'To heal, it takes time. May be soon or not, I just hope you find yourself along the way'
Prologue
Prim stares at the message she woke up to, there was nothing official in the first place yet she had caught feelings along the way. The journey that they shared was sweet while it lasted, but I guess people drift apart to the point they start to realize things they usually didn't realize when they were younger.
Maybe she could play Genshin to ignore the emptiness she feels, how she feels like she went back to her pre-quarantine self who feels pain and nothing.
Or maybe, she could just try to heal and think of what she feels.
But she feels nothing, ever since things kept happening, she continued to feel nothing anymore. The emotions, they're there. Yet she comes home, feeling nothing but a void of emptiness.
She decides to play Genshin, she's trying to fix Kaeya's build anyway. Awfully regretting she didn't level up Beidou's talents yesterday as well but she decides to let it be first, she needs to focus on Kaeya for the meantime before Beidou, then Kazuha, then Xiao.
TEYVAT AWAITS YOU, CREATOR!
Wait until 00:00 (The Next Day) before heading to Mondstadt
Prim blinks, thinking of it as just a new quest as she decides to do that after finishing her comms. She needs the primogems after all.
"alright, I guess I should do that quest"
She mumbles, even if she wanted to finish her Raiden Shogun Quest where she battles La Signora or Rosalyne. Yet her characters aren't built properly yet, it's like heading straight for suicide.
It wouldn't hurt to do another quest that isn't the Raiden Shogun's, yes?
Oh, how those were her last words in the real world.
Welcome to Teyvat, Creator! Are you ready to heal and create new memories?
In this quest you wish to heal the emptiness and to gain your emotions back, Teyvat hopes that we can help you as much as you helped us. By helping Traveller find their twin without giving up despite the others not being much of help, Traveller and Paimon will help you in your journey as much as you helped them.
Will you let us help the way you help us, Your Excellency?
As the start of my first SAGAU Series, I will take this as my way of healing. Whether it helps you heal too or not, it's okay. I just want to pour my feelings out, for every pain and numbness to be written so when I look back, I can be glad that I'm still here and made my way into healing.
Heizou with a Criminology Major perhaps?
SAGAU where Reader was a college student before being isekai'd into Teyvat
Tighnari with a Forestry and Sustainability major Reader. He is always following you around with questions, trying to write down everything you say. He is absolutely horrified when you tell him about deforestation and logging. Heโs never seen it happen, but just hearing about the Amazon Rainforest made him angry enough to go on a twenty-minute rant that you needed to calm him down from. Tighnari loves taking you out on his ranger patrols. You truly appreciate and are blown away by the forests of Sumeru and to him, thereโs nothing better than your wide-eyed expression of amazement as you find a new plant or stand beneath a giant tree. He would climb any tree, no matter how tall, or face any dangerous beasts just to bring something back that would make your face brighten and break out in a huge smile.
Diluc with a Fermentation Science major Reader. When you first tell him what you were studying at university, he was absolutely floored. He found it baffling and moronic to dedicate four years and a whole course of study, but when you explained its more to ensure that food and drink were fermented safely, he slowly warms up to the idea. You like accompanying him on his business duties as he walks around Dawn Winery to make sure operations are going smoothly. Although he doesnโt partake in alcohol himself, he listens when you suggest different ways of brewing wine and ale or to invest in different flavors. With your advice, his business booms even more than before and Diluc has more money to (not so) secretly spoil you with. (He also has to keep you away from Kaeya who constantly begs to try your latest idea/sample).
Zhongli with a History major Reader. He loves listening to your stories almost as much as you love listening to his. Although, sometimes Zhongli can't help but be slightly horrified at how much bloodshed your worldโs history contains. Heโs no stranger to wars, but two world wars and a war almost every decade make him shudder. But he is also fascinated by the human progress in your world and the thousands and thousands of cultures. He has so many questions, a lot of them go beyond your area of expertise, but thatโs alright. And he has no qualms about answering yours, even if he has to think about the answer for a while. The two of you are content sitting for hours, drinking tea, and exchanging facts.
Alhaitham with a Public History major Reader. Your wide knowledge of history interested him already, but when he found out you wanted to work in archives after university, the man will not leave you alone. He asks you how archives work in your world and is amazed about the different archives your world has (museums, universities, government). Sometimes he takes you to work to show you how the Akademiya handles archives and puts you to work by accident. He feels guilty when he looks over and sees you hunched over large tomes, but his heart swells with joy knowing that youโre interested in the same things as him.
Albedo with a Biology or Chemistry major Reader. Alchemy is far different from modern science, but it shares similar roots. He pries you for every last drop of knowledge you have and you have to stop him so you can take a break. You do enjoy helping him with his research. You help him break down the organic compositions of items and prioritize lab safety over everything. Far too many times youโve hurriedly had to move stacks of books away from an open flame or stop Albedo from nearly inhaling a chemical. Although ingesting lethal chemicals wonโt kill him, Albedo appreciates you caring for his well-being and may or may not keep doing it just so you can chastise him and make sure he doesnโt have any injuries.
Kaveh with a Civil Engineering major Reader. Kaveh instantly relates to your struggle. He understands the all-nighters trying to figure out math problems and draw up blueprints. (Although he is jealous over energy drinks in your world, he wishes he had them when he was a student). Kaveh likes listening to what you did in your classes and all the technology you used, but if you try to offer him advice on his latest architectural plans, he wonโt listen. He admires and respects you, but his buildings are his creations and his alone. The next grand building he plans on constructing though, he plans on dedicating it to you.
Venti with a Music Education major Reader. He joins you when you help out at the Church. Although the public typically isnโt allowed to sit in during choir practice, an exception is made for him. He loves watching you help direct warm-ups and conduct songs. And nothing fills his heart with more delight than watching you help the children of Mondstat sing nursery rhymes or hum lullabies to them late at night. He insists on duets, complete with instruments. The two of you harmonizing together draw in the largest crowds in Mondstat, no matter how many times the two of you have performed before.
Kazuha with a Creative writing major Reader makes more sense (but Iโve had this idea for a while and canโt properly write it out ) but Kazuha with a Visual Arts major Reader. Youโre a very talented artist considering you got accepted into art school, but youโre also very dedicated and innovative. Youโve always wanted to make your own paint and the land of Teyvat was all too willing to offer you fresh and natural materials to make your own, specific shades. The maple leaves of Inazuma were the exact shade you needed to paint a certain samurai. When you showed your portrait to Kazuha, he was absolutely blown away and honored by your painting. He keeps it close to him as a reminder of your endearment for him. Kazuha now travels through the lands with a new purpose in mind, to find you the best materials for you to paint with.
A thought came to my mind after rewatching horimiya which is a beautiful show btw, you guys should watch it ^^^
What if there's Miyamura! MC or Akane Yanagi! MC in Devildom?
For the Miyamura one, the character is portrayed in Horimiya's Episode 1 until the Character Arc where he spoilers accepts himself and moves on from his past because he's found his people, people who accept him and changed his world and point of view, who he calls his friends, his family. Of course, the part where he feels happy whenever he has friends and always invites him wherever or whatever the occasion is, also the haircut, piercings and tattoos are still there, it isn't Miyamura MC without Miyamura's other details and all especially being a wallflower until they eventually step out of the darkness. Hair is long like in Episode 1, wears glasses and looks gloomy until that hot glow up when he cut his hair. Grades are awful but not as worse as Mammon's as stated from Hori when she saw Miyamura's grades.
For the Akane Yanagi! MC, of course, pretty as fuck and timid wallflower, formal when speaking until they slowly get used to talking casually with friends. They're not an early bird in mornings and struggle to wake up early to the point you have to drag them out of bed. They have poor eyesight as well until they get glasses or contacts.
So, what do you guys think? Want me to write it? Or if you want to write something like that, feel free to take the idea as long as you tag me so I can read and appreciate it as well!
Feel free to lend me your thoughts in the comments!
Genuine question moot, how do I marry Kanae bcause broo,,,,
What ๐ง๐ง
THEY SAID IT
THEY SAID THE THING
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"๐๐ ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐ก๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐, ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฆ๐ ๐ญ๐จ๐จ?"
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'To heal, it takes time. May be soon or not, I just hope you find yourself along the way'
This masterlist will serve as the journey of Prim/Shinsuke (me) healing both through Prim's Journey in Healing and finding herself as well as Me, Shinsuke, finding writing as a way to heal myself.
As a reminder, this series may mention trauma (which I will not elaborate or else it'll take us time) and if you are sensitive to it, feel free to scroll.
By this, maybe writing and making my oc cope or deal with it in a healthy way can help me heal too. As it is truly the time for me to heal and live my life with no chains holding me back. Again, this is my way of healing, you can read this whether you want to or not. It's appreciated
Prim
THE JOURNEY
I.
Prologue
Chapter One: Mondstadt, City of Freedom
Chapter Two: The Comfort
Chapter Three: The Darknight Hero, Fairytale
Chapter Four: Dance with the Ragbros
Chapter Five: Dandelions
Chapter Six: One Last Dance
Chapter Seven: Rizzbedo and Death Stare
Chapter Eight: I'm just human
( NEW STORY QUEST UNLOCKEDโผ๏ธ)
"This is the story of the Almighty Creator, a journey that even Cathedrals and History books cannot record. But beware when reading, it gets personal and it will not only feel like invasion, but it will also feel disturbing. If you wish to proceed with this lore, then you shall have fun."
Closed Walls
Closed Walls: Prologue
Closed Walls: Chapter One
bonus if somehow, y/n ends up making a character in their book based on [genshin character] and sighs in realization or like, makes a book about their whole experience in teyvat but makes it seem like a fairytale kind
An author (Y/N) who doesn't know Genshin exists, but suddenly is in Genshin Self Aware/Cult AU. She doesn't know who everyone is and everyone thinks she has amnesia. So like, now (Y/N) is now having everyone jumping on her making attempts for her to remember and (Y/N) is making attempts to hide from everybody to escape Genshin so she can continue making novels in peace.
Words can't describe how much I love this man
deku saying โhi babyโ instantly makes me want to throw a fit. big hand on ur face rubbing his thumb along yr cheek as u stir awake. im in agony
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I hope you are well๐น
Can you help me get my voice heard
and share my family's story?๐๐ป
Can you Reblog my pinned post from my blog or donate 10$?
By helping to reblog my story, you could
save a family from death and war.๐น
Thank you very much๐ธ
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^^
๐๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐๐ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐
"๐๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ '๐ฌ ๐ง๐๐ฐ, ๐ง๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ '๐ฌ ๐ง๐๐ฐ."
๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ฌ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฌ: ๐๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐๐ง๐
WARNING: VERY DISTURBING.
A/N: It's been a while and I deeply apologize if the second day of 2024 is what you'll see of this. I feel like shit and I wanna puke my guts out. My need for therapy is being ignored so here I am, coping!
She stares at the toilet as the contents of it were finally out, but not the feelings of guilt as she keeps feeling like shit.
I shouldn't have, why was I selfish?
The voices are back and she hates it, she pukes it out once more even if there's nothing for her to puke anymore.
If I say sorry, she'll say shit. If I don't, she'll say shit.
She holds back the tears as she pukes it out again.
This is why I hate being happy, I end up hurting someone in the process.
As she keeps puking it out, her stomach hurts and it causes her to puke unnecessary...bile.
She doesn't care if she dies anymore, she's not going to eat.
Why did I even go there?
She feels her tears well up and she wipes them, she's not about to be an attention-seeker.
Why didn't anyone tell her?
She wouldn't have done it if somebody told her.
Now she's gonna end up feeling like shit.
Now, she's going to stop eating thanks to the triggers again.
๐๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐๐ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐
"๐'๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ก ๐๐ง๐ ๐'๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ ๐จ, ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ?"
๐๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐๐ฐ๐จ: ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐จ๐ฆ๐๐จ๐ซ๐ญ
masterlist
Prim settles in the room Adelinde had told her to stay in for the meantime, the room isn't too bright nor too dark yet despite being just in a room alone. She feels lonely once again. Those thoughts that disappeared are haunting her once more, she can't stop the voices. She can't help but overthink, she's always been an overthinker.
She grips the side of her head, closing her eyes as she counts to 30 in order to calm down. Drowning out the sounds from outside and only focusing on herself.
I hope they make up again
It's not my right to make them fix it cause I said so, they need to fix that bond themselves.
She looks at the window, seeing butterflies. It broke her, she crumbles apart. Everything reminds her of that person again, she couldn't help it. She let them use her account and found out too late that person made a heart on her map just for Prim, she only found out after that talk.
"I guess even if I felt those feelings fade away, I still love you, huh?"
She chuckles as bitter tears stream down her cheeks, she doesn't wipe them and just hugs her knees.
"Mm...I wonder, did everything...feel true? The feelings...the memories...were they all real?"
Prim sighs and stares at the window once more. Realizing how hopeless it is.
"Your Grace?"
"Hm?"
"It's me, Diluc. Did I bother you?"
"No, is there something going on?"
"Jean had sent a letter, about a musical intermission dedicated for you. She wanted to know if you're alright with Venti, the bard, doing the intermission-"
She wipes her tears and opens the door, Diluc notices her swollen eyes but didn't say anything. Afraid he might invade her privacy.
"Venti? As in, Barbatos?"
"Yes..."
"Hm...is it alright if I do the intermission instead? Well, after me. Then Barbatos could"
"As you wish, Your Grace"
Prim smiles at Diluc.
Come to think of it, I accepted the 'Your Grace' title so easily
Well, what else can I do?
I died in the real world
She internally winces at the word 'died'. She then thinks.
"Say, where can I rehearse for the intermission?"
He leads her to a private room with a piano in the middle of it, Prim thinks that this must be a private room.
"Pardon my curiosity, is this a private room?"
"Hm? Well, a room that isn't used anymore. Do not worry, you can use this for your rehearsal"
"Are you sure? This room might be important, I can't just use this if it's important"
"It's alright. I insist, Your Grace"
"Alright. Whatever you say, Mr. Ragnvindr"
They chuckle and Diluc tells her that he'll call for her when food is ready as he leaves her in the piano room alone, Prim notices how clean and beautiful the room is. She approaches the piano and presses a key.
"Ah...I guess it wouldn't hurt to, hm?"
Her fingers, as if controlled, knew where she should place her fingers to play a key. She closes her eyes as she enjoys the melodious sound coming from the piano.
"Trying to be funny and stuck in a room..."
She feels the pain come back, yet she feels numb. Only caring of the tune coming out from the piano.
"There isn't much more to say about it..."
A song that could only express what she feels, despite being in a place filled with people. She feels alone, as if she isn't there. As if she's an empty shell.
"Can one be funny when stuck in a room? Being in, trying to get to get something out of it"
Kaeya, who happened to pass by, hears the tune and voice from outside the room. He couldn't help but eavesdrop as clichรฉ as it is.
"Try making faces, try telling jokes, making little sounds...ugh"
He peeks a little and sees Prim, busy in her own little world as music is the only thing in her mind right now.
"I was a kid who was stuck in his room, there isn't much more to say about it"
He watched her open her eyes, eyes without shine but empty. Hollow...Hollow darkness inside it.
"When you're a kid and you're stuck in your room, you'll do any old shit to get out of it"
Prim's brows were knitted together in frustration of the swear word, Kaeya was taken aback by the swear but everyone does that, yes?
"Try making faces...try telling jokes, making little sounds..."
He felt a pull to her even more, with the way the lyrics remind him of himself. How he relates to every note spilled in the air like an admirer spilling hearts on paper to the person they caught feelings for. Yet the only difference is that it hits him hard, as if directly attacking him. Surely, that wasn't her intention?
"Well, Well...look who's inside again, went out to look for a reason to hide again"
Prim's eyes were filled with sorrow, as if she sees herself going out of the room before hiding back in again. Afraid to be vulnerable, afraid to be known. Afraid to be left alone again.
"Well, Well, buddy you found it"
The sound of keys being played got softer as her singing does as well.
"Now come out with your hands up, we've got you surrounded..."
She lets go of the keys and sighs, covering her face with her hands as she's deep in thoughts once more.
Until she hears a clap shut those voices down.
"What else can you not do?"
Kaeya says, teasing her as if. She didn't feel annoyed at all, but rather, a smile appeared and she looks at him coyly.
"Oh? Such an eavesdropper you are, Sir Alberich"
"A melodious tune and voice can't help but make me stay, like a siren calling out to a pirate and enchanting him with her voice"
"How poetic"
Kaeya enters the room and closes the door, approaching Prim who remains seated.
"I heard from Master Diluc that you'll be doing the first intermission"
"Hm, I volunteered. It was something I used to do back in...back before I descended"
But when I had the time to do it recently, things happened
Prim ignores those bitter thoughts.
"Then will you be performing that song?"
"Of course not, who would want to hear such sorrowful song being sung in a joyous festival?"
Kaeya tilts his head as he watches her look at him with nothing but happiness and warmth, with a little bit of playfulness.
"Care to play me another song?"
"Your wish is my command. What shall I play for you, dear sir?"
"Whatever you prefer"
He takes a seat beside her as she thinks of a song, Klee and Albedo walks in.
"Apologies for the intrusion, Klee was too excited to play with you"
"That's alright, Albedo. How are the preparations?"
"They're doing well, as for your intermission. I am tasked to have the program prepared and sequenced for us to follow"
"I see, what has been decided?"
"A speech, activities for children, intermission and the feast"
"Hm, easy to say but hard to follow"
"Seems like you're well aware of these kind of programs, Your Grace"
"Ah, yes. I've been in charge of it before, always strict to the schedule"
Klee converses with Prim who's happy to indulge the little elf, Kaeya and Albedo watch them with a smile before turning to each other.
"So, what did Lisa say?"
"She said that you and he are her escorts, we also contacted the Traveller who is upon arrival tomorrow"
"I'll be guiding the Traveller tomorrow then"
"Noted - Klee, how about you draw a portrait for her excellency? I'm sure she would appreciate that"
"Okay!"
Klee sits on the floor and pulls out the paper and crayons she has prepared before doodling as her imagination helps her draw what she wants to portray, Albedo then looks at Prim who chuckles at Klee's adorable actions.
"What kind of song will you be singing in the festival?"
"Hm...hard to decide..."
This is different from most intermissions I'm used to
"Then we shall give you time since the festival is weeks away, we'll be taking our leave. Klee, let's go"
Klee hands Prim the drawing she was focused on earlier before they bid their farewells.
Prim then excuses herself to head to her room, Kaeya thought she was just tired.
She went through her bag and noticed her cellphone, earphones and other important items in there.
She then saw the status and it hit her again, the pain. Yet it isn't pain, but rather...an unknown feeling.
Is it cause...she seems so happy without me?
Come on, Prim. Don't be desperate.
Shouldn't you get used to being thrown away?
Get used to it, people will always leave you.
They promise not to yet they do.
Humans tend to make promises they can't keep after all, shouldn't you learn by now?
"No, stop it. Quiet, you don't know anything..."
She hits the sides of her head as she feels her tears be formed again.
"You don't know anything..."
She sniffles, her heart feeling heavy.
I said I wouldn't cry but I did
Why do I feel so empty even when I'm crying?
I'm sad that she seems to be happy without me but...why should I feel so bothered by it when I could be happy as well?
Does she want to be strangers?
How I dedicated a playlist just for her...
How she grounds me, calms me down
She then feels arms wrap around her, she instantly looks up.
"Kaeya...?"
He looks at her, eyes worried as he still remains a smile on his face.
"You shouldn't hit yourself"
He says, his voice is soft. As if afraid he'll scare her and she'll run away.
I may not know what's the reason why she carries such sorrowful aura.
I just can't stand still knowing she's hurt.
And I feel it too...
"Can you take deep breaths for me?"
He softly asks, caressing her hair as her hands are shaking.
"Let's count to ten, shall we?"
She nods, suppressing a whimper as something inside her claws her painfully. As if her throat was being scratched or her chest being stabbed, she struggled to breathe.
"One...Inhale"
She takes a deep breath, Kaeya gently holds her small frame.
"Exhale...two"
As they go on about it, she slowly calmed down. Suddenly tired from all the crying.
"Kaeya?"
"Hm?"
"Sorry for letting you see me like this"
She whispers as she tiredly wipes the dried tears.
"Everyone has their flaws, Your Grace. You don't need to always keep an image that you'll struggle with"
"It's not that...Faรงades are what I'm used to. It's just...there's...pain"
So it is what I feel as well...
What she feels, I feel?
"Maybe I'll heal from it which I hope I will...I can always see it as a happy memory from when I was...naive"
She mutters the last part, Kaeya didn't pry on it. Maybe it's a personal matter, it's her decision to open up to him anyway.
Though it feels like we're both used to keeping our guard up around others
"Thank you for...comforting me, Kaeya"
Prim feels the sentimental warmth again, she's always embarrassed whenever people witnessed her...unsightly side and would be embarrassed whenever she thanks them.
People would often leave after seeing who you are, that's what scares her. So she's back to keeping her guard up again, to lock her heart up until it heals. Until she heals.
"If you ever need anyone, I'm always here to listen"
He says, feeling a sense of...relate out of nowhere.
"You know, Kaeya. I'm glad you're here"
Prim looks at him with a bright smile, though she was crying earlier. It seemed like she cheered up, the heavy feeling long gone and is replaced with happiness.
He felt the warmth once again, how when she's happy, he feels himself being happy too. As if her presence alone gives him a strong pull towards her.
"I'm glad I found you as well, Your Grace"
Maybe this time...he'd let himself feel happiness, just this time.
Kaeya Alberich
Friendship Level: 10
Mood: Happy
Prim feels happy, so...happy.
It feels like the burden from earlier disappeared. Maybe it'll come back, maybe it won't.
I hope this moment will be a happy memory for you, Kaeya Alberich
I hope I can be of help to you the way you saved me
shin here! Sorry if it's angst with comfort at the end, I'm still trying to express the pain in writing. Though it doesn't affect me as much, I just hope somehow...this could also help others who want to heal and escape the pain they're going through. Really sorry if they're ooc, still trying to grasp the character's personalities.