The Suffering Never Ends

Found the top of an area with my sibling so fun. Rest is just casual scug existence

I hate it when people say that people choose to be trans, or say that being trans is a choice

This week my dysphoria got so bad that I was considering death, I hated my body so much in that moment that I considered ruining my own prospects for a better life. If being trans was a choice, I don't think I'd choose to be trans, because of the dysphoria. Because of that suffering. Yes I've become part of a community and I've gotten closer with some good friends. Yes I've had happy moments. This does not negate the fact that I hate my body so much that I will start HRT and I'll spend money to start to make this body mine, make this body one that I feel I can be actually proud of.

If being trans was a choice then people in the world wouldn't have moments when their dysphoria is so bad that reaching for rope or metal feels like a better alternative to life

If being trans was a choice then there wouldn't be so much controversy about laws for trans people, it would be a simple choice like a tattoo or a piercing

If being trans was a choice then I would be happier, happier with my body, happier with my existence.

I hate all that say "being trans is a choice" because it shows how negligent they are to the lives of trans people.

I would like to clarify that not every trans person experiences dysphoria, no, and they are just as valid as trans people who do.

I dislike the people who are negligent of the pain that some trans people experience, negligent of the struggles trans people face so often in society

No, not everyone is trans-phobic, but not everyone understands. The ones who are so trans-phobic that they yell and scream in the streets or hold up signs or petition laws are so loud and it makes me feel like so few people actually care about or understand trans people.

Why would you choose to be a streamer?

Some say for fortune

Some for the smiles

Some for the fame

Me?

I want to be able to see the intricate web that spirals out from what I make. The ever growing mycelium that branches and branches and branches from the base idea that I could try to plant. The ideas and joys that come from admiring and watching the content. The inspirations that soon lead to more and more ideas from other individuals. The wondrous joys that could save some from the gloominess that so often pollutes the content that most watch.

I want to become someone who could help so many others into a joyous community. I want to become someone who helps others through simple silly videos and streams.

That is why I want to try to stream one day.

Not for fame or money, but for the people it could help and the greater ideas that could sprout from it.

Hey, for any fellow trans women out there, I have a question. I've developed a mass that seems to be growing beneath the skin of one of my breasts and it seems to be relatively attached to my nipple beneath the skin, is this something common? Is this something to be worried about?

I'll probably talk with my doctor about it regardless of responses, but I'd like some additional outside info, please and thank you

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So probably a soot sprite of a fairy

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What would you do if you knew someone was planning to kill themselves?

Just some stranger you see or bump into

Maybe hear them talking about something and suddenly you just know

That they're planning to be the next one to wind up in the obituary

Some stranger you barely know

Without a name or face in your phone

Would you ignore them? Walk past them because you're too busy with yourself to even try to dissuade them from this assigned date and time that they would surely perish?

Would you try to understand why it is that theyve chosen to die?

Would you bring up religion and tell them they wont get into heaven? Tell them they are going against God and condemning themselves?

Would you yell at them and say that their life can't be that hard? Tell them they just need to have hope and faith that things will become better than they are? What if they were a child? Would you talk down to them at all?

Would you tell them their parents love them, not knowing if they're an orphan or a victim of familial harm?

Would you direct them to the hotline and just hope they check it out?

What if they were your boss?

Would you tell them they can't die, simply so you can receive another paycheck and continue to try to be alive?

What if the stranger was homeless? Would you ignore them and walk away?

Would you direct them to a shelter that could simply turn them away?

What about if they were a celebrity well known and loved? Would you chop it up to maybe they need more popularity and love?

Would you even try to talk to them at all or try to help?

What if they were someone you hate? Some rival or ex or abuser or criminal?

Would you give them a second chance or try to help so maybe they may change?

Would you ignore them or mock them because they are feeling pain?

Would you try to stop a suicide, no matter the person?

Would you ignore them all, so you aren't responsible for whether or not they live or die by the end of the day?

More than likely we'd try to save a loved one from the grips of suicidal thought, but what about the strangers that exist all around us?

So. Y’all.

These posts about how trans men’s fears about being treated like breeding stock with forced pregnancy and breastfeeding is aCtuAlLy privilege because trans women can’t give birth? And if trans men talk about ‘throwing away’ the ability to make babies it’s really just trans men ‘rubbing’ having this particular set of reproductive organs in trans women’s faces?

I need you to take several fucking seats and even more fucking minutes to reevaluate yourselves.

1: Forced pregnancy is not a fucking privilege and, for some of us, could be debilitating or a potential death sentence.

I’m a disabled trans man and due to some medical issues, I’ve been told since I was a pre-teen that I cannot ever have a ‘natural’ birth. It would destroy my already fucked up body and put me back into a wheelchair and through several more surgeries, all of which are ill advised because, and this brings us to another issue…

“JuSt hAvE a C-seCtiOn.”

Well bozos, being allergic to a wealth of medications including ANESTHETIC DRUGS kind of makes that super dangerous for me. I’ve had a total of three major surgeries in my life and each one resulted in complications because of the anesthesia, and my surgeons all said ‘avoid needing surgery if you can’. Even localized anesthetic is out. (Which is why I’m also one of those non-passing trans men y’all love to claim doesn’t exist! Try getting a doctor to sign off on top surgery when you’re a known liability! Oh yes, that must be part of my mythical male privilege too!)

I’m not the only trans man in the world with medical issues that make pregnancy dangerous. So check your ignorance and your ableism. And none of this even takes the most basic issue into account.

2: Let’s call ‘forced pregnancy’ what it really is. It’s rape. Some of you are expecting us to accept rape as a ‘privilege’. Some of you are even cheering for it.

If I have to explain why that’s a problem? Yeah, no, I’m not wasting my time at that point on you.

Repeat after me:

Homosexuality is not an illness.

No letter of the whole LGBTQIA+ is an illness.

There is no treatment, prescription, therapy or cure BECAUSE IT IS NOT AN ILLNESS.

Thank you for your attention.

Shout out to all the Black ppl that can no longer participate directly in the fandom they love because of the stresses of racism 👍🏾 you contain multitudes of value and I'm sorry that the color of your skin and the power of your voice makes people not want to acknowledge that.