Purified Narcisism

sometimes i talk to the gitagpt chatbot at 3am and dream

Hii you are a dancer too?! What form do you practice?

hiii! firstly i love your writing so much!! and yeee, I've learnt a few styles and danced for a lot of my life, but would mostly consider myself a freestyle/street kinda person:D I'm also comfortable with e.g. bollywood as it's kind of similar to that... ive had a little bit of practice in contemporary and bharatnatyam asw, but I haven't been formally trained in a specific style to a really advanced level. I've found im most comfortable with freestyle/bollywood/street and love to challenge myself!! in the future I aspire to learn kathak:)

and how about you? :)))

just watched rocky aur rani, I'm late ik but rly DIL JEET LIYA BHAI

love love the char dev of the female randhawas and ranveer and alia were so good 😭😭😭 and alia's kathak dad is so good!! all the songs are great too 😭

karan johar rly redeemed himself omg. it was so karan johar but fully appreciated the commentaries omg

okay "prem mandir" is such a sweet and lovely name yk but help ive been corrupted irreversibly and now i just think of salman khan 💀🤢

i cant help it im sorryyyyy 😭😭😭

The year was 1555. Portuguese colonial power was at its peak in the 1500’s. They destroyed Zamorins of Calicut. Defeated the Sultan of Bijapur. Took away Daman from the Sultan of Gujarat, Established a colony in Mylapore, Captured Bombay and made Goa as their headquarters. And while they were at it, pretty much unchallenged, they even ruined the ancient Kapaleeswarar Temple to build a Church over it.

Their next target, the super profitable port of Mangalore.

Their only bad luck, just 14 kilometers south of Mangalore was the small settlement of Ullal - ruled then by a feisty 30 year old woman - RANI ABBAKKA CHOWTA

Initially, they took her lightly and sent a few boats and soldiers to capture and bring her back to Goa - Those boats never came back.

Shocked and enraged, they sent a huge fleet of ships this time, under the command of much celebrated Admiral Dom Álvaro da Silveira - The admiral soon returned, badly injured and empty handed.

Thereafter, another Portuguese fleet was sent - only a few injured from the crew managed to make it back.

Then the Portuguese went on to capture the Mangalore port and the fort anyways, perhaps planning to tackle Rani Abbakka Chowta from the convenient distance of the Mangalore fort.

After the successful capture of Mangalore, a huge army under João Peixoto, an experienced Portuguese General was sent to Ullal.

The brief was simple: Subjugate Ullal and capture Abbakka Chowta.

The plan was foolproof- there was no way a 30 year old lady with a few men could withstand the might of an army of thousands with advanced weapons.

The Portuguese reached Ullal and found it deserted. Abbakka was nowhere in sight.

They roamed around, relaxed and thanked their stars - Just when they were about to call it a victory - Mrs Chowta attacked with 200 of her chosen men - there was chaos all around and many portuguese lost their lives even without a fight

General João Peixoto was assassinated, 70 Portuguese were captured and the rest just ran away.

So if you’re Abbakka Chowta, who’s just defeated a large army of aggressors, killed a general, captured fighters and defended her city - What will you do?

- Rest and enjoy the moment right?

- Right?

- No!

Rani Abbakka Chowta, rode with her men towards Mangalore that same night, and laid a siege of the Mangalore fort - She not just broke inside the fort successfully - but assassinated Admiral Mascarenhas the Chief of the Portuguese power there and forced the remaining Portuguese to vacate the fort.

She didn’t just stop at this but went on to even capture the Portuguese settlement at Kundapura, a full 100 kms, north of Mangalore - Just to make a point.

The Portuguese finally managed to get back at Abbakka Chowta by convincing her estranged husband, to betray for money. She was arrested and put in the prison where she revolted again and was killed while trying to escape.

Abbakka Chowta was a Jain who fought against the Portuguese for four decades, with an army comprising of both Hindus and Muslims, a full 300 years before the First War of Indian Independence in 1857.

What did we Indians do to her, as a mark of our respect and gratitude? - We just forgot her.

We didn’t name our girls after her. We didn’t even teach her stories to our kids.

Yes we did release a Postal Stamp in her name, named a boat after her and erected 2 statues - yes just 2 statues in the whole of India for someone who should be our national hero.

The Indian Coast Guard ship ICGS Rani Abbakka the 1st of a series of five inshore patrol vessels built at Hindustan Shipyard Ltd is named after Abbakka Mahadevi.

We might have got to read a chapter about her in our text books, had she been a European or an American.

Many talk about her being the last Indian to have the power of the agni-ban. In all this cacophony, our generation has lost a great hero - a great source of inspiration.

Still wondering why you’ve not heard about her yet?

(My desperate and sad prayer.)

I…

I pray…

I pray for Israel.

I pray for Palestine.

I pray for all of us now.

And if you condemn me for taking sides,

or judge me for not taking sides,

then maybe you don’t understand

the depths of this love.

Because love itself is the prayer.

And the one who prays.

And the longing and the light.

And the darkness and the answer.

And so I pray for you too.

For all of your conflicting parts.

For all the children fighting within you.

And I pray for you to know

the Consciousness prior to identity.

I pray for you to know

the I Am itself.

Before I am a Palestinian.

Before I am an Israeli.

Before I am Jewish, Muslim, Christian, Buddhist, Hindu, or an atheist.

Before division itself.

Before any notion of God or her absence.

Before time.

Before all of this began.

Before the world,

the joy and the sorrow of living.

Before territory and history.

I am what you are.

I am your rage, your grief, your loneliness.

Your fear. Your vulnerable heart.

Your powerlessness. Your shaking.

And through these non-dual eyes,

perhaps we can finally love each other.

In spite of our beliefs.

In spite of our ancient rage and our lust for revenge.

In spite of religion.

In spite of what the holy books

tell us to think.

You are my brother.

My sister.

My child.

My mother.

My father.

I pray for love to permeate the world.

Before it’s too late.

I pray for awakening.

I pray for Palestine.

I pray for Israel.

Before it’s too late.

I pray for all the children.

All the babies.

All the mothers and fathers.

Sisters and brothers.

Friends and enemies.

I pray for the end of hostilities.

Before it’s too late.

I pray for all those who are scared right now.

I pray that my small, sad prayer helps in some way.

Even in some small way.

Even in some tiny way.

I pray for you.

I pray for me.

I pray for us.

I pray…

I…

- Jeff Foster

Sri Krishna and the Cowherd Boys

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#krishna #krsna #gopa #gopas #cowherdboys #vrindavan #cows #friends #friendship #lila #sakhya #sakhyarasa #rasa #blue #forest #flute #yoga #bhaktiyoga

माँ।❤️

love the bit that says he is everything yet nothing <3

Krishna is beautiful. Krishna is love. Krishna is gentle. Krishna is the little mischievous darling boy of Vrindavan. Krishna is the flute-playing sweetheart of the Gopis. Krishna is the solace of the cows and his cowherder friends. Krishna is a thief- stealing away mākhan and hearts from every home in Vrindavan.

Krishna is all this. Krishna was all this for as long as he stayed in Gokul-Vrindavan. Later on...

Krishna is the Yugpurush of Aryavarta. Krishna, the slayer of Kamsa is the fearsome Chakradhar. Krishna the husband of Lakshmi-swaroopa Rukmini is Yogeshwar. Krishna is the protector of Draupadi and the Pandavas. Krishna is the invincible Charioteer of Arjuna. Krishna is Nārāyan. Krishna is Pārabramh.

He is all this too and again, He is not bound in any of these roles. He is everything and nothing at the same time. Nirākar-Nirguna and Sākar-Saguna. Krishna is what his devotees need him to be. He is Eternal and Endless.

Krishna is the universe and beyond. He is vast and yet in my heart Krishna is just the gentle flute-playing darling of Gopis. Little bundle of Yashoda's joy. Yugpurush and Parambramh and Dwarkadheesh he might be for entite Aryavarta- but for Braj he is the little boy running around, the one who got tied up to the ookhal by Ma Yashoda, the one who ate dirt and bathed in river Yamuna. He is just their little Krishna, their Joy and bliss. Nothing more, nothing less.

okay my brainrot song rn is VE KAMLEYA REDUX and the lyrics are also so relatable to me why 😭😭