me, incorrect: everyone is probably sick of me drawing this character by now...
my inner voice, wise: ah, but this cannot be... because I am part of "everyone"... and until I am sick of drawing them... it will not be everyone
me, opening a new blank canvas: ur so right
It's honestly really sad to see what Pixar has to say about the possibility of queer characters or themes in Luca. Of course they never say anything especially problematic (Mickey Rat has got to keep making that pride merch money), but it hurts to see it directly dismissed. That there is nothing relating romance at all and it's just about "misfits".
Seeing companies like Disney control animation is depressing when it feels like minorities will always be sidelined so they can be edited out overseas. I want stories that acknowledge my existence, even in subtle ways, instead of being a dirty secret that fans gather crumbs online to prove.
This isn't to say that I still don't love the queer themes in Luca, or that the director's intention for the film isn't valid. I just want more.
I can be shaped by more than the things that hurt me
Shout out to exmuslims who are often left out of posts about religious trauma support because that blogger was afraid of being labelled “islamophobic”, who are told their experiences were invalid and that “true islam is progressive” by the Woke crowd because any proof otherwise would challenge their narrative that only cultures dominated by white people can be harmful, who are still suffering trauma as a result of their religious upbringing.
You don’t deserve to be treated as invisible by people who claim to fight for justice. I know I dont often makes posts about exmuslims, and its because my main experience is with christianity, but I could do better. Exchristian apostates need to remember and support our exmuslim apostate friends 🧡
you will not be stuck here forever.
they will guilt you and force you to attend every meeting and participate in every activity but one day you will be gone and they won't be able to control you anymore.
one day you will not be forced to find solace in church bathrooms.
being a pimo is like, this is my witnesssona, they love being a humble servant of jehovah and not crying themself to sleep every meeting night. they carry magazines wherever they go and would rather suffer a painful, gruesome death than take your christmas cookies. they have No Problems that can't be prayed about, and no trauma at all. morever, as a Cisgender Heterosexual, and a malleable, inoffensive piece of clay, they have no personality other than Christian #12, which makes them a role model for the whole congregation. truly the spitting image of jehovah's holy spirit.
hhh i hate to have to do this again but my other post died out and im still struggling tbqh. i got enough to help me get out of the negative, and to pay off my utility bill but i honestly just need to eat now. idc if you order me something or donate, i just need to eat. my mental health is declining so violently. bc i haven’t been eating regularly.
i’m a queer, nb person who is unable to work a retail/fast food job bc of the limitations of my body and the pain i’m in every day (broken back in 2 places). i do online surveys but they’re not really enough to take care of all the things i need to take care of.
if you donate and you reach out to me, i will draw you something. i can’t take on commissions rn bc the pressure is more than i can handle but if you send me funds and want me to draw something for you in return please just reach out. anything helps, any amount willl let me get something to eat. for proof, this is my bank acct rn.
my paypal is paypal.me/tilianjustice
i also have venmo but idk what the phone number attached to it is so paypal is preferable. but the venmo is @RK800
thank you in advance, literally anything helps ;;’
The amount of times I decided religous trauma related breakdowns/nightmares were "a sign from God" is honestly crazy. How can you connect that you are miserable because of the cult but not reach the conclusion "I should leave".
Abuse has a goal behind it, and a lot of the time, it's about changing the victims behavior. If someone screams at you for not doing X activity, eventually you learn to do X activity. If someone hits you when you defy them, eventually you learn not to defy them. If someone abuses you frequently enough, and you begin to break down to their will... It is possible to reach a point where it may seem like you're not being abused anymore.
They don't yell anymore because you stay quiet and do what you're told. They don't threaten you anymore because you don't voice even the slightest disagreement or need. What used to be screaming fighting arguments have become lectures at your expense. They may even praise you for doing what they want you to. And all those mundane moments - breakfast, the rare kind act - stand out more. Your perception of the relationship skews even more. It's all normal now.
And it's still abuse. It's just reached its end goal - wearing you down so badly that they don't need to overtly abuse you anymore to get what they want. All they need to do is make a joke, or complain to guilt you, or tell you want to do/not to do, etc. etc. The fact that's all it takes now doesn't make what's happening to you less severe - if anything, it means you're in much, much more danger than you could realize.
It's abuse. It's horrific. It's just not obvious anymore... and that's terrifying. You deserve so, so much better. You deserve to truly be safe - not to have your wellbeing held behind fearful compliance. That's not safety. That's not love. That's abuse. It being psychological doesn't make it less dangerous.
If you or a loved one have been forced to attend a regional convention of Jehovah's Wittnesses you may be entitled to financial compensation.
Just call 1-800-SAD-PIMO today!
regional convention is now who wants to give me money /j
I'm a queer nerd with religous trauma, let's be friends! Icon by @haxxydraws
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