I Just Finished Reading All Quiet On The Western Front And I Have So Many Thoughts And Feelings, I Don't

i am so serious when i say we as young adults are so starved and deprived of community

saw someone refer to not knowing how to keep track of your money as "girl math" ......why are we in this weird era of treating women like idiots but repackaging it to sound cute and quirky. We All Need To Stop

You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe she was good for your ego. Or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life. But you didn't love her. Because you don’t destroy people you love.

Grey’s Anatomy

Various stars & moon details from my gouache paintings 🌙✨

the devil’s whispers:

you can do it tomorrow (if you don’t do it now you’ll never do it ever)

you have a lot of time left (life is actually pretty short and we don’t have that much time)

you can skip this one little thing today (you are functioning solely due to the fact that you have a routine)

i must respond to this one thing that is bothering me immediately (you don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head)

I must check my phone (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head)

panicking is productive (panicking never makes a situation better, but in fact exacerbates it)

I must listen to music while doing the most minute task (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head. and I like music as much as the next person but moments of sheer silence are crucial)

I must befriend everyone (some people just don’t mesh together and that is ok)

I can skip working out for the day (working out does so much for ur physical AND mental health)

If misfortune happens to me it’s because I am uniquely unlucky (misfortune has nothing to do with preordained circumstances and everything to do with random odds)

If I am mistreated it’s because I am a horrible person and I deserve it (most times people are projecting their issues onto u and it has nothing to do with u)

if I make a mistake I am uniquely horrible (we are all human and we all make mistakes. the important thing is to hold ourselves accountable and learn from them)

I must have this one thing I really want now (u don’t have to do anything, it’s all in ur head. also whatever u want will still be here tomorrow so this sense of urgency is false)

I am uniquely hated/disliked/ostracized (most people are busy w their own lives and don’t have the time to be hating on u. and if they really are then their life is pretty empty and their opinion should not be held in high regard to begin with)

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”

— Oscar Wilde

~✧°+* 23/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

22.08.2023

I know I've been saying this a lot these past weeks but I do believe that I'm slowly starting to get back into things. Today I wasn't only more active than the past days but also a lor more calm.

Positive Things I did today:

got breakfast with a friend

studied at the library with friends & spent some quality time with them

started writing the Hamilton essay

cooked dinner

did my skin care routine

Hours slept: ~6hrs Screentime: ~2hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~10.400

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