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"๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐จ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ข๐ง' ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฐ?"
๐๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐๐ก๐ซ๐๐: ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ซ๐ค๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐๐๐ซ๐จ, ๐ ๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฒ๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐
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Prim continues to rehearse in the room Diluc showed her earlier, struggling to find a song that could somehow fit the atmosphere and Mondstadt's vibes or agendas.
Hmm...what does Mondstadt...
She freezes as she remembers that song, it was...'her' favorite song. Prim could barely even remember anything or think of anything whenever Dandelions start playing, just remembering the girl she fell for.
"It wouldn't hurt, this could serve as my small step to closure...right?"
She hesitates as thoughts drown her once more, she closes her eyes and takes deep breaths.
"I think...I need fresh air..."
She slowly heads outside, telling one of the maids before heading somewhere in Dawn Winery. As she takes in the beautiful scenery, she slowly feels the pain leaving.
It'll continue hurting me like this until I truly get the closure...I want...
Just for me to remind myself that 'hey, you guys are friends now. No need to hold on to the past'
She hums as the breeze gently caresses her cheeks, feeling relaxed that somehow it made her calm. Grounded her more than anything and made her realize that she has to get over it somehow. After all, it's that girl's loss not hers. That girl lost someone who truly cared and dedicated themself to her despite seeing many beautiful girls and boys, Prim remained loyal and didn't care if the distance was too wide nor the wait would be longer than expected.
She sits on top of a hill nearby and hums.
"Every day we started fighting, every night we fell in love"
The pain kept clawing at her, as if telling her she deserves to feel it. She shouldn't move on from it, yet Prim ignores that and continues singing. The only way to calm her down.
"No one else could make me sadder, but no one else can lift me high above~"
She grips the clothing where her heart is, brows furrowing as the pain gets deeper and deeper. She had to let it out her chest, she's tired of crying. Tired of feeling like she should cry when no tears could ever come out. One where only a song could heal her a little, save her a little...a habit she used to have and escape reality's cruel reminders.
"I don't know what I was doing...when suddenly we fell apart~"
Back to December but I'd go back to November back when we were alright...
We fell in love in October...more like we fell apart in November...
Bound to falling apart...
Prim pushes those thoughts away and sings her heart out, only softly. It'd be rude to wake some people up at night just cause she's in pain.
"Nowadays, I cannot find her...but when we do, we'll get a brand new start..."
If you find her then what?
Will you let your walls fall apart again?
Will you let yourself be hurt again?
How many times do you have to do this to yourself?
You can't change the past, you never could
Enjoy this moment than hurting yourself over it
Heal yourself
Whether your walls fall or not, never expect anything from people
That way, you wouldn't be as hurt as much anymore
You're used to always being left alone, aren't you?
She grits her teeth as the voice comes back.
"I'm in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts..."
She couldn't feel anything that could make her cry, she feels like she should but she couldn't. No tears could come out anymore, as if what remained was an empty shell back to discarding her emotions and feelings.
"I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed..."
She opens her eyes to see crystal flies surrounding her, wanting to comfort her as it seems they feel what she feels. Prim chuckles and gently touches one, closing her eyes with a smile on her face.
"Thank you, lovelies..."
She mumbles before watching them fly away, she lays on the grass and watches the moon. One of her favorite activities during childhood, back when she was always bored in night and couldn't sleep. Her father would take her outside and they'd watch the moon together, he'd tell her stories and they'd wait for a shooting star to make wishes, how innocent and naive she was. Which Prim later found out the 'shooting star' is just a meteor or meteorite in Science Class.
"The Moon is beautiful, isn't it?"
She blurts out and sighs, enjoying the cold breeze of the night and peaceful view.
"It is"
She looks at the side to see Diluc, wearing a cloak and is holding his claymore before making it disappear.
Ah, just like in game, huh?
Yet I'm quite disappointed in that response...
He just stands there, watching her look at him before looking at the moon.
"The sun watches everyone yet the moon keeps our secrets, amazing, right?"
She says, clearly didn't mind him just watching her. She pats the unoccupied grass and he sits there, just looking at the beautiful night sky.
"It's dangerous out here, Your Grace"
He says, trying to persuade Prim into getting back inside. She didn't listen though.
"I can't always be trapped inside forever, Diluc. It feels like I'm back to being a perfect puppet"
He didn't quite catch the last one yet he couldn't help but feel peaceful for once, maybe it was the atmosphere or Prim's doing...maybe the place and the moon did make it seem like that.
No words were spoken the rest of the night as the peaceful atmosphere lasts before the two went back inside.
Somehow, that small interaction seemed to comfort the two at the quiet dark night.
Until they hear monsters lurking around the forest, Diluc immediately summons his claymore and goes infront of Prim.
"Get inside, Your Grace. It is dangerous for you to be out here"
Prim sighs.
"I understand you're worried for my safety, Diluc dear but I must remind you that I am not called the 'Divine One' for nothing"
She says as she feels an attack happen from behind, she quickly puts a hand out and all of a sudden dark vines come out of her palm and trap the 'monster' caged in her dark vines.
These...aren't vines...
As more monsters seem to attack, Prim holds her hand out in shock and summons a lightning in panic.
Diluc hears the clap of thunder as he fights the monsters away, they are a bit far from the Winery so the Winery is safe.
"Your Grace, was that you?"
"I-I think so..."
Prim's heart started beating harshly, she couldn't breathe as her hands started to shake. She first released those 'dark vines' before summoning thunder, heck, she isn't even Raiden Ei to do that.
"Eyes on the battle, My Lady"
Kaeya says as he joins the fight.
"We can talk about your abilities that aren't said in the prophecy later, for now, let's focus on this lovely battle"
Diluc groans at Kaeya's way of smooth talking, Kaeya and Diluc lends their hand out to Prim who looks at them in fear.
"Shall we three dance, Your Grace?"
They ask in unison as Prim hesitantly holds their gloved hand.
"We shall"
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Maya, Zoey, Gabriella, Janelle and Janella
what was your almost name? mine was sofia
to those who are waiting for me to write the next chapter of you will be found.
I apologize for literally not writing or giving teasers.
I'm not in the proper mental state right now and my cat died in my arms.
I'm gonna take time to heal, I'll try to write when I can.
Thank you for understanding.
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"๐'๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ก ๐๐ง๐ ๐'๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ ๐จ, ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ?"
๐๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐๐ฐ๐จ: ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐จ๐ฆ๐๐จ๐ซ๐ญ
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Prim settles in the room Adelinde had told her to stay in for the meantime, the room isn't too bright nor too dark yet despite being just in a room alone. She feels lonely once again. Those thoughts that disappeared are haunting her once more, she can't stop the voices. She can't help but overthink, she's always been an overthinker.
She grips the side of her head, closing her eyes as she counts to 30 in order to calm down. Drowning out the sounds from outside and only focusing on herself.
I hope they make up again
It's not my right to make them fix it cause I said so, they need to fix that bond themselves.
She looks at the window, seeing butterflies. It broke her, she crumbles apart. Everything reminds her of that person again, she couldn't help it. She let them use her account and found out too late that person made a heart on her map just for Prim, she only found out after that talk.
"I guess even if I felt those feelings fade away, I still love you, huh?"
She chuckles as bitter tears stream down her cheeks, she doesn't wipe them and just hugs her knees.
"Mm...I wonder, did everything...feel true? The feelings...the memories...were they all real?"
Prim sighs and stares at the window once more. Realizing how hopeless it is.
"Your Grace?"
"Hm?"
"It's me, Diluc. Did I bother you?"
"No, is there something going on?"
"Jean had sent a letter, about a musical intermission dedicated for you. She wanted to know if you're alright with Venti, the bard, doing the intermission-"
She wipes her tears and opens the door, Diluc notices her swollen eyes but didn't say anything. Afraid he might invade her privacy.
"Venti? As in, Barbatos?"
"Yes..."
"Hm...is it alright if I do the intermission instead? Well, after me. Then Barbatos could"
"As you wish, Your Grace"
Prim smiles at Diluc.
Come to think of it, I accepted the 'Your Grace' title so easily
Well, what else can I do?
I died in the real world
She internally winces at the word 'died'. She then thinks.
"Say, where can I rehearse for the intermission?"
He leads her to a private room with a piano in the middle of it, Prim thinks that this must be a private room.
"Pardon my curiosity, is this a private room?"
"Hm? Well, a room that isn't used anymore. Do not worry, you can use this for your rehearsal"
"Are you sure? This room might be important, I can't just use this if it's important"
"It's alright. I insist, Your Grace"
"Alright. Whatever you say, Mr. Ragnvindr"
They chuckle and Diluc tells her that he'll call for her when food is ready as he leaves her in the piano room alone, Prim notices how clean and beautiful the room is. She approaches the piano and presses a key.
"Ah...I guess it wouldn't hurt to, hm?"
Her fingers, as if controlled, knew where she should place her fingers to play a key. She closes her eyes as she enjoys the melodious sound coming from the piano.
"Trying to be funny and stuck in a room..."
She feels the pain come back, yet she feels numb. Only caring of the tune coming out from the piano.
"There isn't much more to say about it..."
A song that could only express what she feels, despite being in a place filled with people. She feels alone, as if she isn't there. As if she's an empty shell.
"Can one be funny when stuck in a room? Being in, trying to get to get something out of it"
Kaeya, who happened to pass by, hears the tune and voice from outside the room. He couldn't help but eavesdrop as clichรฉ as it is.
"Try making faces, try telling jokes, making little sounds...ugh"
He peeks a little and sees Prim, busy in her own little world as music is the only thing in her mind right now.
"I was a kid who was stuck in his room, there isn't much more to say about it"
He watched her open her eyes, eyes without shine but empty. Hollow...Hollow darkness inside it.
"When you're a kid and you're stuck in your room, you'll do any old shit to get out of it"
Prim's brows were knitted together in frustration of the swear word, Kaeya was taken aback by the swear but everyone does that, yes?
"Try making faces...try telling jokes, making little sounds..."
He felt a pull to her even more, with the way the lyrics remind him of himself. How he relates to every note spilled in the air like an admirer spilling hearts on paper to the person they caught feelings for. Yet the only difference is that it hits him hard, as if directly attacking him. Surely, that wasn't her intention?
"Well, Well...look who's inside again, went out to look for a reason to hide again"
Prim's eyes were filled with sorrow, as if she sees herself going out of the room before hiding back in again. Afraid to be vulnerable, afraid to be known. Afraid to be left alone again.
"Well, Well, buddy you found it"
The sound of keys being played got softer as her singing does as well.
"Now come out with your hands up, we've got you surrounded..."
She lets go of the keys and sighs, covering her face with her hands as she's deep in thoughts once more.
Until she hears a clap shut those voices down.
"What else can you not do?"
Kaeya says, teasing her as if. She didn't feel annoyed at all, but rather, a smile appeared and she looks at him coyly.
"Oh? Such an eavesdropper you are, Sir Alberich"
"A melodious tune and voice can't help but make me stay, like a siren calling out to a pirate and enchanting him with her voice"
"How poetic"
Kaeya enters the room and closes the door, approaching Prim who remains seated.
"I heard from Master Diluc that you'll be doing the first intermission"
"Hm, I volunteered. It was something I used to do back in...back before I descended"
But when I had the time to do it recently, things happened
Prim ignores those bitter thoughts.
"Then will you be performing that song?"
"Of course not, who would want to hear such sorrowful song being sung in a joyous festival?"
Kaeya tilts his head as he watches her look at him with nothing but happiness and warmth, with a little bit of playfulness.
"Care to play me another song?"
"Your wish is my command. What shall I play for you, dear sir?"
"Whatever you prefer"
He takes a seat beside her as she thinks of a song, Klee and Albedo walks in.
"Apologies for the intrusion, Klee was too excited to play with you"
"That's alright, Albedo. How are the preparations?"
"They're doing well, as for your intermission. I am tasked to have the program prepared and sequenced for us to follow"
"I see, what has been decided?"
"A speech, activities for children, intermission and the feast"
"Hm, easy to say but hard to follow"
"Seems like you're well aware of these kind of programs, Your Grace"
"Ah, yes. I've been in charge of it before, always strict to the schedule"
Klee converses with Prim who's happy to indulge the little elf, Kaeya and Albedo watch them with a smile before turning to each other.
"So, what did Lisa say?"
"She said that you and he are her escorts, we also contacted the Traveller who is upon arrival tomorrow"
"I'll be guiding the Traveller tomorrow then"
"Noted - Klee, how about you draw a portrait for her excellency? I'm sure she would appreciate that"
"Okay!"
Klee sits on the floor and pulls out the paper and crayons she has prepared before doodling as her imagination helps her draw what she wants to portray, Albedo then looks at Prim who chuckles at Klee's adorable actions.
"What kind of song will you be singing in the festival?"
"Hm...hard to decide..."
This is different from most intermissions I'm used to
"Then we shall give you time since the festival is weeks away, we'll be taking our leave. Klee, let's go"
Klee hands Prim the drawing she was focused on earlier before they bid their farewells.
Prim then excuses herself to head to her room, Kaeya thought she was just tired.
She went through her bag and noticed her cellphone, earphones and other important items in there.
She then saw the status and it hit her again, the pain. Yet it isn't pain, but rather...an unknown feeling.
Is it cause...she seems so happy without me?
Come on, Prim. Don't be desperate.
Shouldn't you get used to being thrown away?
Get used to it, people will always leave you.
They promise not to yet they do.
Humans tend to make promises they can't keep after all, shouldn't you learn by now?
"No, stop it. Quiet, you don't know anything..."
She hits the sides of her head as she feels her tears be formed again.
"You don't know anything..."
She sniffles, her heart feeling heavy.
I said I wouldn't cry but I did
Why do I feel so empty even when I'm crying?
I'm sad that she seems to be happy without me but...why should I feel so bothered by it when I could be happy as well?
Does she want to be strangers?
How I dedicated a playlist just for her...
How she grounds me, calms me down
She then feels arms wrap around her, she instantly looks up.
"Kaeya...?"
He looks at her, eyes worried as he still remains a smile on his face.
"You shouldn't hit yourself"
He says, his voice is soft. As if afraid he'll scare her and she'll run away.
I may not know what's the reason why she carries such sorrowful aura.
I just can't stand still knowing she's hurt.
And I feel it too...
"Can you take deep breaths for me?"
He softly asks, caressing her hair as her hands are shaking.
"Let's count to ten, shall we?"
She nods, suppressing a whimper as something inside her claws her painfully. As if her throat was being scratched or her chest being stabbed, she struggled to breathe.
"One...Inhale"
She takes a deep breath, Kaeya gently holds her small frame.
"Exhale...two"
As they go on about it, she slowly calmed down. Suddenly tired from all the crying.
"Kaeya?"
"Hm?"
"Sorry for letting you see me like this"
She whispers as she tiredly wipes the dried tears.
"Everyone has their flaws, Your Grace. You don't need to always keep an image that you'll struggle with"
"It's not that...Faรงades are what I'm used to. It's just...there's...pain"
So it is what I feel as well...
What she feels, I feel?
"Maybe I'll heal from it which I hope I will...I can always see it as a happy memory from when I was...naive"
She mutters the last part, Kaeya didn't pry on it. Maybe it's a personal matter, it's her decision to open up to him anyway.
Though it feels like we're both used to keeping our guard up around others
"Thank you for...comforting me, Kaeya"
Prim feels the sentimental warmth again, she's always embarrassed whenever people witnessed her...unsightly side and would be embarrassed whenever she thanks them.
People would often leave after seeing who you are, that's what scares her. So she's back to keeping her guard up again, to lock her heart up until it heals. Until she heals.
"If you ever need anyone, I'm always here to listen"
He says, feeling a sense of...relate out of nowhere.
"You know, Kaeya. I'm glad you're here"
Prim looks at him with a bright smile, though she was crying earlier. It seemed like she cheered up, the heavy feeling long gone and is replaced with happiness.
He felt the warmth once again, how when she's happy, he feels himself being happy too. As if her presence alone gives him a strong pull towards her.
"I'm glad I found you as well, Your Grace"
Maybe this time...he'd let himself feel happiness, just this time.
Kaeya Alberich
Friendship Level: 10
Mood: Happy
Prim feels happy, so...happy.
It feels like the burden from earlier disappeared. Maybe it'll come back, maybe it won't.
I hope this moment will be a happy memory for you, Kaeya Alberich
I hope I can be of help to you the way you saved me
shin here! Sorry if it's angst with comfort at the end, I'm still trying to express the pain in writing. Though it doesn't affect me as much, I just hope somehow...this could also help others who want to heal and escape the pain they're going through. Really sorry if they're ooc, still trying to grasp the character's personalities.
i am looking disrespectfully
My genshin team basically
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"๐๐ญ'๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ฐ๐'๐ซ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฆ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐จ๐ง ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ, ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐จ๐ญ๐ก ๐๐จ๐ง'๐ญ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐๐ง ๐๐จ"
๐๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ: ๐๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฌ
The longer the fight goes on, the more the monsters attack them. Prim is slowly getting a hang of her ability, yet she feels something wrong whenever she uses it. Kaeya and Diluc are the offense, protecting her every weak spot while she covers theirs.
It was like a dance only the three of them could perform, no one can ever attempt to recreate it the way the three of them could.
How every strike, dodge and block could only resemble a dance. How even Pyro and Cryo seem to fit the other so well, how it's like they both could fuse and create a beautiful scene.
How Prim's every summon of her ability, how every step and move she makes could easily cover their weak spots. How she somehow completed the dance, how it seems like a dance that'll never end.
"Well that's a job well done"
Kaeya says as they finish wiping out the monsters for the night, unsheathing his sword as he then looks at Prim. Seeing her gently hold her hands together as it starts to shake.
I must've used too much
She keeps quiet as she tries to ignore the pain of her shaking hands, Diluc checks if there's anyone preparing to attack them with their guard down as he then notices Prim's shaking hands.
He then remembered a prophecy from the Cathedral, one that no one could ever forget nor even miss a single detail from the book in the library.
'The Creator preferred peace over war, she hated the fact there will be sides chosen. Battling one another and hurting everyone in the process, leaving nothing but trauma in their heads as they never try to heal it. How they ignore their pain as they strive for non-existent victory. Her abilities are strong, but she never had the thought of using it against anyone. Afraid that she could hurt someone in the process, ruin their lives and she'd blame herself for hurting the beautiful creation.'
Prim feels hands hold over her shaking hands, it was Diluc and Kaeya. One is looking at her with a worried glance while the other softly smiles at her.
"Let's get you back inside, Your Grace"
They softly say in unison, Prim's hands are holding Diluc and Kaeya's. She walks in the middle as they peacefully walk back to Dawn Winery, her hands are still shaking, but with the help of their visions. It somehow eases a bit of the pain.
The walk was silent, yet none of them mind it. The soft breeze of the wind, the moon shining upon them and the peace of the night is enough for them to enjoy this moment together.
Somehow, the maids have noticed one thing. Their masters, Kaeya and Diluc, are always with Prim, the Creator. The three of them each have different personalities yet it feels natural, as if the Creator had always been there with them. Kaeya being the talkative smooth talker, Prim being soft spoken but will be sassy when needed while Diluc gives a few comments here and there and just listens to the conversation.
Somehow, the Winery became lively. It also warmed their hearts that Kaeya and Diluc still do banters but more of a sibling one, they can't help but thank the Creator for making them reconcile again even if Prim did nothing for that to happen.
"The Festival is in a week, is everything prepared?"
Prim softly asks as she takes a sip of her juice while Kaeya hums and Diluc quietly eats his meal.
"Yes, all that needs is for you and Venti to do some intermission practices together. A duet he says"
"I see..."
Then the conversation changes.
"You know, I heard that Master Diluc smiles more when we're here."
"Oh, quit it."
Diluc softly says but no malice is behind the tone, causing Kaeya to smile genuinely and Prim's heart feels warm. She wants to cry in happiness.
They're making up...
I'm so happy...
As the three continue to banter during breakfast, the Winery is filled with warmth and happiness. The atmosphere turns into a lively one.