Stickbugbonezzz - Active May 2025// €D

the anorexic urge to stare at every skinny person that walks by

it’s always awkward when people speak to me about 3ds not knowing i am head under the water drowning in one HAHAHA

suffering in silence >>>>

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ive been doing awful lately, everythings gone to hell, i dont know whats wrong with me, i need to stop eating entirely to get back the hang of hunger. im going to keep trying to trigger myself with my old early day stuff like tea. i miss my tapid weight loss so bad :((((( im really sad thinking about it i hate this stupid eteral hell

things i do when hungry . 🍓 distractions, etc

• stare at spo until im too disgusted w/myself to eat

• stand in front of a mirror and pinch/look at every flawed spot

• wear tight clothes on purpose so i feel every inch of my body

• count the calories in my binge before it happens

• chew and spit

• eat in front of a mirror

• write down everything i wanted to eat, then cross each item out

• watch food content (mukbangs, recipes) while drinking LOADS of water

• if im hungry, i take a shower, brush my teeth, look at spo and see if im still hungry

• sleep, i cant eat if im not awake

• count bones in the mirror. If i can’t see them, i don’t need food

• google the weight of celebrities my height

• draw tally marks for every time i say no to food

• make a ed playlist

Soup mealspø♡

i luv soup soo much😭

reasons why i want to be sk1nny:

- i won’t be the ugly fat friend anymore

- guys (and girls) will like me, not my friends

- i can hug people without being scared of them feeling my stomach

- wearing cropped tops

- wearing tight, body forming dresses and clothing

- being looked at and asked if i want something to eat out of concern

- being cold on 30° celsius days

- someone can carry me

- being picked for a lead in a musical

- my school uniform fitting properly

- thigh gap 🤩🤩

- being able to fit both my hands around my leg without having to stretch

- shopping at op shops and being able to wear everything there

- looking like the characters i so often read about in my books

- walking through the house and not making a sound

- rings fitting my fingers

- baggy clothing looking actually good 🥹🥹

Things i’ve noticed naturally sk1nny people do

TW before readingggg: i do not promote any of the habits listed below and i do not know 100% how “naturally sk1nny” ppl live their daily lives these are just things i have noticed from my sk1nny friends and family…

1. picky eaters

they don’t want to try anything new and if they know they don’t like something they won’t e4t/drink it period. This narrows down their food options and limits their di3t to only certain foods.

2. never finishes food & food waste

they stop e4ting when their body is satisfied. they don’t feel the need to stuff themselves and never e4t more their their body tells them to. they always say they’re full and offer the rest of their food to someone else. even if it looks like they buy or order a lot of food they only end up eating 1/2 or 1/4 of it before throwing the rest out.

3. daily exercise or cardio

no matter what they’re doing they always have some kind of exercise included into their daily lifestyle wether that be walking to work or school, shopping sprees, going to the gym or simply exercising at home. no matter what is going on in their day they always have some type of exercise implemented.

4. f4sting

they f4st without realizing. only eating their first meal around mid day which is probably not even a meal just a snack. typically light snacks keep them content throughout the day until their main meal around dinner time.

5. distractions

often naturally sk1nny people forget to e4t because they don’t really care about food. they get distracted by other things that fulfill themselves such as reading a book or drawing, watching a good show, taking long long naps or taking their pets for a walk etc…

end 🫶 thank you for reading!!! likes and reposts are appreciated

I love all of my friends, but sometimes I want to ignore everyone and hide away until I'm skinny

its happening… the honeymoon phase… its come back…