My Ruru! He's broken!

i just love feeling safe and secure in a good friendship, only for them to randomly start acting abnormal, which activates my ptsd and i immediately feeling insecure again bc i think they're no longer interested in me and that they're abandoning me or don't have time for me, so i just feel left behind and alone again which makes me feel depressed for days and it gets bad enough that i'm sure i'm relapsing but i cant stop it because i feel so alone and i cant talk to anyone about it because i know what they'll say but doing what they say isnt easy and it usually ends up with a bad result that i dont want to hear/know resulting in me falling back down the rabbit hole that i can't climb back out of

and its worse sharing this giant interest because i'm still very into that thing but looking at that thing makes me want to share it with them but now they dont even send a reaction to what you send, let alone a message which just makes me feel extremely unheard and hurt bc they dont even care enough to actually look at/watch what i send them

so now i just spend my time alone playing music because nothing is interesting anymore and i just sat on my phone half-spaced out and ready to cry at any moment because i feel as fragile as a cracked dam that just keeps cracking, therefore building more and more pressure until it bursts

Error: *exists*

Me:

my wisdom teeth are coming in. i've got two on the bottom which are already half-way out, while the top left tooth is just starting to poke out.

well i was chowing down on some delicious dinner, which i felt like something was stuck. i was feeling around and i damn near puked when i felt the gum covering my top left wisdom tooth, flap back.

i told my mom who made it worse by saying "eventually it will pop off and you'll swallow it in your sleep"

i damn near puked on the floor again

so i pulled it off.

i pulled of the flap of gum covering my wisdom tooth.

was this a bad idea? probably. do i regret it? absolutely not. will my parents get upset with me if they find out? most likely. will i care? absolutely not.

i'll take the pain over the thought of swallowing my gums.

SMART PEOPLE OF TUMBLR I NEED YOU

Lately, I've been having some weird ass dreams.

First, some context: From about 1st-2nd grade to 7th grade, I've been bullied, mostly by this one guy in particular, and his friend too. Not only have I developed trauma because of it, but I'm even paranoid about getting a job because seeing either of them in public scares me so much. (As I went to online school after 7th grade. I'm now a senior.) This anxiety and paranoia has prevented me from getting a job for the past few years. It did not help that in 2021, while working at the local haunted house, I was recognized by my bully despite my entire face being covered up. He insulted me and laughed at me, and harassed other workers on their way out. (I had to text up front to have a manager escort me out so I could take a breather. A different manager tried to go after them after hearing what they did to me and my coworkers, so now they're banned, anyway.)

But, as of the past two months, he keeps appearing in my dreams. If it was just regular bully stuff, I wouldn't be having an issue, as I easily recognize when I'm dreaming and don't get easily scared in dreams anymore. But, that is not the case. Instead, I've been dreaming of romantic situations with this guy, and it's... weird. I mean sure, I used to think I was crushing on him back in elementary school, but now? I'm terrified of this guy, I have literal PTSD because of him, so WHY am I having these dreams?

I genuinely am at a loss of what to think or do about this. I don't understand why I'm having these dreams, because I don't think even remotely positively about him. I'm scared of him, so how can I be dreaming of these situations? It honestly scares me, it makes me very frustrated. I just don't know what to do and it's worse when I don't even know why it's happening. So please, smart people with more braincells than me, does anyone have any clues as to why this could be happening??

this just gives me more reason for the ship war between me and my friend 😂👊

Problems with the Red Riding Hood AU.

TW/ Rape.

Fresh has tried to rape PJ multiple times. Error doesn’t care. PJ is OBVIOUSLY younger than Fresh! Error STILL doesn’t care.

i just wanna say that @loverofpiggies has no idea how much love i have for them

why do you make such good art and characters

and why do i simp for the most unattractive possible character of yours (aka error) how does that even work

my standards are so low