*staring at a framed picture of me as a kid in my parents living room*
Mom says it's my turn with the guilt
If I surround myself in every beautiful thing
And make them my sole anchors
If they adorn my skin and cling
To the deepest confines of my pores,
Then maybe i'll be one,
Maybe i'll be one
What is the sea, and what are its waves ? It flows, bile in my mouth - all hands on deck !
My mind’s in high tide and my tired heart caves
Inside my salt-spiked bones, my old ribbed shipwreck. Is it true that the world will be doomed when it boils ? My blood bubbles and roars and gushes through gorges
As sea serpents gorge themselves, my soul tight in their coils
The water hisses and fusses like a sword maker forges
And cools the red iron in the dark doubtful depths. My own surface, blurred, clouds and sparkles and spits. My face, my stomach churns, which tilts my ship and steps
My eyes, sleek sea glass cry again, and my tattered tooth grits
The chapped sun-dried shore of my pouty, shut lips. In my hollow clammy chest I feel things clank and crash
And my threatening thoughts are such perilous trips
They’re unmapped ; I get out with a bang and get out with a splash. Though now my tumbled brain’s encrusted in a pearl
As I’ve held it close and I’ve soothed it harshly. The sailors - my neurons - mind the ballots they hurl
So my mind washes up jewel-like fish, lively
And metallic. Then the wind of my cries’ settling
I tame my high horse and Kelpies stop the race Like my pulse. Sweetened, the sirens sing
And lulled, my psyche, the blade, dulls, turns to grace. I can rest, still sailing, though sea-sick
And tell the storm’s tale to my old friend the moon
Who crowns my velvet skies with the starlight’s pinprick
And whispers through my masts “Goodbye and sea you soon”
little original poem of which i submitted a shortened form to a contest
ah yes, the two types of monster drinkers :
I know what I offer my body as its fuel is its very poison. To have but a shard of my organism's potential at the tips of my fingers, so close I could reach it, I am willing to let a thousand dying suns pour themselves in my veins.
and
Sparkle ma ke me. sparkli
Genuinly in love with this candid shot my friend took in the grocery store yesterday with her dying IPhone 5 that creates a halo with lighting
Quick fem!Castiel cosplay i threw together as a new fan of the show :>
remember kids
『可哀相に』(2022)
A peek at my 1yo Fem!Azi cosplay to motivate myself to wear it again and take pics with an actual camera