I'm not entirely sure how to describe my mental state as things are now. From a rational point I've internalized that hope is a fundamental need for survival, that life is never truly over until you've breathed your last no matter how suffocating or excruciating your current life situation is. That life is what you make of it, and each individual has the freedom to determine their own purposre. Yet, I still cant help but feel just so hopeless and depressed all the time. Beyond a shadow of a doubt I know a future where seeing the body I was born with doesn't make me want to cry is one I can achieve. That a life outside of my current overbearing loneliness and isolation can be mine, and that living a lie to preserve my few existing close relationships is a temporary situation I can be freed of eventually. Yet I cant escape perpetual hopelessness and irrational anxiety. I simultaneously feel confident in my potential yet disgusted in my reality, never wanting to end my life yet hating to live.
There's no real point to this rambling, im not gonna bother proofreading for errors or any of that. I'm venting to the void for myself more than anything. I still lack a healthy means to process my emotions relying on endlessly drowning thoughts out with distractions. Books, comics, games, martial arts, anything that can suppress the misery with momentary pockets of happiness. Maybe all of us need escapes to survive, or maybe I'm projecting to feel less alone.
I kinda wanna throw a rock at this guy
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Really I've got no clue what to say on this site
Funny how that works
I need to make my testament bedtime post but im too sleepy dont know what to say
Almost done reading The Rise of Kyoshi and I've really loved it so far. Being a lover of ATLAs world seeing it further expanded on and especially learning more about the history of the four nations (mostly the earth nation in this book) is enough to keep me reading on their own, but the characters are also all very good. I think Kyoshi herself has quickly become my favorite character in this seriws and watching her work through her lack of self-worth and fear among other things was hella engaging. Her character has totally pulled me in, not to mention she's just cool as FUCK (and a lil silly). Also, this lesbian romance is life changing.
Kissinger.
US bombs dropped on Laos, 1964-1973. [Map published in article: Rosita Boland. "Death from below in the world's most bombed country." The Irish Times. 13 May 2017. Though map first uploaded on Redd/it by Andrew Gloe, as u/AJgloe, 12 September 2016.]
US bombs dropped, 1965-1972. [Map and animation by: Ha Pham. "Vietnam bombing history with data - Part 1." Medium. 4 November 2018.]
Laos. From 1964 to 1975, the US dropped over 2 million tons of bombs, equating to over 250 million bombs/ordinances. By some estimates, this averages as: full plane load of bombs dropped on Laos every 8 minutes, 24 hours a day, for 9 years. After the official end of the US military campaigns, US bombs on the ground continued to kill dozens of people every year for decades; the bombs still maim today, as over 80 million unexploded bombs/munitions still remain on the ground in Laos.
Cambodia. Kissinger was architect of the "Secret War", which the US president initially tried to hide from the public. Beginning in 1969, the US dropped over 2 and a half million tons of bombs at over 112,000 sites; over 11,000 sites were bombed indiscriminately. Most estimates suggest that US bombing of Cambodia directly resulted in hundreds of thousands of civilian deaths. On 17 March 1969, when the president's office received news of the first bombings in Cambodia, Nixon's chief of staff wrote in his diary: "Historic day K's [Kissinger's] 'Operation Breakfast' finally came off at 2:00 pm our time. K really excited, as is P [President]." The next day he added: "K's 'Operation Breakfast' a great success. He came beaming in [...]."
idk i can’t decide on color makix2
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Started playing NEO TWEWY since I finished up emulating the og on my 3ds a few weeks ago, im already liking it a lot. Music goes crazy which is to be expected by now, combat is fire (though I wish I could ramp up the difficulty) and Sho Minamimoto has grown on me a lot this time sround, hes dope asf now I think in large part due to his VA. And Nagi better back tha fuck up off my homie Fret I dont really appreciate how shes disrespecting my guy. I see the GOAT dripped out on the cover art hiding back there in corner as well, cant wait to see what hes been up to since the last game.
19 》 They/Them 》 Evil Sorcerer Nigga Wielding Swords And Darkness 》 Mech pilot for the imperial IDGAF forces 》 transfem 》 Studying mandarin 》
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