You Know When You Are Having Those Bad Hair Days And You Just Want All Of Your Hair To Just Go. So I

Love is terrifying

I am scared of committing

I scared that I will fall in love with you

I am scared that you will leave me

Because all good things come to an end eventually

I keep watching couples breaking up and I fear that we would too

I wanna be all in but I know I am not

I am scared

Afraid

Of how broken I would be if lose you

So I pretend to not love you when I clearly do because I am afraid

Of everything falling apart because I won't be able to handle it

I am scared of falling in love.

So I need you to tell me

We will be okay

I need you to hold me close and say

Everything will be alright...

I remember reading fanfics of harry Potter and it felt like being transported back in time. I could spent hours reading It and when I would look up I would lose all my sense of reality. We took that world from her and made it our own. Harry Potter is so much more than jk Rowling. It is more than just those books. It's a million stories and thousands of writers. I am just filled with so much whenever I think about harry Potter. It just doesn't feel the same to me as much as i want it to.

As of right now, it's possible that partially what is influencing my Hope/Lizzie shipping is the fact that Lizzie's reaction to realizing that she'd developed feelings for Hope would be HILARIOUS.

(grumpy snarling because one half of a pairing has caught feelings THAT ARE VERY INCONVENIENT AND ANNOYING is just my jam)

(also enemies to frenemies to friends to lovers is EVEN MORE my jam)

(also battle couples)

Do you guys see why I have zero doubts about who is going to become my OTP for this show?

Since corona has happened everyone is mad about being quarantined while I am here like bro that's every single desi girl's whole life!!!

Just watched into the night.

Couldn't help but think that if the sun rays are killing people wouldn't moon rays also kill people as it's technically sun rays????

Like moon also shines in the night as sun rays fall on it so due to people should die irrespective of the fact that whether it's day Or night??

My MOOD after trying to take a good picture after a hundred tries:

Just because you are working very hard doesn't mean that you will succeed:)

On Fandoms, Age, and Gender: The Politics of “ Putting Away Childish Things”

Weighing in on yet another round of “fan spaces are youth spaces” (aka “go home and knit, old lady” or “You’re old enough to be my/someone’s mom! gross!” )

Consider these thoughts:

There’s a whole set of interests and behaviors that you might become interested in as you grow from child to adolescent to young adult and take greater interest in the wider world.

You might like horses, or dolls.  Or building models.  You might play soccer, or follow baseball every summer and learn about  box scores.   You might follow the college football draft, or love a pop band.  You might deeply admire a rock band and learn to play the guitar.  You might love superheroes and see all their movies.  You might love space opera and collect paperback books.  Maybe you collect trading cards of your favorite team players – or movie moments.  You probably get t-shirts and posters of teams, or media outlets.  You might get deeply into a social or political cause.

Those are all expressions of interest in the world, all with associated social aspects, many with associated creative actions. 

And then you get older.  And here’s the thing about that list.  The things on that list that are “for boys?”   Are also “for men.”   But the things on that list that are “for girls” or “for nerds?” Are only “for children.”  

Adult men wear brightly colored team clothing and paint their faces without shame.   They join fantasy football leagues and hang out online.   They follow Phish (or continuously talk about how they did when that was a thing).  They spend vast sums on tickets to bowl games.   They get excited all over the internet about Geddy Lee’s greatest hits.  They spend long afternoons on the golf course, playing very bad golf.

No one tells them to grow up 

An adult woman who turns a childhood dollhouse into a beautiful scale model of a real Victorian home is “eccentric.”  An adult man who builds a vast HO train layout in his basement is a “train enthusiast.”   An adult woman who displays her favorite Bryer horses is “odd,” an adult man with a shelf of signed baseballs is “a collector” or even “an investor.” 

Adult women making fanart of attractive movie stars is “creepy,’ while adult men decorating their garages with calendar art of scantily-clad very-young women is “just what guys do.”

Interests and hobbies that were feminine and are taken up by men become acceptable.   When The Beatles were greeted with mobs of fainting teen girls, they were a “boy band.”  When young men discovered them, they became Serious Musicians.  

Over and over, across fields of interest, things that girls like are “toys and games and childish” and should be left behind by adults, while things that boys like are “hobbies and sports” that are lifetime pastimes.  And acceptable “hobbies” for adult women?   Most are things that could be coded as household chores, but generations of women have worked to turn into enjoyable pastimes:  knitting, sewing, quilting.  Home decor.  Baking.   Many adult women (myself included) enjoy doing those things in their free time and have elevated them to art forms.  But that doesn’t change the fact that they’re rooted in utility, while “men’s hobbies” are, by and large, rooted in leisure.

Look around you and follow the pattern.  And then, before you ask “Why are adult women in fan spaces,” maybe ask “why do I feel like adult women don’t get to have fun?” 

the whole concept of tiktok being the new tumblr for kids makes me insane bc imagine the stupidest shit you’ve said on here as a kid but instead of a text post no one cares about it’s a video of you physically saying that shit out loud on the internet forever. i would just have to die

i eat men like you for breakfast

literally

i had you in my mouth

at 3 pm

that’s breakfast enough for me

how many cigarettes will it take to make the sun set

how many heartbreaks to set my life in motion

stupid country girls with innocent smiles

dreaming of a husband and nothing more

girls like me dream of a husband too

we just pretend there’s so much more

we pretend life isn’t a simple game

with simple rules

paint me

on paper or just my body

exercise your right to use me

i gave myself to you long ago

on a foggy night in the hudson valley

// i hope you didn’t forget

The fact that i haven't watched a single episode of game of thrones makes me feel somehow superior to people who have.

But sometimes I wanna know what the hype is all about??

See my problem???