So tell me
how can you
love someone
and don't care at all?
melted chocolate in your eyes, a steady fire reflecting your soul, your blushing lips, a bed of a beard, your waterfall hair tangling mine, a velvet smile, an alluring glimpse, my heartbeat in sync with your breath, fast spoken words, soft and sweet, you are mine and I am yours
I love how your eyes shine in the dawn and the inner child you never hide I love the way your fingers play with mine how you kiss my feet, how you bite my toe I love how your lashes frame your eyes and how your sun-kissed face has a golden shine I love how your voice carries a scent of stars how you and I feel like venus and mars I love how I hate to feel your breath at night and how I yet hide in your arms from all the dreams I fight
the inner child you made me save so yours and mine can always play and whoever you shall be in the next year or the ones coming I will always love you with all the strength my heart can offer you leo beauty, my water eyes, I am yours and you are mine
I desired to learn so many things
Like trusting, instead of searching affection in your night sky eyes
Like loving, instead of rushing only to control and not to lose
Like healing, instead of hurting myself and everyone I feel around
Like being thankful, instead of sorry for all the words which leave my mouth
Like living, instead of dying with every day I waste for nothing
Like living, like living like living time as easy as you do
Why do you feel so alive?
When will appear the day where I am finally ready to open my eyes? Stop hiding from days, months, years which I apologize with "Today is just one of the other kind"
Where I will stop dividing days into "this kind" and "good kind"
Where I won't fear falling asleep because of how terrifying it feels waking up and living without changes
Where driving home won't feel like an obstacle I can't overcome but end up panicking every Sunday all over it again
Where I am ready to open my eyes and perceive the colors of the world swallow them and start to see what I am missing by holding my eyes closed
I don’t want to be your drunk text romance. I don’t want to hear your confession of love at 1 a.m when you are drunk and lost in your feelings of loneliness and desperation. I don’t want to be loved the way you love me whenever you feel like it. I don’t want to be loved because you want to love someone and I am the only one around. I want to be loved because you love me not because you think you do.
another night has taken my heart, ripped it out of my hollow chest, to feed it to the moon and her shining children stars
this easy I've lost my heart, as easy as I did with you. oh baby I've been bagging you to forget our unspoken words. silence hurts differently and I know mine burns the worst
I have become a monster, rough claws, a hateful voice, green eyes, red lips, cold bones. are you ready to fight my demon? because oh baby, I have already lost the war
the past; a secure space I hold in my mind easiness laid on our skin now it is dust we got old in just a couple of months I miss these new felt days where kisses lasted for hours a new touch opened a new thirst our smile reflected in each other eyes we used to find passion in an old bed and dirty sheets Yet today; the present promises pain, we found insanity in the soulmates we tried to be
"Distance is pain"
you said
So I told you
that someday
we would be together
and "someday" would bring
the brightest stars
and the deepest talks
A little infinity
in our little amount
of time
Honey, you want to heal? forget the ugly words and the things he did how he blew out the candle and you found yourself lost as the light faded away
Honey, you want to move on? Let go of the past and the “I love you”s you shared Take back the person you gifted the time you shared Take back everything you don’t want him to keep
Honey, you want to live again? Leave the sadness you found after love and start all over again Find love in yourself and the things you enjoyed Make room in your mind by throwing him out Find comfort in being alone
Honey, is that what you want? Healing, moving on and living? Because the truth is, it’s all in your hands but you rather remain in your situation Do you fear that the pain it takes to let it go would be more hurting than the pain you are currently in?
Honey, you won’t heal by rereading and relistening old text messages and voice mails You won’t move on by asking the universe for a call from him You won’t live again by reliving the memories you saved in your mind
You won’t find yourself by searching him
Honey, stop it, Stop procrastinating on the future Stop hurting yourself with the past Don’t throw yourself away It’s your love where you will find yourself again Not his
It’s you where you will gain the power from to heal move on and live again
I want to discover freedom rename the emptiness inside of my mind I start to understand that nobody ever said emptiness had to be filled to enjoy, to feel, to be it`s only an assumption a comforting picture the feeling of feeling fulfilled. we are used to fix and fill and fit get uncomfortable around unknown, around space because we desire comfort which isn’t freedom in the first place so at the end of the day how can we feel free when we try to fill ourselves only to avoid the void inside of us Isn't it the empty blue sky which let the sun enlight the day? Isn't it the open dark sky which let the moon guard the night? why don't we use the free space and instead of calling it emptiness let’s call it freedom instead of calling it loneliness let’s call it independence instead of searching let's call it finding
about thoughts, time, losing and finding, feeling and living, falling and healing and of course bittersweet love♡
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