I Am A Dreamer And I Always Will Be. I've Been Told That Dreaming Won't Get Me Anywhere But While My

I am a dreamer and I always will be. I've been told that dreaming won't get me anywhere but while my childhood ends, my dreams do not. Now that I'm graduating soon I can't help but dream of my ever so near future. I dream of getting into that college. Of graduating with flying colors and making it into med school. I dream of getting that big time job that so many dream of. I dream of the big time life and living comfortably. I dream of being the best. I dream of showing just how good I can be. I dream of showing them that yes that potential they saw is there and I have embraced it. in fact, I've overcome it and am more than they ever thought I'd be. I dream most of making my parents proud. I dream my hardest that I do enough. To prove to them that their baby girl can do it. That I can manage in this crazy world and can strive above the normal. That I can make my dreams and their dreams come true. And yet despite this, I dream like the little girl I am. Truly I dream not of the high life, not of becoming the doctor I always said I would be, but of becoming a mother. I dream of becoming a wife. I dream about coming home to a loving husband, a loving pair of arms to curl into when the world knocks me down again and again. I do not dream of a big house with a big pool and piles of money, but instead a love that I can not measure. Though I will admit a nice house and land would bring me some sense of happiness, I would simply be better off with a man to call home instead. A strong pair of arms to fall into and a smile to match the warmth I would feel when I am near him. I dream of the ups and downs because I know it will happen and I do not fear because I know it would be meant to be. I would know we would fight for each other and be there no matter what. And more than ever I dream to be a mother. I dream of coming home to small voices and even smaller footsteps. I dream of the moment I find out and the fear and excitement that will race through me. I dream of every moment, no matter how big, small, exciting, or scary because it will only happen once. I do not fear birth because what truly is more beautiful than bringing a life into this world? I do not fear it because if I have truly found my husband he would be there. He would help me through the pains and struggles and oh how I would love him. I may not know it all but I know how just enough to make me waiver in fear. I know it would be hard and I know I may not feel like I could do it but oh how it would be worth it. To have my own child to love and care for. Oh how I would give my world for my baby. I want nothing more to be a mother. To give the love that I have always gotten from my mother. I dream of the moment when I would take my sweet little bundle home and I would cry. I dream of the many milestones and more. I dream of the temper tantrums and the long nights. I dream of the little giggles and the loud cries. I dream of being woken up at night by my child like I had done to my own mother. I dream of a love so large it's almost overwhelming. And I know life wouldn't be perfect. I know I will struggle and I know I may fail. Yet if I had just a glimpse of this life I would be okay. And I fear of speaking this dream aloud because in this world I'm supposed to want to strive above and beyond. I'm supposed to be strong and independent. Yet these are the dreams I dream of as I near my last few months of my childhood. I will strive for one path yet yearn for another. I will strive to be the best and strive to prove myself and make them proud. I will do this because I know a dream is a dream. I know I may not get what I want so I will go on. For what truly is the dreams of a seventeen year old girl than just that. A dream.