:D

honestly yeah. this poor boy has been through so much, why not put him through more?

spoilers for anyone not caught up with the manga

I wouldn’t really consider the excessive ‘deaths’ (i say this with heavy air quotes) in bsd ‘death bating’. i’m pretty sure asigiri wants us to believe they’re not really dead and considering the most recent chapter this was confirmed. can we stop assuming that every time a character dies and it’s unbelievable that it’s ‘death baiting’? it’s literally just foreshadowing you media illiterate fool. on another tangent, i love how much of a stinky little manipulative liar fyodor is.

it’s a wip and i’m already suffering 😭

doodle from english class today. can you tell i like to draw fyodor?

here you go @koku-stars! i already had a wip of alter ego in my gallery so, err, yeah

i will get to everyone’s requests just give me some time :>

bringin back the old mushi pfp >3

there is no brain. only teruko.

@starreskies @x6v1er @crumbledtoast @avisbirdy @vic-11037 @noodle-bro @koku-stars @gabrielthejester @kat4884

Not me having some kinda type... Who shall I tag? I think I wanna tagggggg... @mybugsmybugsmybugs @mexicangela @lunar-years @biscuitboxpink but no pressure!! I just thought it would be fun!

spoilers for anyone not caught up with the manga

I wouldn’t really consider the excessive ‘deaths’ (i say this with heavy air quotes) in bsd ‘death bating’. i’m pretty sure asigiri wants us to believe they’re not really dead and considering the most recent chapter this was confirmed. can we stop assuming that every time a character dies and it’s unbelievable that it’s ‘death baiting’? it’s literally just foreshadowing you media illiterate fool. on another tangent, i love how much of a stinky little manipulative liar fyodor is.

oc art :3 this is zena, you can comment if you want me to tell you about them.

a little fanfic piece i decided to write because i don’t actually feel like ranting about how akutagawa isn’t obsessed with/in love with dazai and that it’s just a cry for help and approval. this is just me trying to imagine the scene where akutagawa decided that his goal was trying to get dazai’s approval.

“Does it hurt, Akutagawa?” Dazai said in a cold hiss. 

There was an angry look in his eyes as there usually was after every minuscule mistake made, but there was something else to it. Something more crazed, more feral. Like a rabid animal inflicting its own suffering onto anything it could sink its teeth into. He was holding the younger man by the collar, keeping him from collapsing onto the ground.

“You’re pathetic. You have no clue what real pain is. You’re a failure. You’ll never be good enough for the Port Mafia.” Dazai hissed through gritted teeth. They were words Akutagawa had heard before, but they never failed to make him feel like an ant being slowly burned to death by a kid holding a magnifying glass. That’s what Dazai truly was. A kid. It was easy to forget with his imposing demeanor and annoying pedantic genius. 

Akutagawa found himself unable to speak. His thoughts were swirling and shaky. It was probably the blood loss getting to him. All he could think about was how much he wanted to hear four little words from Dazai: “I’m proud of you.” 

That was it. That was what he wanted more than life. He wanted the person that made him feel like nothing make him feel like something. Was that insane? Probably. 

Dazai threw him down onto his back again. It hurt, it really did, but he had to keep going. He got to his feet shakily. There was a determined look in his eyes as he did.