"Worst Thing About Plurality Is The Amnesia" "worst Thing About Plurality Is In-sys Fighting" LOUD INCORRECT

ANTI PRAT KITTY CAT

made by Mod Adam :3c

this is kind of shit but like. you get it right

Spaghetti are plural

correct

takes are stupid. when are we going to start posting gives

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disordered system culture is realizing that being consistently unable to remember arguments/conflicts even 5 minutes later with any clarity at all (besides general knowledge that we were upset) is maybe actually something that counts as amnesia

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Before I got professional help from a DID specialist, I was a very violently anti-endo sysmed. Ironically, pursuing help and taking my medication regularly helped me open up to the idea of non-traumagenic systems.

Before I had access to professional help, I was angry at the world. I was angry at the doctors for not accepting my insurance even though I so desperately needed their help, and I was angry at the endogenics for seemingly getting the "easy" and "fun" parts of my disorder. It was insecurity. I blamed them for how people outside of the community treated me, I blamed them for making us look bad.

I held out hope for the definitive "medical truth" to validate me, I wanted someone to look at me and say:

"I know EXACTLY what is wrong with you, and I can fix you."

But sadly that was just a dream. After cycling through a handful of specialists and settling on my current one, I realized they're learning from me as much as I'm learning from them. Every single specialist had a wildly different definition of what DID looks like, and even is. What it's caused by, and what it's not. Some specialists were open to the idea of endogenic systems existing, some were not.

DID/OSDD medical information is a footnote in a medical textbook. So many of the terms that diagnosed traumagenics use are not decided upon by a medical consensus. Even the specialists are extrapolating heavily based on the very limited information there is about this disorder.

That's when it hit me.

The doctors don't know shit. The community dosent know shit. So damn it all to hell I don't care anymore.

Traumagenic and Endogenic systems are in the same boat. We are all still discovering what it even means to be plural. There's no set definition, even within the sysmed community. So why are we so desperately trying to invalidate each other's experiences just to try to convince others, and ourselves, that our lived experiences are real?

the fact that I can't go into traumagenic tags while being Traumagenic because the lengths a lot of anti endos go to show hatred to endos, as well as the degree of that hate, makes me extremely uncomfortable

Walt Whitman, from "Song of Myself" in Leaves of Grass

having a freeze response to stress is so funny in the context of normal adult stressors. millions of years of evolution are trying to tell me that the email will not find me if i stay very still and do nothing