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hi i read u 1st time , u r wonderful, keep it up

I am thankful to you for your kind compliments.

"... Mind turning around?"

(Repost - after Tumblr moral policing)

It is indeed funny to observe a fully grown, quite-masculine a man to show his softer side and request for a permission to use my hips. And mind it, it’s not something that’s apparent only in the men I have known before, but even with most that I have been sent as a courtesan to, or even by the ones I got myself ‘hunted’ down and then taken away with him.

I have observed that most men, feel that the conquest over their woman isn’t complete until they have done something that is drastic enough to either make their efforts to do it look satisfactory, or, they have inflicted (which sometimes may just be a belief) pain on their woman to make her cringe before him and submit. Both of these conditions are satisfied when they receive the consent to do it there, for no matter how experienced one is, it still needs effort to get into the ‘position’ and the inflicted ‘pain’ when the union happens.

In either case, an element of force becomes necessary for him to convey the message to the woman that she is his property, for minutes/hours/days, however temporary the ownership is. The need to establish control has been a fundamental criteria, more with the men who have hunted me and those I have been sent to as a part of my courtesan arrangement. My husbands have been more secure and they know that they don’t need to ask me for my permission to use my hips. They have developed the ability to sense my mood and know the answer even before they would ask. The hunters, on the other hand would feel the need to exert authority and it is often when after they have attained the primary satisfaction, and is in mood to pleasure himself once more, would have popped the question, “mind turning around? really feel like using your hips”…well, that’s actually a much watered down version of the actual words used to convey their desire.

Being asked that question makes me feel proud as a woman. It tells me that he found me attractive enough to want to explore more about me. The element of pain involved in allowing a man to 'use my hips’ is always present, but the satisfaction from knowing that I am being owned by him and he is getting satisfaction from ‘using me’ for that phase is exciting enough for me to usually consent to his request for use.

Hi Shefaali.. After reading ur blog.. I m intrigued to know how would ur husband react to ur status as a courtesan. Would he appreciate or approve of it.. Feel justifiably proud of his extremely extraordinary wife.. Or would he be a pedestrian male sample and feel crushed?

Although I am firm believer in the hotwife concept, I do not think my husband would have approved of me being a courtesan, I don’t think any man would approve of it unless it is motivated by financial needs.

My husband is fully aware that I wasn’t a virgin on our wedding night. I had the trust in him to admit it to him and he has been wonderfully matured to accept me as a human being, and not as a utopian virgin who he would deflower on his wedding night. We both trust each other enough to look into each other’s eye and admit of our sexual life prior to meeting each other. So, if I have to answer your question above, I think he would neither appreciate it, nor approve of it. He probably would not mind if he came to know that there is one or some selected men that I give my body to for gaining physical pleasure. He has a strong libido and will know what his absence can cause in his wife from a physical perspective. However, being a courtesan is a completely different ball game…lol…’ball’ game indeed.

My husband was/is/will never ever be a ‘pedestrian male sample’ (and I really have a strong objection to that phrase being used for my husband). I do not think he would be crushed, but yeah, actually feel more charged up to reclaim his property to make it his own again. He would know that a ‘law’ will not prevent his wife from leading the life of a courtesan. Probably the only way it could happen is when he pleasures me to that extent where his wife willingly gives up being a courtesan. Jealousy and pettiness is NOT what defines my husband.

He is maturity personified and will act accordingly to bring a situation, any situation under his control. I hope this answers your question.

Not an ask but more of a praise - I am hooked to your posts and to the beautiful yet simple representation of your thoughts. I wish I had the skills of writing this praise in more apt/decorative words but as it is well said - language is just a crutch to a cripple - I still will not be able to express it all. Kudos, love and regards from Toronto. Keep writing!

Wow!. I am flattered. Thank you so much for the kind compliments when all I did was to let me hands move on while the multitude thoughts, expressions and emotions flooded my head when I saw an image or video here that rekindled them. Thank you, once again.

Question 2: What attracts you about prospective bulls or other men due to which you might want to become intimate with them?

I don’t think I have an exhaustive list, or at all any note listing the attributes which attract me to a man.

I feel this is a very subjective topic. In some cases the bulls have been men who my stag had selected for me, and I met them only after my stag had fixed up our appointment / situation to meet each other based on who he wanted to get me done by. I think I have already posted a few notes which answers this question. In some instances where I had selected the bull to be with, have been based entirely on my instinct at that particular point in time which prompted me to go ahead. In general (and again this isn’t cast in stone) I have experienced a greater degree of attraction to men who had displayed more masculine characteristics, like facial / body hair, a slightly greater exhibition of aggressiveness to possess me, preferably taller than I am etc. I know these are very superficial, but then who was looking for anything serious there?

To sum-up, it’s all very subjective. I do not have a definitive list of attributes.

Your blog is a window into your mind and I love peaking into that window. Waiting for your next post. And thanks for everything you have written here.

Thank you for the kind words.

When are you writing next part of Garaik and I? Please make it soon.

I did today.

are u interested in incest? whats your thoughts on the consensual incest

I have never been involved in an incestuous relationship. I am afraid I cannot comment upon it. If I labelled it either as bad or good without having sufficient knowledge on the topic, I would be overstepping my boundaries. I am not a social police who is here to be a judgemental. My concepts are quite simple, a long as I am not causing hurt to anyone else, it doesn’t matter what I do. Hopefully that answers the second part of your question.

And for the first part, no, I never felt inclined towards anyone within my family. i don’t think anyone is “interested in incest”. People sometimes develop interest towards a family member, which when consummated is “termed as incest”.

Trust that answers your questions.

My emotions knows no boundaries after reading your sexual experience

Well, I am not sure if that’s a good, bad or ugly thing to happen. Assuming you are considering it to be a good thing to happen, let me thank you for the words.

A friend of my best friend always loved flirting with me, and I kind of flirted back. I tried to avoid meeting him alone. Somewhere along things got serious and one of the days when he had come to my house while my husband was away, he touched me casually. It felt good and I didn’t stop him. This photo is a beautiful representation of the reaction that I had when eventually he carried me to our bedroom and I pulled his underwear off to see a really attractive and well formed erection spring out. I wondered how he could keep that inside without being understood from outside. He fucked me twice that evening and I was a permanent invitee to all his parties thereafter. Been to his house many times since, most willingly.