Having A Bit Of A Philosophical/existential Crisis...

having a bit of a philosophical/existential crisis...

I've always been a seeker of truth, a philosopher, sometimes beyond my own good. there comes a time when I don't know what to accept or follow as my truth.

Shri Keshav says in Bhagavad-Gita that he meets anyone where they want to meet him. but how am I meant to know in which form I want to meet him? is it Shri Krishna, Rama, or even those such as Lord Shiva, Jesus, etc. ?

I feel very much attached to Shri Krishna but how am I meant to reconcile the truth of absolutely everything, with the love for a Keshava who dances and enjoys and is merry among his sakhis and sakhas? how do I reconcile these identities. how do I reconcile the innumerable forms He takes for himself to approach all of us and touch our hearts, and choose the one that is for me? or is it simply just the form of the unknowable, infinite, Supreme being. but then how may I love him for his heart-pulling qualities and get personally attached to his form?

sry lol a bit diff to what I usually post...

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To the mahabharat characters, which type of high school student would you be?(design your own high school au)

Draupadi: The Head Girl —

men slayer

doesn't allow bullying; arranges self defence classes

pays for canteen food with no hesitation

[high-five with Krishna and Satyabhama]

human embodiment of the fire emoji

But never, we repeat, never get into an argument with her. “You wanna fight me? How about I see you in detention while you are talking to the walls?”

Yudhishthir: The Head Boy —

nobody likes, but he was the best option for the head boy, so here we are.

a+ in everything except common-fucking-sense

gambled away his head boy badge once on Duryodhan's insistence; Draupadi helped him get another one form the staff room

talks a lot in civics classes, even the teacher wants him to shut up

desperately making sure he replaces the school equipments his brothers broke

“The rules were made for a reason” are his magic words whenever uttered by him, made everyone roll their eyes hard enough to see their brains.

Duryodhan: The Jerk —

*sits in Yudhishtir' chair* I was here first

he is only popular because his father is the principal

body building competition with Bheem

*looks at Karna* [mitra intensifies]

founder of the Duryodhan Should Be The Head Boy club

Minor inconvenience: *occurs*

Duryodhan: my father will hear about this!

Bheem: The Muscle Man —

Draupadi owns his heart

a total softie on the inside; gives best bear hugs

[casually lifting people and racing down the halls]

probably has a YouTube channel based on both food and fitness.

accident prone.

“Uh, what do we have for lunch?” he asks, as he does bench push ups.

Dushasan: Self Proclaimed Bad Boy —

but really he's just a pervert

first member of the Duryodhan Should Be The Head Boy club

[cries in bhrata shri duryodhan] when Bheem sets him straight for passing lewd remarks on Draupadi

family disappointment, even when the standards are really low

has been kicked in the balls the most out of anyone on campus.

“Have you all seen Mohini’s new post? I could jack of-” [Vikarna ductaped his mouth]

Arjun: The Hot Soccer Player™ —

somehow good at everything else too

does kathak in his free time; has poster of both Birju Maharaj and Messi in his room

romantic af

proposed to Draupadhi in fifth standard on fancy day competition; they're still close friends

constant self doubt and soccer practice

secretly watches rom-com with Krishna; cries while watching kuch kuch hota hai

It's a well known fact that Arjun has severe anxiety and the only person who can calm him down is Krishna. If he goes too long without seeing him, he starts panicking. “Has anyone seen Krishna? I haven’t him since this morning and it’s worrying me-”

Karna: The Soccer Scholarship Kid —

brags so much about his hardwork and ordeals that he irritates everyone.

[inferiority complex] — is it because I am a scholarship kid?

h a t e s Arjun

✨ abandonment issues✨ probably needs to see the counselor

vice president of the Duryodhan Should Be The Head Boy club

“Of course, I am the best player on the team, Arjun who?” some girls agree with him, probably that's why there is a print of his shirtless instagram post in the third floor girls washroom . . . or maybe he put it up himself; either way the girls appreciate it!

Nakul: The Charming Guitar Player —

sings Shawn Mendes' song better than Shawn Mendes

every girl on campus has a crush (of varying degree) on him

runs to the library when people are too much, and pokes Sahdev until he starts an unofficial TED Talk on something new he learned

late night shopping sprees with Sahdev to wreak havoc in the mall

they look at everything, buy eccentric fashion, and terrorize the night staff

“Oh, I am nothing special,” he says before striking a cord on his guitar like that of a musical genius.

Sahdev: The Super Cute Science Nerd —

loves info-dumpimg

groans at the beginning of every shopping spree, but secretly enjoys it; his favourite part is scaring the guard.

alone time™ in the library + black coffee; only Nakul is allowed to disturb

once a nerd wrote him a love letter filled with science jokes in red ink and he fainted because he thought it was blood

s l e e p d e p r i v a t i o n

He is famous for that one time he had an argument with the chemistry professor — “Sorry Sir, I guess I’ll just-” [proceeds to throw dry sodium in the washing sink still full of water]

Ashwathama: The Loyal Sidekick —

invented daddy issues

amazing at soccer but doesn't get as much limelight as Arjun and Karna

thinks he should be the president of the Duryodhan Should Be The Head Boy club; but is only a respectable member

incharge of getting Dushasan out of trouble

has a secret crush on duryodhan

It is rumoured that he once sneaked out in the wee hours of night and stood in line for five hours to get limited edition friendship bands for Duryodhan; the latter loved it so much he gave it to Karna.

Krishna: The God Student (No, Seriously) —

walks in like he runs the school; which he kinda does

no one is absent on the day of maths double period because they get to see more of Krishna-Shakuni banter

b e s t c u r l y h a i r

his flute brings all the girls and boys to the backyard 

[laughs at how stupid everyone is]

sings tujhse naraz nahi zindagi for Arjun when he asks stupid questions

helps at the local animal shelter

you will find him in the music room with a certain someone, playing flute, at odd times

can sing, dance, act and top all of his classes at the same time

On Krishna's sixteenth birthday everyone from not only his section, but his standard as well, gathered — he thought they will sing happy birthday and make him feel like a baby but the sang roop tera mastana, he smiled the entire time; Arjun organised this singing session.

Rukmini: The Hopeless Romantic —

has a secret rebel side to her

[heart eyes for Krishna]

has an overprotective brother who follows her everywhere, and still somehow looses her

ew, Shishupal!

the best baker in the campus

“No, Rukmi can be a nice person, I swear,” she says while shaking her head and mouthing a big ‘NO ’

Satyabhama: The Haughty Girl's Soccer Team Captain —

men slayer 2.0

superiority complex

a total sweetheart when you get to know her though

boys are attracted and terrified of her at the same time; she loves it!

[kisses Krishna on the mouth in front of the whole cafeteria]

“I am the best soccer player Arjun and Karna can shove their pathetic act up” well, she isn't lying, you know

Radha: The Girl We Don't Know —

close friends with Krishna

goes to a school; but you can find her hangout in the back of the campus for some reason

mystery girl

friends with Subhadra; only they can play successful pranks on Krishna. . . only because he let's it happen

[nervous smiles]

The school Radha goes to once had a inter-school competition with ours where somehow Radha and Krishna ended up dancing together — their chemistry might have blinded some people

Balram: The Mom Friend —

managing his and Krishna’s notes at once

in dire need of a break; Krishna won’t let him have one

“both of them are punks, I am not choosing sides!”

famously known as Dau Lipa; ever since someone left a note in his locker

angry young man who is only soft for his siblings and his college going girlfriend

"Krishna? Oh, he is a great brother” he says, while trying not to burst into tears.

Subhadra: The Sweetheart —

the female baby version of Krishna

[mischief intensifies]

everybody dotes on her

expert in zoology

furious blushing in front of Arjun

It is said that if you so much as whisper “Arjun is coming” in Subhadra's general direction, she gets red in the face and starts twitching in her place “I am being perfectly normal” she says, while being anything but normal.

Mohini: The Enchantress —

twin sister to Krishna

only visits occasionally, to sweep everyone off their feet

has twenty Instagram accounts

[laughs at how easy it is to make fools out of boys]

deserves background music

“I need coffee” [boys falling over each other to get her coffee first] “I changed my mind, get me black tea now” [the entire process continues]

Rukmi: The Dude With A Glare —

always hanging out with Shishupal

doesn't know how, when, where, and against whom to pick his battles with

romance novels enthusiast

secretly runs a match making website; but always pairs the wrong people

is a total control freak

Satyabhama once accidentally hit Rukmi in the shin with a soccer ball after she heard him scolding Rukmini for her clothing choices; he cried for two hours straight

Shishupal: The Rude Boy Nicki Minaj is Always Talking About In Her Songs —

always hanging out with Rukmi

doesn't know when to shut up

runs an anonymous confession account, but everyone knows half of the 'confessions' are his own due of his Krishna-hate and obsession with Rukmini

walking/talking headache

[hate speech intensifies]

Once he was assigned to give a speech about ethics in class and somehow he ended up connecting the topic with Krishna — went off tangent, spewing hate and accidentally made an inappropriate joke, which landed him a two week long suspension; Krishna only smiled!

Eklavya: The Underdog —

[cries in under appreciation]

economically poor background; got into this school through his sheer hardwork

exceptional at soccer; but coach Drona never takes him in team

there's a rumour that coach tried to jeopardise his career for some big plan

[looks longingly at the soccer field]

Human Embodiment of the YA "my plan was to keep my head down at make it through the senior year. . . until him" trope but the 'him' is actually coach Drona, and he's trying to ruin Eklavya's entire career oh my God, somebody save him—

Jayadrath: Self Proclaimed Bad Boy 2.0 —

really just a bad person

holds a grudge against Arjun, because he whooped his ass for passing lewd remarks on Draupadi

bullies little children

also a member of the Duryodhan Should Be The Head Boy club

wouldn't let Dushala break up with him

Legend has it that the mirror in his dorm room has a big sticky note pasted on it which read “I am hotter than Arjun”; he looks at it first thing in the morning.

Dushala: The Cutie Pie —

illustration and origami artisté

buys cute dresses from esty

embarrassed sister of Duryodhan and Dushasan

dating and hating Jayadrath

is hundred percent closeted lesbian

She runs a secret service where she makes little birthday cards and leaves them in the locker of the students who don't have friends; wait. . . how does she know their locker codes?!

Vikarna: The Nice Guy —

drinks eight glasses of respect women juice every day

protective of his little sister; why don't you just break up with Jaydrath?

jai to Yuyustu's viru

feels stuck in the Duryudhan Should Be The Head Boy club but loves his brother

[roams with duct tape everywhere to shut Dushasan's mouth]

He is a shy kid but he called out a Supervisor Teacher in front of whole school in assembly; because they were scolding girl for not wearing a ghaghra

Yuyustu: The Embarrassed Sibling —

is Duryodhan's half brother

the only guy left uninjured after duryudhan and his gang got involved in a bigo'll fight

bought a vespa and had a side car installed in it for sholay aesthetics

is the Yudhishthir of this group but has brain cells and morals both instead of just morals

viru to Vikarna's jai

He shares Vikarna's desire to beat the shit out of his brothers; but doesn't restraints himself like Vikarna.


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honestly at this point i think ppl just find reasons to discriminate :(

like,, literally if the women in the time of even shri krishna couldn't escape it...

Ok one thing they don't show on screen of Mahabharat Adaptation is Draudapi was “Rajasvala” meaning “a menstruating woman” when the whole cheer-haran happened.

At that time, a Rajavala used to wear one single cloth or “Ekvastra”, so when the horrific vastra-haran began, it was that vastra that turned to a never-ending miracle.

Ok One Thing They Don't Show On Screen Of Mahabharat Adaptation Is Draudapi Was “Rajasvala” Meaning

One thing that I also noticed is how there's now this disgusting taboo that a woman is "impure" during her period, but Kanha ji listened and he came to her rescue when she called. He turned that same blood-stained cloth never-ending just to save her honor!

I wish this taboo will go away because God is in You so how can you ever be “Impure” especially experiencing something very natural and perhaps healthy too? He would've come to her rescue whether she was menstruating or not, but I love this detail because this signifies that nothing makes a difference to him, so why are we making women feel bad or worse "impure" in the name of God when not even God feels this way?


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j had such a horrible few days :(

So I was just a little sad couple of days ago and all of a sudden I had this one thought and it changed my mood completely. And now it does everytime whenever I'm down.

I was sad and then I thought that this is the same earth on which shree krishan came with Radha Rani. Idk and idc whether you understand what I'm trying to say but thinking of it like this just makes me feel so privileged. That I'm on same earth where Shree Krishan came, we are here now where Shree Krishan had already been. And since we have got this life as humans it's already a miracle because we are so privileged that we got to know about Shree Krishan "the karta dharta of this universe" it's magical. And the another thing is knowing the fact that shree Hanuman ji is also here around us somewhere. I mean like these thoughts just change my whole mood. I automatically feel blessed thinking about all this.

THIS IS AMAZING FAM!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!! 🥹🥹💙💙💙💙💙

After seeing @stardustkrishnaverse 's post about how our Kanha shares our grief and helps us to overcome them, I just wanna share this incident where this EXACT thing happened with me.

So, many of you may be aware that I've gotten into the Western dance society of my college. Soooo yeah. It was time to contribute to the funds. After doing so, you become official members of the society.

Now, here's a thing about my family: Dancing is not seen as something deserving of respect. Especially Western dance forms.

Sooo yeah, naturally my mom revolted. Like, how I'd spoil my academics for something insignificant, how I'd side-line my academics for my passion and stuff. I don't blame her. But then again, the fact that she just assumed I wouldn't be able to juggle the two things together hurt me.

In my childhood, I was barred from learning to dance at the age of eight because my father hated dancing (He still does). Since then till now, I have never asked them to let me dance professionally. And now when I had this golden opportunity, I was being asked to just let it go.

It may not seem like a big deal, but it WAS a VERY big deal for me.

I tried making my mom understand, but then she threw the final weapon, "Talk to your father".

And I knew it was impossible to make him understand. So, I just considered all my paths leading me to dead ends. I felt so freaking lost, I just cried my heart out. Then I legit called for Keshav. I requested him, more like begged him, from all my heart to help me through this mess. Like, I just simply surrendered.

And help he did. I texted my father about the situation. He called me the next day and talked to me about how I would handle both academics and dance and then he agreed for me to join the society officially.

A man who is simply repulsed at the idea of dancing agrees for his daughter to join a Western dance society.

Now tell me my Keshav isn't right beside me 24/7, listening to all my problems and waiting for me to ask for his help. From that day on, I feel more than reassured and loved knowing that my sakha is there for me every single moment <3


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WE DID DAHI HANDI AT OUR LOCAL JANMASHTAMI FESTIVAL IT WAS SO FUN!!!!!!

I WAS AT THE BOTTOM CIRCLE and everyone was cheering so hard as ppl climbed on top of us

and the song "go go govinda" was blasting on the speakers

and when we broke the matki the inside buttermilk fell all over us

AND THEN WE ALL STARTED JUMPING AND CHEERING AND GOING "AY AY AY AY"

OMG i felt so connected with shri govinda and his gopas and with everyone around me asw 😭😭💙💙💙💙

thank yu for the experience kanhaaaaaa 🥰


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Listen my dear sakhi,

Krishna wanted to tell this to you ( really big secret I am telling you 🤫)

He was right by your side as your knee holding you when you were crying,

He was right by your side as the dog/cat nearby showing his love towards you,

He was the sun in all your "sun kissed" moments adoring how beautiful you look

He was the random stranger who once complemented you which you were thinking about all day, because he wanted you to know you are so precious and he always loves you

He chose you first, you are never his second choice,

He always hears your silent prayers, for he hears even the faintest footstep of an ant

He knows. Trust him.

Act as bravely as you would if he is holding your hand right there with you, cuz he is. Even if you can't sense it just yet

Trust me, he wants the same too - he wants to hold your hands, run away where the it's only you and him, he wants to hear all your ramblings while he makes your hair

And he's working towards it, each and everything that is happening is bringing you closer to him, he's waiting for the day where you could completely be into him so he can experience all those things that you have day dreamed about

Trust the process, trust him 🦚💙🦚💙🦚💙


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I think we don't talk much about this trio!

Balram, Krishna, Subhadra !!!!

The most iconic sibling trio in Hindu myths!!!

Ugh look at my man Balram giving his iconic angry look but he is a softie from the inside! And Krishna, like always, smiling and looking oh so gorgeous! And look at Subhadra lying over her two brothers' legs, ugh such a queen!

The most beautiful!!

I Think We Don't Talk Much About This Trio!

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