Grieving The Person You Used To Be

WHEN ON PERIOD:

do not crash out

your feelings are NOT valid

do not send that text

don't kill yourself. lock in

do not act on negative emotions until at least 2 days have elapsed

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Love the word "also". I have more things to say

the love of my life is gone. my first wish is among the stars. free of pain, i hope she runs on large green fields and eats all she ever wanted and more. i hope to see her beautiful face again one day.

for now, i will drown, in grief, i will mourn, in anguish, weep, in guilt, all because i wish i had you to care of for one more day unto eternity. i will forever despair and wonder if i could do more. i will forever regret over all i couldve done. if only i wasnt so blind to the passing of time.

may death reunite us one day.

i look at my first fulfilled wish. the decline is inevitable and i know one day she will pass. which day, i do not know. so all i can do is feel anguish and offer all the love i have so i can ease her pain.

me remembering i have a name and body and people know me:

pioneering something called "gritted teeth optimism" where everything is gonna turn out okay even if i have to bite and claw and gnash my way through it

okay? hi. okay.

text draft for the new theme settings.

i only wish i could write as well i articulate my thoughts, the mouth doesn't do its job as well as the feeling.

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