If you struggle with mental health, you will see alot of people saying "it will get better!" and others saying it never will. Dont expect wide generalizations like either to be accurate to your life. There are so many things that affect your mental health that you might not even be aware of yet. Just know with help, it always gets easier and sometimes that's enough.
what’s one piece of wisdom you wish you could share with people going through issues similar to what you survived when you were younger?
I finally moved out and told my parents I was leaving the cult. Moving was fine i suppose but the phone conversation explaining my stance was much more emotional than I expected.
My parents aren't the type to question their beliefs so I wasn't going to put effort into explaining myself, but they kept pushing. They had preconceived notions that I was just bitter or foolish and kept poking only to have me explain how their bigotry made my life hell. My dad tried to play off the slurs and awful things he said as jokes only to have to come to terms with the fact that I grew up feeling unlovable and disgusting because of him.
Now I'm waiting for them to decide if they ever want to talk to me again. They're crushed but still miss the point. Rather than realizing "homophobia bad" they took "we did homophobia wrong". While I can't say I wanted to spill so much to them, I'm happy that they have to live with what they've done.
If Only Once, If Only For A Little While, a new 18-page comic about the ways we deal with loss.
for easier readability, the whole thing is also up here, on my website!
thinking about when i was a kid and the circuit overseers wife told me she thought people were born gay and it was caused by pollution
the lunar chronicles + royalty [1/?]
Another thing that gets me is how they use the growing visibility and acceptance of queer people as the most obvious sign of the world's depravity. Even though, they have no reason to get so upset besides "the bible says it's bad in our outdated translations". Other things like sleeping together outside of marriage should be a similar sin within their rules, but it doesn't hold the same disgust to them. Regardless of what they say, they're obvious bigots.
So when they tried to fearmonger by saying that "they let middle schoolers twist morality with GSA" it wasn't surprising, but I wanted to fucking scream.
Meetings really only exist to encourage my deconversion at this point. I don't know how saying that "feminism making women think they should be fully equal in the marriage is damaging" will make me, an afab person, agree that God knows best lol.
Like no. I don't know about you but I don't want to be in a position where my partner can abuse me without consequence.
questioning your gender for the longest time only to realize that it's something that most people sort of "have" and that your ideas of what your gender might be/might've been were just gender expressions; THEN questioning whether those expressions ARE your gender or not because some people are GNC but not everyone is and for some people, expression and identity ARE linked, so you wonder if yours is/are, too, only to finally conclude. Nope. No gender. 0%. Cart empty.
Being in a cult is like having this huge plant take root in your mind, and the longer it’s inner the bigger and more complex the root system.
Finally realizing it’s all a lie and getting out is like yanking the entire plant out of your brain, it’s tough and annoying until you take one massive tug and it’s out. And it fucking hurts.
And now there are holes where the roots used to be. But if you leave them empty the structural integrity of your mind will be damaged. You have to find something else to fill them with. Preferably something healthy.
And if the roots were complex enough, the one tug that pulled the plant out won’t have been enough to free all the roots. A lot of them are still in there, that’s all the toxic internalized ideas you still have stuck in your head. Unlearning them is like pulling those root fragments out, it’s slow and complicated and painful.
Made this with a picrew that was cute and great for pride month! I like how customizable it is. Makes me wish I had a button maker tho.
These people who are ignorant and gullible enough to buy into that 'masculine and feminine energy' garbage that gets peddled around TikTok and other platforms can speak for themselves. My masculine and feminine energy live in perfect harmony with each other. They have definitely kissed with tongue. They are sucking and fucking as we speak. They hype each other up. They love, respect and admire the other. Where one goes, the other follows. Separating them is a fool's errand.
I'm a queer nerd with religous trauma, let's be friends! Icon by @haxxydraws
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