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the dynamic between the judge and the kid is very reminiscent of an abusive parent and their child to me, especially when its viewed from the lens of punishment. besides the judge's insistence that he wouldve been like a father to the kid, it can also be interpreted that the judge perceives the kid's rejection of his philosophy and his place in it as a sign of disobedience, and so to "correct" this perceived disobedience the judge chooses to punish the kid harshly, which comes in the form of whatever violent act occurs in the outhouse. the violence committed towards the kid there is the accumulation of the judge's frustration towards his insubordinance in rejecting his place within his ideology, and it functions as the correction of the judge's worldview in eliminating the very element that refutes it. this punishment feels foreshadowed by the jail scene, which introduces the element of accountability in the judge blaming the kid for the yuma massacre and then berating him for his adherence to his morality and his rejection of the judge that comes with it. i think its of note how he focuses on the kid's supposed transgression and places accountability on him for their conflict ("our animosities were formed and waiting before ever we two met. yet even so you could have changed it all") and the frustration that results from it on the judge's end evolves into the fate that awaits the kid in the outhouse, the punishment. it reads as a shafting of accountability from the judge to the kid that goes on to justify what was done to him, a la "you made me do this", similar to how some abusive parents will use some transgression, real or not, to justify the abuse of their child

theres way more to it in my mind and my thoughts be kinda scattered but this is the basic jist of it😇

#164

i need the judge to carnally and metaphysically rip me the FUCK apart. like enter me and make me explode like a goddamn supernova split me into atoms so I meet the Maker itself please you fascinating horrible incarnation of war itself

#89

had to

Literally me (pls someone save me from myself)

in the most literal sense, i need to be embraced by the judge’s immense and terrible flesh. i need to push my face between his man tits, feel his big ol arms & his dainty little hands wrap around me, and just be swallowed by the darkness of his black oilskin coat. or he could just be half-naked like usual, idgaf. him crushing my spine is a need methinks.

#107

Yall know the mission "My Last Boy"? Yeah the one where Dutch sends a bunch of the native Americans to their deaths, the one where Arthur leads Dutch to the money, the one where Arthur gets steam blown in the face, where Dutch leaves him and he would have died if it wasn't for Eagle Flies? Yeah that one. Arthur isn't paid anything for that mission.

Instead we are given a little message saying "the other half is split between the gang members who worked the job" meaning Dutch does not think Arthur contributed in that mission.He killed all those folk, he fought, he almost died and he showed Dutch the location of the money, yet he didn't get anything because he didn't work it apparently.

When discussing Micah's introduction, a lot of poeple talk a lot about him looking like a villian, and he does, but personally I am a lover of the fact you are immediately greeted with his ideals. He is not hiding it, he is not even trying to justify himself. You are just immediately greeted with the fact that he is not too fond of the others.

"Huddled around a fire waiting for daddy to put food on the table" is certianly a memorable line that sets the tone for who he is and how different he is from Arthur. There is a very distinct contast between the two that is just immediately handed to you, which I find to be fantastic writing.

For the first time in two years, I decided to read something and came across a book that feels like a rollercoaster. The villain, Judge, definitely plays his role brilliantly in this story, but when it comes to his actions...

I made this sketch after the first chapter, so there's only a sunset here and nothing more. (I got really confused with the colors because they look different everywhere, so I hope it didn’t turn into a colorful mess for you. :'D)

SA victims are allowed to be sexy. they are allowed to enjoy having sex. they aren't doomed to a life of never being confident enough to have sex again and i don't understand why people think that's the best narrative for them.

holden IS the evening redness in the west. the bloodshed he brings. his eyes. all of it. holden is the blood meridian and thats why the kid can never escape him bc u cant outrun the sky

Blood Meridian Illustration

“He never sleeps, the judge. He is dancing, dancing. He says that he will never die.” ― Cormac McCarthy

Digital Illustration, 2025

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