emotions make me feel physically sick
Yet I fight that feeling everyday
Just because I’m used to feeling that way
It’s not normal
I know that now
It is my soul
Breaking inside
It’s only escape
Since I lock it deep
I’ve ignored every instinct
To fight what I know
Coz the truth be told
I just don’t care no more .
Bottled for far to long
It’s only aim is to remind me every day
What makes me feel vile
But I allready know
He will never complete my soul
Yet forever under his control .
@trueemotions91
I don’t want to see
What is hidden beaneath the leaves
I’m scared it will shake my knees
Something I ain’t ready to please
I beg you
Don’t shake me to hard
I fall to fast
My soul won’t last
If you make me shiver
My heart will quiver
I don’t know when to stop
That’s when I lose the plot
I’m sorry
I can’t stumble
Upon these troubles
I want you to be happy
And
To show you inside
Would make us both the perfect disaster .
@trueemotions91
In life we all make mistakes some bigger then others
But we all make them .
Who are you to judge the person next to you ?
You ain't living with the pain, there are paying for their actions .
Some more then others.
Just coz you see them smiling 😀 don't mean inside they ain't crying .
When you look in there eyes, they may be looking back but inside they are shutting .
Trying to smile to hide the pain inside
. Trying to walk when your knees are shaking.
But you know you have to make them steps.
You don't no what that person is feeling !!!
Same as they don't you.
So next time just sit and think what you do.
Coz your actions and vocals can cause more damage to someone then your ever know . Just think
@trueemotions91
Sunset
at home
Lost in a world of emotions
Covid on my mind
Not a worry for the blind.
It’s not the strain of my eyes
from watching the tv
Or holding my phone all day
It’s the battle going on in my brain .
A pain I feel through shut eyes
The light don’t bother me no more
Used to the dark and the man made lights
With a flip of the switch .
It Seems day and night no longer disgunish
The hurt no longer exists
But neither does my happiness .
Lost in my own mind
But just a empty space .
Dying to breathe in the fresh air
To revitalise my brain .
Lost words that make no sense
Emotions I can’t figure out .
The world has gone crazy
And my brain is on the fall out .
How can my brain survive this pandemic with nothing to do , no air to breathe , no sun to see,
Just me .
@trueemotions91
She ignites me
In a way no one , could even come close.
She knows
Just how to make me feel alive .
She is my flame
On the coldest nights .
She is the spark in my eyes.
Believe me when I say she can turn any heart
From stone to gold dust
In a blink of gods eye .
She don’t know evil
Only pure love .
She locks on and never lets go .
She is stronger then any diamond
Rough for ever in the making
As that what makes her so powerful.
She learns from everything
She never will look perfect
Coz the best things
Are always hidden beneath the dirt
Spreading love but never heard.
@trueemotions91
@tammyfeabakker ❤️ x
She was my baby girl
I told you so
Never wanted to let her go
But you made me do her wrong
By always being the other girl
Making her feel low
I just couldn’t say no.
She was my baby girl
now she can’t be found
Because I dug her, deep into the ground.
Broken hearted by a clown
I’m sorry , now I know
How low, I made her go,
I wasn’t ready
For the love ,
She blew my world apart
now I’m done fooling about .
I was confused , lost
I promise you so
Just come back baby ,to our home
I’ll show you my love , hands down
No more broken promises
No more late night kisses
I just need you back on my ground
You are , who kept me so sound
The reason I thought I was on top of the world
She was my baby girl
I just need her home .
@trueemotions91
A joker ,
Hidden from me
Are you really surprised
I can see through the pain,
Painted on smile
In red lines .
Aint hard to see in
Between .
Painted white for the world
To see
But
Under the light ,
Your just another
Delusion of the night,
You think your words can itch me,
I have clowns in my dreams
Somewhere you could never reach ,
Think your nightmares
Can stench me from
My haven ,
Only witches have that cauldron
When they cackle up the night sky,
The birds want to come play ,
Because you will always hide
When the disguise
Falls behind the blind.
@trueemotions91
Pretty lady
Looking at me,
Why do you bring
Me to my knees,
In all the humans
Upon the world,
Your the one
I kneel to.
Not because your eyes
Enchant me
Or the whisper of your voice
Excites me,
It’s a belonging I can’t explain
just a human brain .
@trueemotions91
14 months & counting ,
Crammed into 4 tiny walls,
No fresh air ,
For me to breathe ,
No one else to reach,
Covid they said,
Don’t catch a cold,
Keep your self to your self ,
14 months you know ,
Not even a glimpse of sun,
Or 2 minutes of fun,
My brains starting to go into over drive ,
With no end to the wave,
I’m losing my sanity & all hope,
That my soul will ever feel the same .
@trueemotions91