Calne Ca :3

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Dazai NO

that one twt trend that was going around but w/ femchuu <33

An old piece I was very proud of (and still am)

atsushi is actually the most relatable character in bsd because i, too, have a dazai osamu in my brain who speaks to me when things get bad

Doodled catboy Poe because why not

Happy birthday to the ADA's full-time mother ✨

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Nakajima Atsushi...and the slow steps it takes to fully believe in yourself. A lot of stories have the main character go through some deep monologue that ends with a boost of bravery and "I still have a long way to go"/"even if I fall I will get up again" message by the end, and that's not a bad thing at all. However, with atsushi it's so important to have a deeply wounded character who selfishly wants to hide and survive slowly take the steps needed to believe in his own heart.

A lot of people criticized atsushi for being too cowardly and whiny to be a protagonist, they remind me of the people in my life who rush me into "getting better", wanting him to develop at a pace faster than he can manage. but to me it's comforting to know that he acts like most of us. We are always afraid and full of doubts in life, sticking to much easier routes and bsd doesn't immediately condemn you for it. It's comforting to know that these slow, staggering steps are both normal and achievable, that you can find confidence at your own pace.

Thank you atsushi for being the main character ever.

NIKOLAI 💕