Family Means The Knife Held Against My Throat Is Done Out Of Love

from one chronically anxious person to another: the world is not going to go up in flames. What happens will be more slow, more bureaucratic, more boring. There is no catastrophe to end all catastrophes, no rapture, no sudden end. You can't give into the call of the void, because there is no void. So you just have to do the work to make tomorrow a better place, anyway. Because that's how it gets better.

I just watched infinity train season two, and the main character is amazing! When you leave you a cult you don't just have to rebuild how you view the world, but also yourself. You have to stop trying to change yourself. You have unlearn the teachings that condemned individualality. You have to loudly scream that "I exist!" The character's whole arc revolves around these ideas making her extremely relatable.

Characters that I hold close to my heart as an ex-cult kid

The entire cast of The Path (Hulu) • Venus, Jupiter and Neptune of We Know The Devil (PC game) • Rapunzel (fairy tale) • Lapis Lazuli of Steven Universe • Aziraphale and Crowley of Good Omens (Gaiman & Prachett) • Lake of Infinity Train • Bucky Barnes of Marvel • Mark Grayson of Invincible (Kirkman) • Abigail Hobbs of Hannibal (NBC)

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Horrifying but also awesome

It sounds crazy but I kinda want to pursue a PHD now. I have always been very passionate about education but wasn't sure if I'd ever get to even do undergrad. Realized recently I don't have to plan my life around my parents' arbitrary rules anymore. I'm free.

Can you really present Christian weddings as monogamous when they're inherently throuples?

There's you, there's God, and there's your side-person, oh right. The term is spouse.

I'm learning that being in a high control group has made me a fantastic actor. I had doubts for years and while I felt a lot of guilt, I also just couldn't make myself feel or act how I knew I was excepted to. So I leaned hard into the shy sweet girl archetype. Sure they think I'm at least 5 years younger than I am, but I can do the bare minimum and ignore uncomfortable topics out of "nervousness".

The real me is opinionated, blunt, and consistently makes jokes. My family will tell others this, but they don't often believe them. It goes unquestioned and gives me some freedom. Still, I will be extremely relieved when I can retire the role.

women in STEM (supervillainy, treachery, evilness, malevolence)

Tumblr is so fun. Like obviously incredibly cursed but it feels comfy. Unlike Twitter it seems like people just want to enjoy things in peace now.

me: (listens to ‘take on me’)

me, who was not alive in the 80s: god this really brings me back