Hell Yeah, Let's Go Genderfluid FISH

am i tripping or is that deuce on trial 😭 😭

i just realized how little my replies to the comments of my "kalim-and-grim-moment-post" do in regards to supporting my love for kalim..

so here's an obligatory kalim post, bcz he deserves all the love ^^

Side Note:

IM SO SORRY MY PRECIOUS BOY I SWEAR I DONT THINK THAT YOU SHOULD BE TRAUMATIZED I JUST DONT TALK ABOUT THINGS I LIKE IN A MENTALLY SANE WAY 😭😭😭

ACE NEW BIRTHDAY CARD!!!1!1!11 ❤️

Another addition to the new slumber wear collection!!! I feel like the hoodie is a very ace choice, but I also think he's the kinda person who would go to bed wearing nothing but his boxers and socks 💀

Edit: I think his groovy is adorable, it's so funny to see him frantically scramble out of bed because he overslept, get out of bed dummy!! I also like how he looks without his heart makeup! (the fact that he walks around in only sandals though.. 😭)

Side Note:

this totally means that the dream of the "sexy furry robe and the grandpa nightgown" meme is still possible 😭😭😭

this event is so goofy bro 😭

craziest fever dream ever 😭

Note: I just found a fanart of this scene on pinterest and it's the GREATEST THING EVER IM CRYING

THEIR FACES ARE SO GOOD- JAMIL LOOKS SO DONE WITH THIS SHIT AND GRIM IS JUST A LITTLE GUY CLINGING TO SEBEK WITH ALL HIS MIGHT 💀

(this art is NOT mine, credit to @5vyqMf2ItTU936W on twitter)

lowkey been so burnt out tryna get my life together with counceling and therapy, wondering if i should touch up on all the cards i didn't post about over the past month 😭😭 (trein ssr, malleus birthday sleepwear, floyd and jamil new year groovies)

So.. about Jamil's dream..

(spoilers for chapter 7 scarabia stuff under the cut!!)

Everyone's been talking about how much it would hurt to be punched by Kalim with his bangles and jewelry on, but can we talk about the SOUND? like im just realizing that their fight during book 7 probably sounded an awful lot like this 💀:

"YOU A**HOLE, I HATE HOW TWO FACED YOU ARE!!"

*jingle jingle* 

"YOU JUST REALIZED IT NOW HUH, YOU INSENSITIVE B*STARD?!!"

*jingle jingle jingle*

"DONT WORRY ABOUT THAT YOU SARCASTIC IDIOT!!"

*the sound of jingling intensifying*

I get between the shouting and all, you wouldn't be able to hear it all that well, but I would be trying so hard not to laugh if I heard the the equivalent of "keys! keys!! *aggressive keychain shaking*" play out while i watched somebody deck their best friend in the face 😭

do y'all see this.

THIS MAN. THIS MAN FR JUMPED OUT OF SOME DARK GOTHIC ROMANCE OTOME GAME- BC THIS HAND KISSING ACTION IS LOWKEY CRAZ 💀

this man is so bold to be doing all that to some randos he met in the woods 😭 genuine gojo behavior (note: did he kidnap them??)

Here's all the other characters reactions btw: (credit to fleurism on yt)

im so mentally ill BUT I PROMISE I WONT RANT ONLY ABOUT THE SCARABIA DUO'S TRAUMA IN HERE..

... that being said... (god i'm awful)

Seeing that we see Jamil's childhood and all his memories of being told to be subordinate, it's safe to say that Jamil is less affected by dissociative amnesia, aka traumatic-memory-repressing.

However, does this mean that even though he probably has some repressed memories about his childhood and traumatic experiences, he also remembers some of them?

What if he's the only one who really knows what Kalim has been through? But because of their tragic relationship, he's unable to admit that he feels sorry for Kalim, because in some sense (THAT HE'S TECHNICALLY RIGHT ABOUT), Kalim is the reason for his trauma too.

Both him and Kalim were never able to have normal childhoods, but beyond normalizing this idea, they both struggle to accept the fact that they didn't have it worse than the other.

Kalim deals with this struggle more easily, as you see him developing these realizations through out the main story line, like in book 5 - 30. In fact, he almost immediately forgoes this idea after Jamil stops overblotting, offering Jamil a choice that takes his traumatic past into consideration, while allowing them to still continue a relationship of some sorts. Meanwhile, Jamil has had less/little development on this. He did have a really nice moment in book 5-10 talking to Azul, but other than that, I really haven't seen more moments of his development, which I find rather disappointing on twst's part. I'd really like a nice moment, whether between Jamil and someone else (like the MC), or maybe even between him and Kalim, where he does atleast acknowledge this idea (Kalim having trauma) without compromising the truth that he has also been wronged.

In the end, I doubt this will ever happen, but a girl can dream.. I atleast wish that the fans wouldn't make their relationship in the fandom competitive in regards to "who's-more-traumatized". This isn't a debate, there doesn't need to be a right answer.

OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD YALL-

HE LOOKS SO GOOD BRO IM ABOUT TO CRY AND THROW UP HES SOOO FINE PLEASE ONE CHANCE 😭🙏🙏 AND OMG THE LIGHTING ON THIS CARD IS SO GOOD AHABDSJFAKF 😭😭😭

THE GOODEST BOY 😭😭

HIS CARDIGAN IS SO ADORABLE AND THE MESSY HAIR?? HE'S SO SCRUNKLY IN THIS PHOTO I WANT TO ROUGH HIM UP (affectionately) i'm loving this new set of twst birthday cards bro

Edit: Groovied Version!!

we were totally robbed of jack brushing his fluffy tail though-